MY LIFE - APRIL

Tuesday, April 3, 2001

It's been around 3 weeks since I've written anything legitimate in this web site and everyone deserves an explanation, so I'm going to give it to you, catch you up on things, and explain why I may or may not write more for this site in the future.

The main reason I haven't written is because I now have a girlfriend, Tabitha. I met her about two and a half weeks ago and have been dating her for around a week now. Needless to say, things moved pretty quickly. We were very comfortable talking to each other on the phone and when we met in person, we were comfortable there too. Maybe a little too comfortable. Let's just say that we had a pretty good time together.

So now, the little precious free time I had before meeting her is being spent on her. Any day off I get I hope to see her and she does everything she can to see me. It probably helps that we live five minutes from each other. Anyway, my days off are now being planned in a fashion that I'm used to. In short, I have things to do and I know what I'm doing ahead of time. Take next weekend for example, my weekend off. I already know what's happening Sunday and I have a pretty good idea of how things are going to go Saturday.

How I've gone this long without a girlfriend baffles me even more now that I have one. And frankly, I get enough right now and I can't help but give her as much love as I can. This is a brand new thing to me and I can't understand how anyone wouldn't want this. I spend all day thinking about her and we talk frequently. She calls me from work and I try to call her from work when I can. We talk late into the night. Hell, we've talked into the early morning of the next day.

I've only known her a couple of weeks, but I feel like I know her and she says she feels like she knows everything about me. I've never been so comfortable with anyone in my life. I've able to talk to her about things I wouldn't dare talk about most any other time. She's a bit of a goofball, which makes the two of us pretty good for each other. We both make noises, although I haven't really gotten intensely weird around her just yet, and we both have senses of humor that are bit off the deep end.

She's better than I was expecting and well beyond what I could've hoped for. We've had a couple of serious talks, but most of the time things are very light and full of joking around. I already know that I can pick her up if she's not having a great day and she's been able to do the same for me.

She's a great girl and I want to do the best I can to treat her the way she should be treated. I don't know how much I'm going to talk about her in this web site (it really depends on how she feels and how much I want to give out), but her name will be in here simply because she's part of my life and I care about her a lot. I love her and would probably do just about anything for her if I could.

Now then, that's pretty much why I haven't written anything for a while. I've been at work or preoccupied with Tabitha. There's really not much more to it than that at this point in time.

Onto something else now. My work schedule for this week sucks ass. Apparently Jim, who's writing the schedule, decided that he was going to try something new. All the morning people are working 8am-4pm and all the night people are working 4pm-12am this week. It didn't go so well Monday and it's because there was no overlap like there normally would. So we ended up getting hammered and everyone was incredibly stressed out by about 11pm, but then Linda, Steve, and I got loopy and ended up laughing the rest of the night.

As for the people at work. Paul's been on my nerves for the last two weeks and I'm seriously ready to slap him around a little bit and tell him to ease up. Steve said it perfect last night when he said that Paul takes this job personally instead of taking it seriously. And it makes sense. He lets the customers and other people around him get to him too much while most everyone else just kind of shrugs it off, even Linda.

That's what's weird though. Initially, I thought working with Paul would be easier, but it turns out working with Linda is easier. Sure, she's not always quick to give you a hand at register, but she gets her work done and she's getting better at it. In all honesty, she'd make a better lead tech than Paul and myself, and I only say myself because I'm really not taking this tech shit as seriously as I initially did. Don't get me wrong, I'm still serious about it, but the lead tech thing doesn't mean much to me and wouldn't be fair to the store. Why should I be lead tech if I'm only going to do it for a short period of time before going to college? It doesn't make much sense to me.

In any case, the schedule's back to normal next week which means I best not hear it from Paul or anyone else or I'm going to make some serious noise. Paul and Joanne were the only ones who liked this week's schedule and I'm sure Paul's doubting that one now after yesterday, but Paul only liked it because it put him on the same level as Linda and me rather than below us like he normally is. But he's a bitch and I could really care less about what he thinks now.

As for home. Teresa's 18 now and she doesn't know it yet, but she's going to have her own car come tomorrow. If she'd get her license, that might mean something. Anyway, my mom just bought a 1998 Ford Ranger, so she's pretty satisfied now. Now she has a newer car like two of her children (present company included) and has a truck with the bed cover so she can haul the dogs around when she needs to take them somewhere as well as move stuff around like she would like to do.

All in all, aside from a mountain of bills, things are going pretty good right now. I'm no longer single, my mom has a new truck, my sister's are fine, work's fine despite the shithole schedule, and I'm happy.

I really couldn't ask for more right now.

As for this site. I'm really not sure what I'm going to do right now. I would like to write more (especially since Tab chewed me out over not including her in the site) and do more with this site, but the limited time I had before meeting Tab is virtually gone right now. If I write, it would have to be either while on the phone with her or in the morning after one of her wake up calls.

I don't really know now. I don't intend on shutting this thing down anytime soon, but I'm not going to say never towards anything. As far as I know, the limited visitors I get like to see this site updated and like to keep up with me, but it's all contingent on me being able to have to write a little bit more than a five paragraph entry where I talk about how much life sucks. Okay, so that's a little harsh, but still, when I write, I like to have some idea of what I'm writing about and I like to stretch it out. I hate writing short entries. That's just me though.

So for now, expect me to write periodically, although how much is still unknown at this time. But hey, what do you want from me? I have more important things in my life right now.