~Chapter 7~
I stayed in my room all the next day. Thinking, replaying what had happened from the night before. It drove me crazy. I felt so empty and tired. Venessa came in and talked to me a few times. But I don't remember what she had said. I think Howie talked to me too. But I don't know what he said either. The whole day was kind of a blur. There was a knock at the door.
"Come in." I said. Brian and Nick walked in.
"Hey how are you?" Nick asked.
"Heard what happened." Brian added.
"Ummm.....yeah I'm fine." I said. "Have you talked to A.J. at all today?"
"Yeah we were just over there." Nick said. "He didn't look to good......Have you been in here all day?"
"Yeah.......what else am I supposed to do? I'm just so tired, but I can't sleep. I keep
thinking the same things over and over and over again."
"Well we came over here to cheer you up. And we all want to take you out cause you really need to. So how about you come with me, Nick, Venessa, Howie, Kevin, and Liegh, to a night club tonight? It will be fun." Brian said.
"I don't know..." I started.
"We won't take no for an answer. We will get you out of here even if we have to drag you kicking and screaming. So be nice and help us out by coming on your own will. Please????" Nick said getting down on his knees.
"But.."
"Hey you heard what he said. We will do that you know." Brian interrupted.
"Oh fine. Get out so I can get dressed." I said getting up.
"Good. And hurry up." They both left the room so I could change.
When I was done getting ready I went into the living room to find that everyone was there. Well almost everyone. A.J. wasn't there.
~Good they aren't gonna try to fix everything....Well at least I hope not.~ I thought.
As I entered the room everyone looked at me.
"Ok will you guys stop looking at me like I'm a ticking time bomb ready to explode? I'm ok. Really I am." I said sitting on the couch next to Nick.
"OK." Lieghann said. "Sorry. Well let's go. We don't want to be late." Everyone smiled
a little bit.
~Late? It's a night club.....what's there to be late for?~
We all piled into 2 cars. Kevin, Howie, and Venessa in her car, and Brian, Lieghann, Nick and I in Nick's car. We headed for the local club in silence. The club is another place where we hung out a few times. It always has a lot of people there.
When we got into the club we all headed towards the dance floor and started dancing. We danced most of the most of the time we were there. A slow dance came on and I was dancing with Nick. Well until left and put me in the arms of another guy.......A.J.
~Chapter 8~
I knew Nick and everyone else were just trying to help, but I was pretty mad at them for that. I couldn't be in his arms like this. I pulled away from A.J., walked outside and sat down on and put my head in my hands. I felt so terrible. Not as bad as A.J. I thought. A.J. came outside and sat down next to me. We sat there in silence for awhile.
"So....how have you been?" A.J. said breaking the silence.
"Good." I said looking at him. He didn't seem sad at all! How could this be? "How are you?" I asked.
"Ok." He had mumbled something else but I wasn't sure what he had said. This small talk was starting to drive me nuts. We are acting as though we haven't seen each other for a long time, but we saw each other the day before.
"Um...I think I'm going to go back inside.....are you coming?" I asked standing up.
"Uh no I think I'm going to head home....got a lot of things to do."
"I hope you're not leaving because of me."
"No...I'm not."
"Oh...OK...well see you later then." I said and walked back inside without looking back. He didn't look hurt at all. I guess it really is over.
"Bye." he whispered and started walking away.
I found the rest of the group sitting at a table talking. I went and sat down with them.
"Hey where's Bone?" Nick asked. Brian kicked him under the table and gave him a look to shut up.
"Oww." he mumbled.
"He went home." I said looking at Brian.
"Did you talk to him at all?" Venessa asked.
"No not really. He seems to be over me already. I guess it really is over."
"He still loves you. I know that for a fact." Kevin said. "I could tell when you dancing with him for that split second."
"Brenda you have to go talk to him." Venessa urged.
"I can't do that. Not right now." I said getting irritated
"You are being really stubborn right now."
"No I'm not." I stood up. "It's over! He doesn't want to be with me I ruined everything! There is nothing I can do about that!" I yelled. I walked outside again, leaving everyone shocked at my reaction. I walked home which took about a half hour. I needed the fresh air. When I got home I noticed something strange. The door was open, and I remembered locking it before I left.
~Chapter 9~
I opened the door slowly and saw A.J. sitting in the living room. I had forgotten that I gave him a key.
"Ok what are you doing here? You can't just can't come here and damn time you please you know. And can I have my key back? 'Cause we aren't dating anymore so I don't think you should have it." Wow that sounded cold. He walked over to me and gave me the key.
