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I have my own world. I like to drift away with my thoughts- and get away from places.Sometimes I feel trapped, - can't quite break through down to the rest. The truth is I just don't want to, I can't live by true rules- there is always more to it. Few people are able to enter my world, and even fewer know they're inside. I don't let them know, though I sometimes can't help showing it, cause when people know too much - they can't handle the advantage I give them; they get high with self-confidence and are banned from my world.
My world is sort of childish and naive. Things have to be good to be in it. In my world you're innocent until proven otherwise, but you're not aware of being judged by me. If you're proven guilty, in the smallest crime possible - you are forever a doubted citizen in my world.
You may not understand what I'm saying and still be inside (if I know you) but if you're making a face as you read along- you're on doubt.
Everything here is simple, and everything's understood.
If you haven't got the picture yet - it's a very subjective world, it's one sided- my sided. I like to keep it tidy though at times it such a mess. I forget to clean up after me and I neglect most simple maintenance chores. When it gets that way here - people come and go as they please and I'm like a side-viewer, watching my world working without taking part.
My world isn't actually out there- in space; it's actually more down to earth than most. It's partly way under, in deep ocean seas, unrevealed caves that might reveal all the answers if only discovered. But it's one sided - I'd be the discoverer and I'll be the one getting all the answers.
I'm getting there slowly and always looking back, collecting answer's fractions and joining them together.
This world I am in is the best I could have. I'm the master- ruler of world, and it gets me confused when I'm in touch with outer world since I'm suddenly helpless; I'm suddenly small- I am no longer in control. So I hang up quickly and disconnect the line until my armors are straitened back into place.
As it turns out- I'm more inside than out, I'm aware more than you think and it doesn't bother me from feeling numb.
This is just another attempt to adjust my lungs to the unacceptable air on earth.
What you don't understand may too exist, for being is only a state of mind :)
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