"ahhhh I cant wait to see them in concert" Karine said, excited about seeing the Backstreet Boys once again in concert.
"I know! me too! Its like, we have seen them soo many times already, but we still get really excited to see them while they work" Mar added.
"Thats cuz they're soo hot!" Tara said, excited.
Tara, Mar and Karine took their seats in the front row, the seats still beside them empty.
"So are we going to go backstage tonight?" Steve asked the girls. Steve was one of the boy's security guards and obviously knew who Karine and Mar were, and has met Tara once or twice.
"That depends, are you going to let us go backstage?" Mar asked with a smile. Steve grinned at the tall girl and then nodded his head.
Karine, Mar and Tara walked with Steve to the backstage area and headed to the boys' dressing room.
Mar went over to Kev and surprised him from behind, wrapping her arms around him and giving him a kiss on his neck.
"Marie!" Kev said happily, turning around to see his girlfriend there. He met his lips with hers.
"Karine! When did you get here?" AJ asked, extending his arm out for her.
"Steve just let us backstage, so we just got here" Karine replied. Tara stood in the middle of the room and went over to Brian to talk to him. Nick was in the bathroom.
"So.. how are things going with Nick?" Brian asked.
"I dont really know, Brian. I'm still very confused.. I love them both, you know?"
"I know, Tara! No matter what happens, I'll always be here for you tho, you're my friend"
"Thanks" Tara said "altho I am also confused about something else... but I can't tell Nick about it"
"What is it?" Brian asked.
"I dont know if my feelings for Nick are genuine, or if they are cuz hes Nick, you know? I mean, I have been a big fan of his ever since I first heard of the Backstreet Boys, he has been my fav, and I grew to love him. And the question that is on my mind now is 'is the love I feel for Nick actual love, or is it fan-like associated love'"?
"wow... yeah I guess there is a difference.." Brian said "Girl, you have soo many problems dont you?" he said with a laugh.
"Yeah... " Tara said. Nick came out from the bathroom and saw Tara standing there.
"Hey there beautiful" Nick said, pulling Tara to him for a kiss. Tara returned the kiss quickly and gave him a little hug.
"Ready for the big concert?" Tara asked.
"Sure am, especially since you're here with me" Nick said with a smile. Tara smiled back at him and gave him another kiss.
The girls hung out backstage for about 20 minutes then headed back out to their seats.
The lights turned off at 7:30pm and the band's opening act came on stage. Tara, Karine and Mar watched the opening band while sitting in their chairs, waiting for the BSB to come on, they were in their fan mode.
The people who had tickets for the seats next to Tara arrived five minutes after opening band came on. Tara sat there watching the band, not noticing anything else. She felt a hand ontop of hers.
Tara looked over to see Justin sitting beside her, to her left.
"Justin? what are you doing here?" Tara asked surprised.
"Jive holds front row tickets for peopel who want them in the business, and I arranged it to get my seat beside yours" Justin said with a smile.
"oh.. thats cool" Tara said, a little shy.
"Listen, Tara, I know you're going through alot right now, and have been ever since Nick told you that he loves you, but I have to tell you that I love you too, I want you to know that! I dont want to make things difficult for you, that's the last thing I want to do" Justin said seriously. Tara stared at him in his eyes while he talked to her, she could see that he was being sincere.
"I know that, Justin. I feel like complete shit for making you go through this also, you know? I never wanted for this to happen"
"Dont feel bad, Tara, I know you didnt ask for this to happen" Justin assured her. He was ready to fight for Tara all the way, he loved her very much.
The band left the stage and the crew set the stage up for BSB. Karine and Mar greeted Justin, who came with Chris and JC.
The lights went off again, and some lights started to flash. The music to Thats The Way I Like it started to come on slowly, making everyone anxiously awaiting for the arrival of the BSB onto the stage. Tara, Mar and Karine started to scream with the rest of the fans, since they were in their 'fan mode', which meant that they could act like regular fans and go nuts and scream over the guys.
All of a sudden, with a loud boom and tons of pyrotechnics, BSB shot up on stage and stood there.
The audience went wild and completely loud, and then AJ started to sing THATS THE WAY I LIKE IT.
