NOVEMBER HANGOVER 1. blood spills from my ass like drenched red tissue strands like the hot worms of hell sunglassed from fire in chorus blues mocking falsetto melodies mocking morning rain pain a thousand pimpled toothaches heartaches headaches 2. if i swallowed garbage or did the dog last night gulped down half a fifth of blended whiskey blindly, carelessly, deliberately weak, i sip sad coffee with the dog asleep at my feet & the rain is one drop of my tears
JENNIFER'S FEMINIST POEM you can be a lesbian lapping honeyed flesh-pit where warm clear lava is like the goo of rolling worms, slop, slapping tails like bull-whip snap: ah love, is freedom what tastes sweet? or her, yr girlfriend, caught turning on a spit of delicious moans, stripped & skinned alive above gorgeous flames of yr volcanic tongue, rawness burnt away but everything pink remains, boiled? i've never met a genital who wasn't metaphoric right at my lips. most clean human bodies taste good a couple years, then bland, nothing, not even dead-musky. cunt or cock or big toe or tit, we ripen as teens, sweeten in our 20's, sour in 30's providing the mind works, & in our 40's nobody even sniffs us. breaking skin, love is spiritual fucking, ghosts enmeshed like clouds & sun-shades somewhere in the past & very far away.
TIRING MADNESS bowled over, fuck you, by fates middle-aged, years of waste, hate, & honor bullshit there're parallel universes or any psychic importance to humans firing up a bowl, the whole in & out of breath, brain made of iced cupcake, blowing smoke into the day, all blue & cold this dawn, vibration violins ascend ron androla (from the chapbook, "it's a pretty world", non compos mentis press, 1995)
15th SONG sex is a television without horizontal hold rolling sharp black & silver knives blood is gray inside, visual static --young adult males are nuclear sperm-bombs old poets old poets spurt dust, a puff of fart dust young men fill entire womb with brimming lava girls & women live very wet lives bed creaking long skeleton song demons leap to bite puffy angel feet slaughter of stupid angels too doped to split heaven are sweet white chocolate censor sensualizer airwaves jammed stuffing black jam globes into cunt cock-tamping everything in tight low growl high volume coo creatures of hunger ron androla (from the chapbook, ERIE BLUES, non compos mentis press, 1996)
SPLATTERED IN ERIE chapter 34 "Shelter from the Storm" in 1996. My body after 4 decades on Earth. Cynical, Clinical Facts. Insane in & out of Love, want to sniff pretty girls. A Dog's Life as Human Being. Alien Life is Bacterial. God is not Extraterrestrial, Yet. Killing Christians as Political Terrorism in America is proof we transcend the sour grapes of Penance & Blind Deaf Peace. She whispers "Lick me," & I'm sniffling like my face has been shot by blasts of hot rain:eating pussy is tropical. Acoustic. What Wet Blues as the Hole of Deliverance. Taste of Heaven if Heaven's Cool. Transmigration being the act of Fuck Animals Seeding. Tongue row of dirt for planting. Sun-warmed rainwater spilling on my wrists. Spiral to spin head back into Womb, Push & Spin. She ain't Mom but is certainly Motherly. Jacks me like a Drunk Aunt hurried thru my surprised zipper. Insert Swaying Bone into Splashing Honey Soup, into Log of Swamp where Bullfrogs are Blobbed in Sperm & the Sky is Black Jelly, Her Cunt is a Hole in the Moon & my Cock a Flesh Eyeball Telescope Blinking Thru White Nuclear Light-Flashes, an Apocalyptic Roar from the Depths of Zoology & Spirituality Echoes up Choked Tuba Throat, Thru the Tubes Screaming with Pleasure. The Immaculate Conception is a pretty funny story if you are sober or have just hit the first one-hit. Down here Human before Religious or Political or Scientific or Psychological or Philosophical or American or Consumeristic or Trained or Brain-washed or Brain-smutted or Languaged or Filmed or Ingested or Poetical or Romantics Shit intervenes & Influences Everything about You! Let Earth Blow. Be Natural. smiling dog press, 1996 ron androla
HOMOSEXUAL BANDWAGON HAIKU impersonally two penises levitate toward girls of death
AN EARLY HYMN WITHIN MORNING SONG "the first idea is an imagined thing." wallace stevens this house is wet, soluble, soft. all wood wants liquidity, to mush to honey & melt into earth sponge. even plastic possessions push towards becoming colored paint seeping deep thru black mile-thick slabs of shale; everything here can melt in this rain, fall in dew- drenched grass like applesauce & ashes broken repairs, stubborn hunk of refrigerator a ton of frozen butter barely leaking, twigs stuck in knuckle & skeletal system, plus a bag of blood; rain & trains slosh thru the fatty heart of erie, sound cuts molecules & the hold of gravity, how brazen shit is real.
chapters from UNDERGROUND UNDERGROUND BENEATH THE DUST OF MARS 84. i love the word "translucency", its meaning & to think it aloud & say it soft, raven-like chant, a mirror's vast lacuna, spray the sheen of spit upon the World Translucency upon our glassy minds lakes dream infants & eggs oranges & seeds like petrified cat eyeballs Whole Cosmic Spin-Swirl Physics because spin is simply the Condition Translucent Human Condition Translucency Rotation & Mythology 86. a shovelfull of Mars. whispering crunch of rust like spacesuit breathing, rustling aluminum fabric. the equated human, packed molecules in a physical universe, time-sculpted, dna-fleshed sculpture in Space with a shovel. beneath the dust we lick lsd bacteria, our zoology & questions weak salts. 93. Mars, Geology produces Biology, & Time. We weave Action to Circumstance, Reaction to frayed Futures; Flesh Sculptures designed from Heat & Mineral & Primal Soup flaps undigestably as strange huge carp-creatures lather thru sulphurous mud, Mammals in the Cosmos! Mars, our Maker, our Creator, our Inner Urge to Swell & Multiply, to be More, Eternally! Beneath the dust, underground, beneath the dust of Mars is the trail we've felt pull us like extraterrestrial light & Prozac & Love in the Winter & Modern Astronomy, an Arc of Collision & Atomic Birth!
