The Hard Way:Part Two--The Girl.What did you say?I can't remember now.It was so long ago.Years, it feels like.The out come.You got married and I am lonely.Is this the way it is meant to be?Huh. I guess so.Why else would i be here?Floating in this icy darkness, between worlds?My fate sealed.Did I forget to thank you for the ride?Thank God for each and every day that we were together?No...I took it for granted.Just like I took everything else for granted.I was blind.But now I see.Yes, I finally see everything.
You are my best friend.Were my best friend.You told me all of your problems, without worry.But could I tell you all of my problems?No...not a single one of them.I kept them hidden from you.Was it wise of me to do that?I think not.Not now, as I think back.But, it is too late to change the past.To change what has been done.
You are probably in Tokyo by now, having a beautiful dinner with your new husband.And I am here...wherever here is.
I can't get you out of my head.The last time I saw you, you didn't see me.Or did you?You held all of the cards and I was asking for anything you had.If I could do it all again, well, would I change anything? I guess I'd have you back to the way I had you when I first told you.But I learned the hard way.I can't have it back to what we had then.I learned the hard way.And...and I know I won't have that chance again.
Some nights I sat on my own, with the feeling of being alone.Wondering if you'll ever come back.But now I know why you're gone.And I will be the first to say I'm wrong.I just wanted you to know that it was hard to spend the nights alone.
Now, as you are disappearing, I'm hearing...I'm hearing all that I wanted to say to you.And it is all just too much for me.Maybe I should focus on the thought of letting you just slip away.But I'm getting this strange feleing...the feeling that you're not telling me all that you wanted to say. Oh God, why did it have to end this way?People running from something they can't see.KNowing that it's not easy to get a handle on life.Answering back to feel a little free.Knowing, deep down that we are all slaves to human way of life.But, what can we do about it? Wherever we go, I believe, we must go with all of our heart. Or else never achieve true happiness.
That must be it.True happiness.I pretended that I was happy all my life.But, was I really?No.How could I be happy if I am in this place?
I never lived through the great depression, though, sometimes I feel as though I did.Every day I saw you, I felt pain, knowing that I could never have you like I had hoped.Had dreamed.So, sayonara is the last word...that I could not say forever.For me, you're still one of the pleasant memories of my youth.But now I must leave you.Sayonara is the last word...I must leave you now, Sakura-chan.Sayonara.
To Be Continued...home Part three