Wednesday September 20th,2000
This entry is from my other journal I have that I choose not to share with you at this moment. This entry may confuse you but in time it will all be clear!

*Alfred & I
We are doing great! Never been better actually. Over the weekend however we ran into a little problem and that is why I didn't end up coming on here over the weekend. We had an emergency and I had to go to his house to be with him. I spent the weekend with him and then on Sunday night he came to my house to spend the night with me. We are talking more and more about getting our place. I'm really hopeing it will be before Dec 25th because I want to spend Christmas with him in our new place! It would be nice first Christmas in our first apartment. *S* The problem that we came across over the weekend brought us even closer together (I didn't think that was possible).
Work
Well work is work, I've got to say I'm bored shitless here with the whole thing! The kids have gotten so used to me that they don't hear a word I say anymore, like they are blocking me out big time! Oh well hopefully things will work out with the moving and I won't be here much longer!
*Bad News*
Today is the anniversary of my mother's death! *Frown* It is a rather sad day but I'm getting through it of course! And my honey is such a sweetie that he called me this morning to see how I was holding up! What a man!
*Good News* I got the job that I applied for!!!! I found out today! I'm real excited. I go in on Tuesday for orentation (SP?) I was so happy to find out I got it because now my money problems might just be solved having more money coming in! YAY FOR ME!! After the guy called me to tell me I hung up the phone and the first thing I said was "Thanks Mom!" I really think my mom watches over me!
And good news for my readers (especially *sigh*) I've been working on my website here and there and it should be up and running soon! Actually I'm going to go work on it again once I am done this entry! I will post the url as soon as it is done!
*ME* Well I've done a lot of writing and reading while I took my time away from here, it has helped some what. I know I need A LOT more work but this is all a start. I can say that I didn't have the erge to come on here though, it didn't really seem to bother me! I have lots and lots of soul searching to do and once I get away from this hell hole then maybe I'll have more time to search my soul.
One good thing about me today...well for one I got the job and two I managed to not break down about my mother nor did I let much of anything get to me. I am aware very aware that it is the anniversary and it does hurt but I know that I can't let this upset me because my mother wouldn't want that. And another good thing is that I've manage to work on me during my days away! GOOD FOR ME!
I love you mom and I haven't forgotten you and I will never forget you! You are my angel!
I love you *A* thank you for being my best friend, soul mate and lover!
I love you Denise, you are an amazing girl and you deserve to be loved!