September 22nd,2000
Hey ya'll, good early evening! I just got off work and I'm relaxing. My dad is here but he's sleeping, once he wakes up we are going to go out for something to eat. I'm starved!
I thought I'd kill some time and let him sleep, yeah I know I still have to get ready but it don't take me long to get ready. I thought about some stuff today and I came to the conclusion as to why I'm not happy here in this job. I believe I took the job all for the wrong reasons. Here are the reasons I believe I took the job for:
a)To be closer to Alfred
b)I needed desperatly to get out of the rut I was in down home c)Needed to make some money to pay off bills
d)And because I've always wanted to be in Ontario
Now those aren't bad reasons for any means but I should of taken the job because I wanted to be a nanny and because I wanted to be around kids. But in all honesty I don't want to be a nanny nor do I want to be around kids! Sad isn't it? But at least I now know why I'm so unhappy here, and that is good!
I emailed Alfred yesterday and the email came out all wrong I think. Actually I'm quite positive because he wasn't very happy with it, he was in fact disappointed with it. But he understood once I spoke to him about it. I guess I shouldn't email him when I need to vent or be serious, I should just talk to him about what ever it is. Every thing is good now though and that is what matters! I'm not sure if he's coming over tonight or not but he'll be here tomorrow night for sure! Can't wait to see him!
Well I should go get ready then wake up my daddy! HUGGERS!