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I have been overweight all my life. I have tried diet after diet, nothing ever worked. If it did I would always gain the weight back. When I entered college, I got a roomate. She was beautiful, skinny and perfect. I soon found out her secret, she was bullimic. She threw up after every meal, no one every found out. So, I decided this was the only way I was going to lose weight. I began trying it with her, the first few times it was hard, but I got used to it.
I saw JC for the first time in December of 97. I immediately thought he was gorgeous! He was also nice and seemed sincere. I became a very big fan and after trying for several weeks I won passes to a meet n greet!
I had been throwing up for about a month and for some reason it wasn't working. I learned about anorexia after reading about it and listening to girls talk about living through it. I wasn't listening to their warnings, I was getting ideas! I started my new diet which consisted on water and an apple every two days. I was determined to be a size 2 by the time the meet n greet came around. Justin was rumoured to have gone out with Britney Spears and she's skinny, so I figured they liked skinny girls.
About 4 weeks before the meet n greet, and I had been losing weight fast. I started at 190lbs. and I was now 120, a size 6. It was not skinny enough. I only ate one apple every two days and began exercising more.
It was the day of the meet n greet and I weighed 90 lbs. I was bony, my liver and kindey were almost distroyed. My bones were very brittle and I was in constant pain. I arrived and met Justin first, they were all nice and I got a picture with each member.
Then I came to JC, the object of my affection. He looked even better in person. He signed my album sleeve, and then did something that would change my life. He took my bony hand, looked in my eyes and said, "It's alright, everything's gonna be okay. You are a beautiful person, don't let anyone tell you different."
He left me with a smile and moved on to the next fan. I was almost in tears. How could he have known? I didn't say anything. He just knew.
He probably doesn't even remember me, but the words he said changed my life forever. That day, I went home and cried, and checked myself into a hospital. I now am a healthy 125 lbs.
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He didn't say much, yet he did so much. Props to Josh for helping this gal out!
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