November 5, 2000

I don't have much to say. Sent in a funny fax, hopefully will have clip up soon - I think I'm going to splurge and get a TV tuner card now. =P

I'm applying to lots of colleges. It's taking up most of my time these days.

love, Rosie

November 12, 2000

Girl geek in pink slippers. Me in five words.

In six? Dateless girl geek in pink slippers.

Can you believe it? Nobody has ever asked me for a date. Am I really that ugly? Am I too fat? Too smart? Not smart enough? Too much an introvert? Too much an extrovert? Too geeky? Not geeky enough? Too [full of complaints]? Not [full of complaints] enough? What am I doing so wrong that I'm not even worthy of being asked?

Everyone needs to feel special sometimes. I suppose I'm still awaiting my turn. I feel like a loser. Seventeen and never asked out.

There was one guy from Northridge that was going to, but I wouldn't let him - I knew it wasn't going to work out. Especially since I was about to move to Lakewood at the time. Nobody else has ever noticed me though. The only reason that guy did was because we started talking.

I could never make the first move. I'm too shy. (Yes, me! Stop laughing!) But I would accept any reasonable date request. (I do need to know the guy at least somewhat and can't afford more than $30 per date - and that only occasionally.)

What would be most romantic, however, would be someone sending me a bouquet of flowers. Or, if words are that guy's thing, a letter or poem. There are so many creative ways to show people you care. How about a Winamp skin? Stopping me in the hallway to hold my hand? Stopping me in the hallway to say hello?

All I ever wanted was to be a normal girl, a normal teenager. Unfortunately, I wasn't dealt those cards, so I've been working with these. But is it all for naught?

love, Rosie

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