Hello......
The Phone is ringing for what seems an eternity
I hear your little voice say, "Hello"
That hideous lump forms in my throat
Will I be able to talk, god I do not know
I called to wish you a Merry Christmas
To say how I love you so
Visions of your first Christmas race through my head
Your tiny hands, the look in your eyes
God I can not talk, that lump will not go away
My voice has left me, my mind races as I try to say Hello
Hello you say, is there someone there......?
I want to run and scream, I want to run to you
Yes I am here, I can hear myself say as if someone is speaking for me
I called to wish you a Merry Christmas
What i want to say is that I love you
What i want to say is That I am sorry I am not there
What i want you to know is that I do Love you and I do care
But nothing comes out as if mute by force
My heart aching to be near you but I try to stay calm
I hear the joy in your voice, as I try to disguise my sorrow
Knowing that I have to stay calm, "I love you", I hear myself say
Visions of the last 10 Christmas run through my head
All I want to say is I love you
What I am thinking is Christmas without you
Makes me feel as if I am dead.........
©angelagschwind dec 25,1997
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