Hi I'm jjandbelle.
I signed up on 04/01/98 16:30:37, and we are moving in today.
Welcome to our humble home...take off your clothes put on the
restraints and pull up a bench and get comfy....here is the
begining to our story... Well my life as a slave started online
as many of us can relate too. I answered an ad that said,
“Needs slave.” Well out of curiosity I answered this
ad. Low and behold I found my Master. We associated first in
answer and question period of why I was looking for this
lifestyle and what I had hope to find. I thought on this for many
days before my answer would come out honestly and freely, but I
found the words coming from my heart and not the words I had
written down on paper. I think what really convinced me of going
to him was his words that described the relationship of a Master
and slave, they read “to have a female surrender to a Dom,
as a gift of trust and commitment gives a sense of purpose to
ones life in a special irreplaceable way. It is a kind of trust
that is demonstrated by the reactions observed in a training
session where a sub surrenders her safety to her D/M by allowing
her self to be bound naked and helpless, totally vulnerable to
his desires accepting both pain and pleasure at levels bordering
on agony and ecstasy” I was hooked. I had never been so
excited before in my life and never so aroused. Well I received
his first command and that was to shave my most private area and
he said that he would know by the look in my eyes if I had done
what he had said, when he said. So I did without hesitation or
remorse. (Accept at first growth the itching drove me nuts) This
went on about two weeks before we meet. He wanted me to become
aware of myself and enhance my sensitivity. Which of course this
did. So I went to him. It was a four-hour drive of hard thinking
and realization that I was going to a situation I thought I could
never accept. You see I came from a very abusive marriage. I
still went if not out of respect but for satisfaction of what I
was looking for...you might say a void in my life. Well it
happened,. I made it to His door. At first I looked for an escape
out but he made me feel so at ease. He let me relax a few minutes
and adjust myself to the atmosphere around me. We talked, laughed
and I finally settled into what was to happen. I looked around
the room, the hooks from the ceiling, the SWORDS on the wall, and
then back into his eyes..oh his eyes. He had told me in letters
by E-mail that I would be in for an examination like I had never
experienced before in my life. I, at that time did not know what
to expect. As I kept starring at the hook from the ceiling, I
soon found out what he meant. I went into the bathroom and
prepared myself by taking off the clothes that so concealed my
body..embarrassed at first but then releasing all inhibitions
that I had, had. I cleansed myself and entered back into His
domain and not knowing what to expect next. He then started by
placing my wrist and ankle restraints on. Looking into my
eye’s he then showed me my collar...I gladly excepted it
with a little nervousness. I bowed my head to him and pulled back
my hair and let him place my collar on my neck. He then placed a
chain onto the hook from the ceiling and locked my wrist into
place, where I could not get loose. He then placed a spreader bar
between my legs spreading my legs apart and tying them to the
bar. I was completely vulnerable at that point and no place to
go. I was had, but my arousal was soaring at the time..I was
helpless. He then began the examination by feeling over my body
examining all the orifices of my soul. Invading all of them one
way or the other. I was helpless...strung up with no place to go
or move, my heart racing like never before I had found my ecstasy
I had finally found what I was looking for, I could tell in my
heart if not my soul. He comforted me with his words and made me
feel safe inside. He made sure I was still okay with my decision
to go that step beyond my imagination and fantasy. I was sure so
we proceeded in my first training session. He oiled me down the
feeling of his hands on my body made it come alive. Then it
happened the first hit with the paddle. My emotions went soaring.
I did not know whether to cuss, scream, or tell him just to get
away. Then the second one and then third, to tell the truth it
hurt like hell but I was so sexually stimulated in a way that I
could not explain at the time. I did not go to my *place* the
first time around he just wanted me to know in my heart if this
was what I wanted and let me feel the pain and the pleasure that
come with it. The whole time while he administered the pain he
also stimulated pleasure with playing with my most private areas.
I have never been so truly aroused in my life and thankful at the
same time. He let my wrist down I sat on the floor next to him,
it was hard to sit comfortably at first my butt was on fire, he
took ice out and applied it to the area that he had worked on. We
took a short break, I think he was allowing me to let what had
just happen to soak in and try to understand it which at that
point I could not. After the short break he took me into his
bedroom and told me to lie in the middle of the bed, still with
all leather in place he broke out the rope. He kissed me gently
as he secured my legs spread eagle to the hooks on his bed and
then my arms securely above my head, I wonder what was to happen
next. The first hit to my inner thighs was ascureating pain they
were so sensitive and when he put the nipple clamps on I was
beside myself. I did not think I could take anymore, yet I was so
wet with desire I let him continue. The pain was beyond belief,
yet he kept it up by the paddle and pulling on the chain that
linked the nipple clamps together. After a while he broke out the
dildos and placed the vibrator on my clit it was a sensation like
I have never felt before, my heart was pounding it was though I
had just become alive, a new birth you might say. He continued
with the vibrator and the paddle on my thighs, I soon could
associate in my mind that pain could equal pleasure. To tie the
two together is something I never thought I could . I have never
been so sensitive in my life and the orgasm I had was beyond
belief. This went on the entire weekend, training to find my
realization that arousing through the pain and the soreness there
was a certain awaking within my soul a passion that only he could
release within the depths of the darkness of my soul. My heart
had been so cold for years, a resistance you might say to
feelings and awakenings of inner self, but the first night of
realization hit me like a ton of bricks and I had found my true
being inside of his rapture. I finally went to my place after a
time being it is a place beyond belief, it is a place where you
go and look upon your soul and feel total happiness and trust. It
is a place that I heard about from others and all I could think
in my mind is that these people are nuts. How can you turn all
the pain into such intense pleasure that you leave your body and
look down upon it? When I first went to it I was at such peace it
was very hard to come back from. When I did though my body was
more alive then ever just a simple touch from him sent me
soaring. I could feel my nerve endings standing on edge. My heart
pounding with desire and passion. It is so hard to explain but my
Master does try in these words, “you have heard of the long
distance runners getting to something they call the
“wall” at the peak of their endurance to
“pain” the body tries to shut the runners ability to
continue by sending pain signals to the legs, arms ribs, etc...to
try and make him slow down there by decreasing the nerve
inputssending information to the brain. When the runner pushes
through the wall something call endorphines is released to turn
some of the “pain”signals into pleasure ones thereby
giving the brain the ability to allow the runner to continue with
out loss of performance and even get a “high” from it.
At the same time the brain begins to create more new nerve path
ways in those areas so that the next time it can simply release
the endorphines and go straight to the high and avoid the
“pain”. I have now been with my Master for a couple
months now, about 4 months if you count online time and I have
learnt that I can put my full trust in him and I can love again
without reservation. I have given him my heart, soul, mind and
body. To you Dear Sir, with honors of being your slave now and
forever******
My interests are:
BDSM outdoors,computers.
The description of my page is:
Dom/sub 24/7 couple
looking to talk to and meet
others in the lifestyle
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