I need new friends. I mean, I NEED new friends. Okay, I have six friends that until this point have been brothers to me. Now, they all have developed mental problems that make them refuse to live in any type of reality. I have absolutely nothing to do. EVER. I hang out with Joel the Pudding Dude and thats about it. Okay... ONE of them has an excuse... his chick is due to pop out a kid any HOUR now. He is the only one. Lets see... 1, 2, 3, of them have girlfriends that take all their fucking time and I'm not even exaggerating. That leaves what, 2? Okay, well one of them lives in the next city to work for university money, and I just found out that he's only staying until tonight this weekend. The other is the Pudding Dude. Pudding Dude does bars though, nad has lots of other friends so he spends time with them too, like a good friend would. I am fucking abandoned. I have been there for all of them at one point or another, most of them I've been there sooo many times I can't remember. But I just fucking get WIPED OFF LIKE HORSESHIT ON THE BOTTOM OF THEIR SHOES. So I don't blame Frank, the soon to be dad or Joel the Pudding dued, so I guess I have two friends. Joel gets annoying, but at least he's THERE. It all comes down to that I just can't believe these guys, you know? I don't fucking get it. One is so into a fantasy world he thinks he's going to marry the chick he's with now in the next two years or so. Yeah, they've been going out for maybe 2 months... no, not even... and he's 20, shes 16. I should just call the cops and get my friend back. One is soo fucked up he stole one of his best friends girl, and now is having some troubles (even though he pays for everything when they go out to eat at EXPENSIVE places at least twice a week and buys her all kinds of crap with money he doenst have and might not go to university because of the wench...). And the other works too much, and when he doesnt he goes to play with his chick. Man, I wish *I* had a girlfriend so I could be totally fucking ignorant to all my friends. I was NEVER like that. I had a year and a half girlfriend and I was never like that. My friends came first. Hell, they came first over ME sometimes. I guess I'm just that last fucking person on earth with a sense of.. ah, I'm so mad I forgot the fucking word. Me an' the Pudding Dude are the only ones who notice too. I cannot believe their horseshit. I am so friggin starved for human contact anymore I'm starting to enjoy work. I just start talking to people there. I seriously need some new friends. I can't quite wait for their relationships to fail. And yes, they will fail. Everyone but Dad and the Pedophile are going away to university. "Devotion"... that was the word I was looking for before. Devotion to the RIGHT things. To the people who will be there, providing you treat them right. Yeah, that was all bitching I know. Its just that thats pretty much all I can think of right now except how hungry I am. I'm gonna get fat again, I can feel it. I'm just eating so much lately, out of depression I would imagine. Damn I'm hungry right now.

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