I welcome 2007 with a bottle of champagne - and Jools Holland. That means I've spent another New Years Eve on my own of course. Don't feel sorry for me. I was invited around to friends, but after a few of these New Years Eve's spent on my own I felt I might as well continue the tradition and not waste my time and other's by trying to be sociable. After all I might as well start the year in the way it's going to continue. Me, alone with a bottle and some entertainers on telly, and no other human beings around.

So what do I expect of the new year... - Nothing! My family does not care about me and my friends have their own families to worry about. I might be born in Sweden but I seem to have taken up the british sentiment of every man is an island [and therefore we spend our time alone].

What do I look forward to in 2007? Good question.

I like my job - so I look forward to some more 50 hour weeks spent in the office.
I like some of the cats that live with me so I suppose I look forward to some early morning cuddles.
I like my friends and the new ones I've made during 2006. Hopefully I get to see them in the new year. I would like to spend time with my old friends too, but most of them have left the country so without a big cash injection and a long holiday I'm unlikely to see them during 2007.

So what did I do last year? I fell in love and that did not go to well. How do I know? Well - I am here on my own and he's celebrating his New Year with the love of his life! Or maybe just dreaming about the girl he met at the Xmas party. I wasn't there myself, so what do I know?

My plans for 2007? Let me see. There's a loan I'd like to repay and I would also like to move to my little village in Kent. Who takes that seriously by now? I've wanted to move for the past five years and I am still living in the same place I was when I moved away from my fiance and our flat in Balham in 1998. Great improvement I've made - NOT!

So what did I miss out on last year? I did have some male interest. He said he really liked me but unfortunately I knew he had a girlfriend and a young daughter at home. I met his advances with a rant and a rave about the man I'd fallen for myself. Needless to say that didn't go any further.

And what can I expect from 2007? Unless someone can unbreak my heart and work miracles on his heart as well it's very probable that I will spend the next year exactly the same way I spent 2006. On my own with no hope of finding true happiness.

THESE ARE REAL TEARS I'M CRYING. THIS IS REAL PAIN I FEEL INSIDE. I AM A REAL PERSON WITH REAL FEELINGS AND STILL THERE IS NOBODY WHO CARES. WHAT CAN I SAY TO MAKE YOU FEEL THE PAIN INSIDE OF ME? WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE YOU REALISE I AM NOT AS STRONG AS YOU THINK I AM. WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE MY LIFE WORTH LIVING AND HOW CAN I MAKE 2007 WORTH SPENDING THE TIME IT TAKES TO GET THROUGHT IT? IF I KNEW THE ANSWERS WHY WOULD I ASK YOU?

Now is the time to leave well alone and let second-best get on with the life not quite worth living. I will see you in 2008 if that's how it's all meant to be...