I have been learnig some more HTML, and I am going to be making
some changes! And probably even adding some graphics!
And LOOK! Real Color! Not just B and W!
Anyway, right now I'm forcing myself. And I'm not going to get depressed, either. I have some news! I have a social life! Yep, that's right. And I have not one, but two (2!) ladies that are interested in me. And I am interested in both of them, too.
And they are friends. Of course they are friends, in this little community, you're either friends or enemies with everyone. So, we are all three friends. It really makes things interesting.
It seems as though I'm the only eligible bachelor in town of age. What I mean is, older than 25, which I definitely am. Murleen and Erin are both mid-40s widows. Those are not their real names, of course. Murleen is a pretty blonde woman, about five foot six inches, with one of those quick smiles and very loving eyes. Erin is almost six foot tall and... well, handsome is the best word that I can think of to describe her. Very self-assured and ladylike, whereas Murleen seems to be, well, tenative and rather shy. Together, they are a real hoot. We spend most of our time together laughing or crying, mostly laughing.
They are both well aware of my medical situation. Murleen's husband died of lung cancer almost ten years ago, while Erin's first husband was killed in a plane crash and her second had a heart attack and died in bed with her.
They are both really fun girls, and we get together almost every day. And yes, they have both spent the night with me (separately, of course! What do you think I am?) and enjoyed it. I do not have a problem with impotence, as I was worried about in an earlier entry.
I have never been one to worry much about sex. I was always faithful to my wife/girl friends, but that was most likely due to a lack of time and energy more than any moral conflict that I had with the idea. I have never been around women who didn't really worry about it and were willing to discuss it without qualms. I think that it's really nice to be open and honest about sex, that's something I've never had before.
I guess I've never been around honest mature women before. I have missed a lot, dammit, but I will try to make up for it!
Yes, we do have conflicts. What to eat, where to go, which movie to see, the inevitable scheduling problems. But we work these things out amicably in a friendly mature manner. No fighting, everything can be a compromise and nobody minds. It's really neat.
And, as a bonus, Murleen knows computers! She has a home page (about dogs, of all things) and she's teaching me a lot of stuff.
Well, after I put the colors up, I got enthusiastic and re-did all of my pages. This is fun. I like having colors, but I'm not going to change the colors in the previous entries. Let them be black and white, they matched my mood when I wrote them. But it'll be colors from now on!
I'm even thinking about changing the name to The Living Diary!. No, I don't think so. But that's the way I feel right now about it!
The next thing I need to do is get some forward and backward arrows or something. I don't really like the way I've got it set up now. I think I'll do some browsing and get some ideas!
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I'm not really doing very good in keeping this thing up. I seem to only want to write when I'm depressed, and if I force myself to write, I get depressed. Even when I have nothing to be depressed about! Go figger.
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