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I haven't had a vacation in a while. My first ever one was last year, my parents went away for two weeks to Nova Scotia (it's a province... in Canada... you know?) and took my scab of a sister along with them. It was a glorious time of mirth and merryment, during that time, one of my friends turned 19 and the other guys took him for a disgusting romp at the local fleshhouses. And the tv dinners! Oh God, every night or every other night, a tv dinner which I selected myself from a marvelous array of flavours. Each day was better than the last. People wandered in and out of my house as they pleased, and the only reason I ever even woke up was to go out and have FUN. That was the only thing that could get me out of bed. I even bonded with my cat and kitten over that time. I got my license, I didn't work at all, and I wore whatever I wanted, even orally talked on the phone to a couple internet people I had been communicating with for months upon months. From that I learned that I have a sexy voice, I guess. I slept on the fold out couch which is far more comfortable than my own bed, and I slept heavily. This may sound redundant, but sleep is very important for me. I'd go to bed at 4 or 5 in the morning and sleep until 1 or 2 in the afternoon, awaking to a phone call asking me if I wanted to go have some FUN. I learned I can live very decently on my own, I can do dishes and vacuum when I need to, I can wipe up puke, I CAN BE MY OWN PERSON, which I always had a sense of anyway, but my parents had not. I do not know how they did not figure out I am an independant person from that experience. Had it been my sister, she would have been dead the second day, with the cats feasting on her meaty carcass. Anyway, my point. I am on vacation again. No, I am not lucky enough to have my parents bugger off to some other hellhole, no. They are here, my sister is here, and I'm in school too. But I am still going on vacation. This week, or two weeks or whatever it turns out to be, I will just exist. I am going to apply the same principles to the next couple weeks as I did last year on my real vacation. No girls, why bother they're just trouble, when everything is said and done... no meals... I'll just eat when I'm hungry, parents and cooked meals be damned... and yes, parents and authority. See, this is how it is with me. I will do the things I'm supposed to. The only problem is that if you goad me into doing something in a big rush, that needs not be rushed for any real reason, I'll put it off just to be a bitch and defy idiotic authority. I can't help it, if you tell me what to do I'm going to do the opposite, or at least put it off so you realize you don't have any real power over me. So this couple of weeks, I'm going completely into this mode. This screw everyone but me mode, where I don't have to think twice about anything I do, and I can just say, Fuck it, I'm on vacation. Basically, I'm going to be just like you for two weeks. Yeah, I'm going to be one of you stupid monsters with your great absence of shame and conscience! So to recap, I'm not going to feel guilty, I'm not going to respond to stupid mail, I'm not going after any damned girls, and I'm not listening to anyone at all. Oh, and one more thing,
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