"Sorry I just wanted to talk to you and I didn't think that you would even let me in." He started.
"Yeah but instead you let yourself in and scared me half to death."
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to.....it's just that....forget it." He said and walked out the door and left.
~Why did I just do that? How could I have been so stupid?~ I sat the for a long time thinking of how I could have handled that better. I just sat there for awhile.
"I am stubborn." I said to myself.
"You've got that right ." Venessa said walking inside. "But I'm sorry for saying all those things Brenda."
"I'm sorry for yelling at you and leaving. And I'm also sorry for yelling at A.J. tonight too. I'm just messing everything up. I don't think anything will ever be the same." I said.
"Wait you talked to A.J.? Again?" Venessa so surprised because she didn't think I would talk to him again that night.
"Yeah. He scared me because he used his key to get inside and I thought someone had broken in. But it was just him. I was being mean about it and he left. I really wanted to talk to him though. But I was just so angry about everything that has happened in the past 2 days that I wasn't thinking straight."
Venessa stood up. "Well talk to him tomorrow then. It's 1:00 A.M., get some sleep and then go talk to him. I'm going to sleep. Good night."
"Night."
She walked through the hall and into her room and closed the door behind her.
~Yeah I'll go talk to him tomorrow. But where will I start? How do I know that he will even talk to me after I have been so cold to him?~ I went to my room and laid down on my bed and fell asleep.
~Chapter 10~
I pulled into A.J.'s driveway the next day. ~Good he's home~ I thought. ~There's his car.~ I got out of my silver chevy truck and walked slowly to the door. I hesitated for a moment and rang the doorbell. A.J. opened the door surprised to see me.
"Uh....Hi...Can we talk?" I asked
"Yeah sure come on in." He said and moved over to let me in. We went into the living room and sat down.
"I'm sorry for snapping at you last night I was just really tired." I said sitting down on the couch.
"It's OK....." He said sitting across the room. He seamed uncomfortable. There was a long silence.
"I'm sorry I broke up with you." I said softly breaking that silence. "It was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I would understand you would never want to see me again. I know I've hurt you a lot. But I've come here today to ask for your forgiveness....and to work things out. I love you and I want to be with you." I paused for a minute and looked up at A.J. He was looking away. I wanted to know what he was thinking so bad. I went on. "I broke up with you because I thought it would hurt too much while you are away.....But it hurts even more knowing we aren't together. I'm so sorry A.J." I started to cry a little bit. A.J. walked across the room and knelt down in front of me.
"I understand why you did this. I do forgive you. I could never stay mad at you. I love you too. But things between us can never be the same." A.J. said looking into my eyes. I started to cry a little more. "They can only get better." He said smiling. "Don't cry."
I looked up at him. "You mean we can get back together?"
"Well yeah. I would be stupid if I said no." We both stood up and he leaned down and kissed me. I have missed him so much! A.J. pulled away.
"Oh yeah the dates changed for us leaving. We have to leave tomorrow." he said looking very sad. Now I really felt terrible! I break up with him and now that we get back together we only have today left to spend with each other!
"This sucks. I'm going to miss you so much." I started to cry again. A.J. held me in his arms. He held on to me like I would break if he let go.
"So we only have today to be together?" I asked.
"Not really we have another rehearsal to go to in about and hour."
"Tonight at least?"
"Definitely" He said
I pulled away from him and just looked at him. Trying to memorize everything about his face.
"Write me when ever you can." I said.
"I will. And I'll call you every chance I get. Ok?"
"Ok."
For the rest of the hour that we had before he had to leave, we just sat in each others arms
talking.
"Well I guess I should be going." A.J. said.
"Yeah me too." I agreed.
"Well you can stay here if you want. You know, just hang around until I get back."
"Ok."
A.J. got up and got his keys from off the kitchen table. I followed him. We both walked to the door. A.J. leaned down and kissed me.
"See you when I get back." He said softly. He walked to his car and left. I went back into the living room and laid down on the couch. I fell asleep thinking only of A.J.
~Chapter 11~
When I woke up A.J. was sitting on the floor next to me.
"So how long have you been sitting there staring at me?" I asked.
"Only about 10 minutes."
"What time is it?"
"7:30...Were you sleeping the whole time?"
"Yeah I haven't gotten much sleep lately." I said sitting up.
"Come on I want to go out." He took my hand and dragged me out to his car.
"OK, where are we going?" I asked as we got into the car.
"You'll see." He said and took my hand as we drove away.
