MONDAY, DECEMBER 15, 2003

ONE HOUR OF TIME

A man came home from work late again, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door. "Daddy, may I ask you a question?"

"Yeah, sure, what is it?" replied the man.

"Daddy, how much money do you make an hour?"

"That's none of your business. What makes you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.

"I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?" pleaded the little boy.

"If you must know, I make $20.00 an hour."

"Oh," the little boy replied, head bowed.

Looking up, he said, "Daddy, may I borrow $10.00 please?"

The father was furious. "If the only reason you wanted to know how much money I make is just so you can borrow some to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you're being so selfish. I work long, hard hours everyday and don't have time for such childish games."

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door. The man sat down and started to get even madder about the little boy's questioning. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money. After an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think he may have been a little hard on his son. Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

"Are you asleep son?" he asked.

"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.

"I've been thinking, may be I was too hard on you earlier," said the man.

"It's been a long day and I took my aggravation out on you. Here's that $10.00 you asked for."

"The little boy sat straight up, beaming. "Oh, thank you daddy" he yelled.

Then, reaching under his pillow, he pulled out some more crumpled up bills.The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again. The little boy slowly counted out his money, then looked up at the man. "Why did you want more money if you already had some? " the father grumbled.

"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied.

"Daddy, I have $20.00 now. Can I buy an hour of your time?"

~ Share $20.00 worth of time with someone you love..just a short reminder to all of us working so hard for our living. However, let us not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some quality time with those who really matter to us. ~

~ 12:17 p.m. ~

SUNDAY, DECEMBER 14, 2003

Today's a pretty boring day, nothing much happened. I recorded my singing and put it in the dejavu section of this website but, i think there's something faulty with the link...hmmm..

Anyway, i chatted through a mike with Joy today. I was like wow, cuz it was pretty much a split minute decision but anyway, her voice was pretty nice :). Lolz, great to know her...

My youngest aunt came over to Singapore from indonesia today and is staying  until after my brother's wedding. However, i haven't seen her yet cuz she's staying over at my eldest aunt's place, a terrace house. WOW.

Still waiting for that course to start... they said they are renovating the office first, so i would have to wait until next week to start the lessons proper. I've got an uneasy feeling about this....hmmm...

I really really really want to go out but nobody seems to be available, so had to kinda, ya noe, rot in front of the computer instead, lolz...poor o'me.Haizzz...My dad will be closing this internet connection in January next year and change it with a cheaper alternative broadband server. I'm just wondering what i am going to do during this interval...it would be sooooooo boring! Nevermind, just another milestone in my life...lolz.

I'm planning on writing a story. I've already got the name. "10 000 words of memories". Hope it'll go well...my vocabulary is pretty limited so i think i'll need lot of english pros help <evil grin>....Kay, that would be all for today. CiAo!!!

~ 5:47 p.m. ~

SATURDAY, DECEMBER 13, 2003

I was lying on my bed just now, pondering over millions of things. One thing that really bugged my mind was loneliness. Imagine being in a scenario when you are totally on your own, with no one to confide to, no one that really cares about you, no one, no one at all, that know your existence. Does that seemed scary? It does to me.

Inevitable, as it would be, there would be times when we would all feel lonely. In such a big world, Loneliness plagues as easy as counting 1, 2, 3. Loneliness comes in two forms. One is natural, another, deliberate.

The natural form would be times that we are incidentally caught in cases of confusion and and in need of company. For example, while cleaning up a house, a housewife may be feeling at a loss of things and may be thinking, why no one was helping her, then, feelings of loneliness would slowly creep into her heart. Such cases are rife but nothing to worry about.

Loneliness in deliberate form is what we call, self-inflicted. I have a cousin in Indonesia. He used to be a bubbly and  cheerful boy and was even at one time, my confidant. However, after an unsuccessful relationship with a girl who gave him the green hat, he became very quiet and introvert. He sought loneliness as a way to ease his pain. I'm sure this is not the only case and it must had happened to many other people. I think that people who deliberately seclude themselves are actually harming themselves. Building walls instead of bridges is not the way to solve problems. Just like abused drugs, such measures only works for a while, not forever. Rather, such people should open themselves up.Let new experiences come in, make more friends. There is only one thing more painful than learning from experiences and that is not learning from experiences. Things would eventually turn out best for people who make the best of how things turn out. As the saying goes, " Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow". Be brave and face the reality, be the change that you want to see in the world. The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience but rather, where he stands during challenge and controversy.

To know yourself, being able to work from there, and be proud of who you really are is the way to go. Only then would you be able to triumph over loneliness, for loneliness are only for people who do not know what to do or people who do not know themselves well. So, to be one with your body as well as your mind is the only solution to overcome all adversities, not just loneliness, but many more others, like hate or jealousy. Thats all for now. May peace be upon us all...

~ 3:36 p.m. ~

FRIDAY, DECEMBER 12, 2003

Oh WOw!YES!!! Finally, i've fully completed this whole website!!! Took me quite awhile. I was still making this website early in the morning and now, i've finally finished it!!! lolx...man.. i can finally take a break...whoo.. im so tired...* yawn *

I've always wondered, if the world were to end tomorrow, who would you want to be with, and what would you say to them? For me, all these are still left undecided. I mean, certainly, the people that i want to be with, are my family and friends, but what to actually say to them is still a dilemma. As the saying goes, " Life is not a having and a getting, but a being and becoming ". To understand and know what is really instored for us is both a good & bad thing.

The good thing would be the fact that i would be more prepared, but the bad thing is, would being prepared be a chapter that is already written in my life book long before i was even born? To know what to say, thus, would not be a matter of choice but rather what is already fixed, isn't it? Man often struggles to find life outside himself, unaware that the life he is seeking is already within him.

Thus, in conclusion to my point, i think that, to know and not to know anything, anything at all, is our choice. The options are all in our minds and the answers lies within our hearts. All decisions are really up to us... Some people say there are only two ways to live life. One is as though everthing is a miracle. The other is as though nothing is a miracle. For me? I choose neither, for miracles only happens in a person when he or she knows his or her own heart, if a person do not, miracles, of course, will never happen.

~ 3:43 p.m. ~

THURSDAY, DECEMBER 11, 2003

Kay, this is my first baby step into implementing an online journal in my webpage... so far...its going pretty well, if i may say so... lolx.

Anyway, i watch "Animatrix - Final  Flight Of The Osiris" on DVD in the wee hours of 3am yesterday...it was pretty interesting...i can only wonder how the producers was able to bring out so many daughter stories of "Matrix", all in  intricate details...wow...if only i can have such imagination...

The stories are a collection of nine short animated films that tell stories set in the Matrix universe. They all give backstory  that supports the films. Osiris leads directly into " The Matix Reloaded" Wow, was i impressed by the tech-savvy and interesting animation that, i think, really brings out the essence of   Matrix...One thing from the whole film really sets me thinking, ~ why does it feel more real when i am dreaming than when i am awake? Are my senses lying? ~

Anyway, been really busy making this website and my brother's wedding website...really really  tired... but my brother's website is just about done so i am only left with my own... man, am i gonna make this website a phenomenal visual spec!!! lolx...kay...peacing out now...

~ 5:28 p.m. ~

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