WHY I LOVE SHEILA E. syncopation sinks below syntax. orchard unlike onyx seems reasonable feels honest in a scurry day. an oranger orange. sweet gray clay tea. muscled toes cling to stone why an arizona sun even tries one touch, liquid love lacuna
SPONTANEOUS SHIT in e i float a cube of carbon electric connected wild why not truths of moments revealed speed of air speed of eye speed of articulation can gross poems thrive planted in jars can visions vault ignorant readers to land in laps of warm love her & her & her * 8 p.m. friday inhalation pbs pure blues ting my head tatta-shlot fu-fu funny feeling a little furry eyes pull like slow glue * dog wants outside over & over i let him out he comes in i let him out he comes in he's at the door again
29th song (from ERIE BLUES) singing thru soft teeth goofing franklin zappa zit-nosed, stoned off cheeseburgers, pop performing THE WHO air-guitar revolution spiral swirl hell's evolving screams smacking microphoned halloween hog, faggots splashed with gasoline & one pissed redneck savior logical hats fire for a changing america ain't true, jack, ain't really true allen frenched you 27th song erie erie erie erie you're quarter million walking cocoons bumping, sliding thru soaked tree-top streets rigid & hacked & bleeding & pissed death is butterfly birth in a lake-licked tornado then sounds of slaughtered sea-gulls & people vapors of hiroshima, america 50 years ago, energy of murder
SYLVIA PLATH MEETS D.A. LEVY IN SUICIDE HEAVEN (from the dual chapbook with paul weinman, AIRY EL, From Da Dead Press) "fuck that garble of intellectualized depression, lady, take a hit of some this celestial dope..." levy's face blow apart, rotting, tip of golden pipette in a black, meat-ripped hole "death is the mentalness, debris remains of orgasm this dream-soul Life created this timelessness..." sylvia is sizzling with happiness. she don't want flowers & the flowers implode. she wants pain & nothing is felt. she enjoys the works of d.a. levy from a british distance. levy loves sylvia's transparency & pink psychic energy. they blend together in the hands of God perfectly compatible molecules. they blow smoke laughing mummy-like over History.
A SYRIAN POEM my grandfather ate whole cloves of raw garlic. he drank paregoric & smoked hashish at the kitchen table in 1930's america with all the other syrian men who were spreading seeds into syrian girls who filled with eventual mixtures of children, syrian & italian syrian & irish syrian & polish syrian & jewish syrian & black syrian & german syrian & argentina who mixed with muddied mexicans indians british chinese as america is a billion particles of humans stew rascism, serfdom, slavery, bias interlaces freedom & terrorism unemployment, greed a flag packed with stars tv dreams speech-writers butal banks nra with a good point & our children are pledging allegiance 5 days a week no matter what the nation becomes
SUCKING MY MORNING PIPE (for gabriele) if you were here & how yr hair wld burn my fingers hoarse & gutteral numbness unclogged like kitchen drain racing hot water & our steam this smoke i've clipped, sipping autumn-morning coffee, listening to classical pbs radio, i suck yr face here all the way from chicago, & yr smile & laugh & when you bent to pick books from the floor i saw cleavage & felt softness envelope my lips i will admit this: i pulled diane's nightgown up bunched around her warm waist, i'd opened my eyes to 4:30 on the clock, she usually wears panties but wasn't & i hugged & pressed & went thru her arm to palm a little breast, & she groaned she didn't want to she was sleeping, my cock was its biggest & thumping against her pillowy ass, rubbing, i cld not stop, both hands went down to grasp my branch, & i pumped it like a delirioius tuba which burst ice-bubbles of warmth over my belly & the sheets & diane's wonderful wonderful ass & her snoring never stopped. but i got up, dried off with a towel, & thought what a poem i live
SPONTANEOUS SHIT she set me up. i am a self-involved poet. every sensory particle of life creates the art of poetry as confessions of a soul. the deeper inside the heart, the rawness, spillage from the brim of sanity & reason. she became a cowgirl since her father is a cowboy, a middle-aged cowgirl setting me up for years of free cash via domestic relations. heartless, brutal, cowgirl witch-bitch is an apt description for all i want to see of her.
& HERE WE ARE ALL BEAT AGAIN sylvia plath scratches at death's insect itch her baby sleeps like a jew this gaseous dawn sops sore caesarean surgeon-sliced vagina, a failed canal but for piss & pieces of bloody egg, memories, pain, & pantomime cum creeps who dictate dick over a softer love. great, green green-house drenched in blood, floor sinew & flexing, tube of life a stem wetted to flesh pumping nutrition & genetic poison chromosome hunger, gnaw of neuron & drama. somebody's named ted somewhere in the flat, somebody's named daddy who ices a girl's little words. thinly anemic fingers pinch pink nightgown nipples suckled greedily by a new self of the self who isn't suicidal, nor morose, who craps in a basinet better than a puppy. nazi, nazi, burning bright within october's boston mist; spikes for sylvia, more nails for nothing.
WAY BEFORE UTAH (for Mark Weber) the brontosaurus licks snowflakes off palm-trees, nuzzles its humified dog-lizard snout under the tail of its mate into heat of prehistoric anal canals huffing like a hundred thousand future horses. shitloads of cattle across this country now chew on dinosaur shit make it milk we drink in the morning with a splash of scotch. fuck the brontosaurus, you mutter, squeezing a guitar.