We ended up going to the beach where we were on our first date. We walked along the beach in silence for awhile. I knew he was thinking about the tour. All I could think about was how much I was going to miss him and the guys. It was a beautiful night like the last time we were there. A.J. just all of a sudden stopped me and hugged me tight.
"Are you ok?" I asked. "Is something wrong?"
"Yeah I'm fine. I just needed a hug."
"Oh ok. That's fine with me."
We walked around the beach for a long time just talking....and kissing.
"So what time does the plane leave?" I asked.
"Tomorrow morning at 6:30." He said looking away. "We should be going"
"Yeah."
He took my hand and we walked to the car. He opened the passenger door to let me in.
He got in on the other side and we headed back to his house.
"Me and Venessa will be at the airport at 6:00 ok?" I said as we drove into his driveway.
"Yeah ok meet us at the gate. It's ATA flight 286 to Germany." He got out of the car and went to the other side and opened the door to let me out.
"Ok we'll be there." I kissed him and we walked to my truck. "I'll see you tomorrow."
"OK. I love you. Bye." He kissed my forehead.
"I love you too."
I got into my car and drove away. Tomorrow is going to be the last time I get to see A.J. in a long time.
~Chapter 12~
Venessa and I got to the gate at the airport at 6:00. We found all 5 of the guys sitting in the corner with hats and sunglasses on.
"Hey how's it goin'?" Venessa asked as we walked up to them.
"Ok. How about you?" Kevin asked.
"Ok I guess." A.J. walked over to me. "Hey." he said.
"Hi. How are you?"
"Good except for the fact that I'm leaving and you're not coming with me."
I looked away. I knew that if I looked at him I would start crying again.
"I'm going to miss you so much." I laughed a little bit. "Haven't we gone through this a few times already?"
"Yeah. Let's not do that again." he bent down and kissed me. We broke apart when we heard a lady over the loud speaker.
"Flight 286 to Germany is now boarding."
Kevin walked over to A.J. and me. "We are going to board now." he said to A.J. He turned to me. "Well hopefully I'll get to talk to you soon Brenda." he gave me a kiss on the cheek and a hug.
"See you on the plane Bone. Bye Brenda." He walked over the Venessa before he got on the plane to say good-bye to her too. Nick was the next guy to come and talk to me.
"Well I'm gonna miss you. You are just too much fun to pick on."
"Ok Nick whatever you say." I gave him a hug. "See ya around!" I walked over to Brian and Leighann. "Hey you better call every once in awhile." I said to Brian. "Well of course." He said. "I'll miss ya." He gave me a hug and then a noogie.
"Hey don't mess up the hair! See ya Rok!"
"Bye!" he said.
A.J. was talking to Venessa and Howie so I walked back over to them.
"Hey." Howie said. "It's nice to see that you two are back together. I wasn't looking forward to seeing A.J. mope the whole time." A.J. smirked. "We only did it to make you happy D." he said sarcastically.
"Oh yes thank you so much." He said.
"Last call for flight 286 to Germany." Everyone was on the plane but A.J. and Howie.
"Well this is it." Howie said. "Well you guys are gonna have to at least visit us when we have off."
"That would be cool." I said.
"Brenda can I talk to you for a sec?" A.J. asked.
"Yeah. Bye D." I said and gave him a hug. A.J. and I walked away so we could be alone for a second. A.J. held out his hand and in it was a little black box.
"What's this?" I asked.
"Don't open in until I leave." he said. "Well this is it I guess. I'll talk to you later." A.J. kissed me and started backing up. I didn't want him to see me cry but it was too late. He turned around and started to walk away with Howie. He was to the point where I almost couldn't see him anymore. He turned around and mouthed the words "I love you." I said them back. He turned around and walked onto the plane. Leighann, Venessa and I stood there and stared at the plane saying nothing.
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"Hey did you give it to her?" Brian asked as A.J. sat down next to him.
"Yeah.....Do you think she will like it?" he asked.
"If it's from you I'm sure she will."
"Good."
"Hey ready for another tour?" Nick asked.
"Hell yeah." A.J. said. "It will be fun." A few minutes later they were up in the air headed to Germany.
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We all started to walk away after the plane took off.
"Hey what's that?" Leighann asked.
"I don't know." I opened the box and saw a little note and top of something else. I took the note out and saw a promise ring. I read the note. It said:
I'll Be yours, and you'll be mine, always and forever.
Love Always,
AJ
I smiled put the ring on, and we all walked away in silence. Well yeah he was gone. But
at least I had something to remind me of him. Even though I would always think of him. He is right, I am his. Always and forever.
The End
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