You can tell I'm being genuine and it feels good because I'm typing in yellow rather than green.
I guess I had a rebound relationship. Maybe I regret who it was with now, but big deal. I guess I'm maybe up to two regrets then. But you know, it made me feel good. It made me feel a lot better about myself seeing that someone kind of wanted me. I guess it's one time I can excuse a girl lying, because I never look back on that time with any severity. I actually thought of her when I went to sleep and when I was with her, not of the ex from which I was fleeing, or had to flee I guess. It lasted maybe a week and a half... until she called it off, of course. She thought it was too early for me, she said. I don't know the real reason, but I don't quite care either. It's just not important. It was fun for me, kind of exciting, kind of cute. Hmn, I think I was too down to earth and non-materialistic for her. Ehn. I probably couldn't ever love her, but that's quite okay. I have scattered memories of feeling good. Even when she called it off, I just kind of took it with a smile and shook it off, because she was taking it so seriously and it really wasn't serious at all. I remember the first night, with two of my friends circling the block her house was on and staring in the window. Keeping an eye on me so I didn't do anything stupid. Well THAT sure worked. And then the next day, with morning breath, she crammed her tongue into my mouth, searching around for a tongue ring. God, she was the worst kisser I ever had. Just terrible. And I remember laying down on her gigantic breasts. She had just about the biggest boobs a guy could hope for. And I remember tracing her wonderfully meaty hips with my fingertips making her admit it was getting her really horny. Heh, I think I still have the letter she wrote that said she hoped we'd be together a long time and that we'd better pick out a song (not too punkish, please). And I guess her lies felt good. Still do. It's strange. I just needed a boost like that after being cheated on perhaps. She said how she'd wanted me for a long time, but I always had said girlfriend, so too bad for her, she said. She said that even with her previous boyfriend she had really wanted me. Ah, bless that lying girl and her big breasts! I guess she was kind of like comic relief. She was sweet at heart, but kind of ridiculous at the same time. Completely out of any reality that was familiar to me. It's quite in explicable and remarkable. And it makes me feel good. It does. Hmn, probably the last virgin I'll ever date too. Thanks, ya lying wench... really though! Oh, and um...
Damn straight.
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