Up on stage, Nick made his way down to the main section of the stage, and tried to find Tara. It didnt take him long to see Justin Timberlake sitting beside her, and it made him extremely jealous. He couldn't do anything about Justin right now, though, since he was performing and he knew he would have to put up with that for the whole show.
AJ came on the stage alone and started to sing his solo, Lay Down Beside Me. He stared right at Karine as he reached the high part of the song, where he laid down and started to grind the floor. Karine turned red and screamed for AJ as he did so.
When Nick came out to sing his solo part, he knew he had to distract Tara and get her attention.
"For this next song, I'd like to have a nice young lady come up onto the stage so that she could be serenaded to" Nick said slyly, looking at the sea of girls infront of him.
"You... can you come up here please?" Nick said, pointing at Tara, and looking right at her. Tara turned a little red, since she was kind of shy and she had Justin right there beside her. Justin clenched his fists behind his back.
"okay.." Tara said, having Steve help her up onto the stage. Nick positioned Tara to stand at the center of the stage, and then the lights went off, with only one spotlight focusing on Tara and Nick.
The music started up, and it was his song, Heaven In Your Eyes (I Need You Tonight).
"open up your heart please... and say whats on your mind.... I know that we have been through soo much pain, but I still need you in my life, this time.... I need you tonight, I need you right now, and I know deep within my heart, it doesn't matter if its wrong or right.. cuz I see heaven in your eyes"
Nick continued to sing, making Tara emotional, tears forming in her eyes.
After the song was over, he took her backstage while the other guys sung their solos.
"So what'd you think of that?"
"It was.. soo beautiful" Tara said, wiping her tears away.
"I knew you'd like it" Nick said with a grin.
"Nick.. There's something I have to tell you.." Tara said, she knew she had to tell him.
"What is it?" Nick said, wrapping his arms around her waist and giving her a kiss.
"I dont know if my feelings for you are true, Nick... I mean, I have LOVED you for almost three years now, from a fan point of view, and I am totally unsure if the love I feel for you is genuine love or fan-love"
"I know you're a fan.." Nick said in return.
"Yeah but Nick, thats the thing.. I dont know if my love for you is genuinely real love, or if its just one of those star-loves"
"oh.." Nick said "But Tara, I love you.."
"I know you do Nick, and I do love you, I just dont know if it is genuine or not, and I really think that I need to find that out before I make my decision of who I really want to be with.. so, I think for now, it would be best if you and I don't have sex anymore.."
"are you serious?" Nick asked sadly, it hurt him to be going through all this.
"yes, I dont want you to think that I am using you, Nick"
"Do we still get to date?"
"If you want to date, I mean, that might help me with figuring out if my love for you is genuine or not. But I think it might help if you also date someone else too"
"Of course I want to date you, Tara! Im not going to date anyone else, I refuse to! I love you, and I'll do anything to help you figure out that you love me"
Tara gave him a hug because she didnt know what to say. She felt better knowing she told Nick the truth, and that he was willing to still be there for her.
Tara went back to her seat and enjoyed the rest of the show with everyone else.
After the concert was done, Tara, Karine, Mar hung around the backstage waiting for the boys to get out of their dressing rooms. JC, Chris and Justin went backstage also to keep the girls company, Justin making it known to everyone that Tara was his.
Nick came out of the dressing room to see Tara standing with Justin, who was whispering things in her ear and she giggled back. Nick walked over to Tara and gave her a kiss on the cheek, looking at Justin while he did it.
"Hey Tara" Nick said, after releasing from the kiss.
"Hey Nick! Great show!" Tara said, still excited from the performance of EVERYBODY.
"Thanks, Im glad you liked it" Nick replied, giving her a hug, rubbing her back softly.
"Ready to go guys? we have to head off to the part-ay" AJ said, raring to go.
Nick, Tara and Justin headed out to the limo's together along with Kev and Mar, AJ and Karine, Brian and Leigh Anne, Howie and his girlfriend.
"You can come with me, Tara" Nick said, opening up the door to his limo.
"shes coming with me, Carter" Justin replied, holding onto her hand.
"Guys... please dont fight, alright? Its new years.. lets just all go together" Tara said, although she knew it would be awkward, it was the only answer.
Justin and Tara got into Nicks limo, Tara sat inbetween to two guys. Both guys insisted on holding Tara's hands.
Mar, Karine, AJ and Kev sat across from Nick, Tara and Justin, and stared at them.