8.14.01

12:29 pm
It's over.  Me and that person are no more, and it hurts.  I feel so empty inside.  I've never been dropped before, so I didn't know it would hurt like this.  I sat in the bed last night, just staring at the wall, wondering what I had done to deserve such pain, and today I've been tryna convince myself that this person wasn't all that anyway.  I guess it had to happen anyway, it's like already planned out that Kent will end up sad and alone.  Damn, this really hurts a lot.  I was nothing but nice to this person (and YOU know I was, but you couldn't appreciate that. I mean damn, did I have to do you dirty like M?), I wanted them to be in my life.  I cut off others to be with this person, and this is what I get, a broken heart and a bleak outlook on love.  I know I'll get over this soon, but I don't want to.  I want this person back, and I know I'm stupid for wanting someone who doesn't treat me right or deserve me.  Well, it's only right this had to end, it was the only thing that brought smiles to my face this summer, and the summer's almost over for me.  Damn, this year has been something else.  I guess I'll talk to you guys later.  As of now, relationships SUCK!
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8/6 - 8/13
8.16.01

2:16 pm 
Yes, I know, I missed a day.  I was being lazy yesterday.  Hmm, let's see.  What's happened since I last wrote in here?  Well, Tuesday (8.14.01) night, after that drama that resulted in my being dropped, me and them talked again, because we were friends first and foremost so I still wanted to have that around.  Well, the friendship talk found a way to slide back into the relationship talking.  No, not getting back together (I don't want that person anymore, their actions in the relationship department didn't rub me the right way), but about why I was dropped, because I was never actually told why.  After hours of trying to get the answer out, and being blocked (I still can't believe you had the nerve to block me, repeatedly.  NOTE TO OTHERS:  I am not a stalker, I just wanted an answer.)  I finally got the answer to why I got the boot, and no, I'm telling what it was.  But anyway, after I found out, it was like all the sadness and melodrama that happened the day before was lifted.  I was actually happy.  I know that it wasn't my fault.  Some people just have issues.  Anyway, we're back to where we started, as friends (...who can do nasty things to eachother, j/k.  Even though I'd like that.  Get back at me on that idea. hehehe.)  Anyway, that's what happened on Tuesday.  On Wednesday, I went to the race tracks with my Grandma, because she wanted to chill with me before I went home.  I thought I wasn't gonna have fun, but I did.  I won three bucks from betting on a race, but I also lost like 9, so I'm 6 bucks in the whole.  All in all, it was fun.  Afterwards, we went to some Jewish Deli, and that food was off the hook.  They gave us so much food I had to take some home.  I recommend D.Z. Akins (the restaurant) to anyone who lives in San Diego, or plans to visit. Then I came home, and checked my mail and whatnot.  Then I was going through my file storage online, and I came across an old conversation that me and the heartbreaker had that I had saved.  I got all misty-eyed and nostalgiac.  Then I got a lil bitter because I fell for all that hoopla that I was told.  But it's cool, I hadn't even thought of the heartbreaker all day until I came across the conversation. I sent it to them, and we started talking about it.  And they still claim that at that point in time, the feelings were valid, and not a hoax (Suuuuure they weren't.  LOL, it don't matter anymore now, what's done is done).  Well, that's all that's happened really since I last wrote.  Less than a week to go and I'll be back in Baltimore.  Oh, and speaking of Baltimore, on Monday, or Tuesday (I forget), my best friend, who just recently went back to Baltimore to get ready for school and whatnot (She goes to Morgan too, and the reason she had to go back early is because she's a band dancer (a Morgan Foxy Dancer to be exact) now, and she had to go to band camp.  LOL, everytime I think about her going to band camp, I think of American Pie. Hehehe.) and her roommate (also my friend, Hey Shenelle, how you doin' ma?) were robbed.  Their apartment was broken into and my best friend's laptop was stolen, her wallet was stolen.  Whoever it was also stole they water from the refrigerator (that's low) and Shenelle's panties (I'm sorry, I know it's a bad thing that happened, but the panties being stolen, that's just hilarious.  I'm sorry Shenelle, you know I love you).  The bad thing about it is that the only reason why they were jacked is because the school (Morgan State Univ.'s ghetto ass) didn't have their apartment (Northwood, for all my Morgan heads) ready, so they put them in a temporary apartment.  And the school isn't tryna reinburse my girl in any way for her stuff (which is more than what the Room and Board is).  She all scared and stuff (I am too, I gotta go back to the same thing, and I got a lot of stuff that's expensive.  Crackheads would have a sales bonanza (LOL, I said "bonanza") with my ish) and she don't even wanna stay there.  She's considering coming home (Don't do it, I'll protect you)  Well, that's officially it.  I'll be back later when I do something worth writing about.  Oh yea, one more thing before I go.  I have an announcement to make for the masses.  I'm FREE!!!  I am attached no more.  Come holla at me. 
8.17.01

9:14 pm
I just stopped in to tell everyone that the new Kelis album is bomb.  It's up there with the rnb albums of the year.  This is an example of why I love the Neptunes.  When they come original, it's so nice.  That's all for now.  Oh, and I finally saw Memento last night.  All I can say is..........damn.  I'm still tryna figure out what happened to me last night in the movie theatre.  This is hands down the best movie I've seen in the theatres this year.  Maybe in the last two years.  It's that good.
8.21.01

Okay, I know it's been a while since I dropped a line here, but I've been busy, and don't worry, nothing important has happened since I last wrote.  The reason why I'm writing now is to let everyone know the fate of this site.  I've been gettin IMs about my closing the site.  Am I closing the site?  Maybe, it's still up in the air, I won't know until I get back.  See, my computer back in Baltimore and Geocities (my site provider) don't get along too well, so I can't update from there.  So the question is:  What am I gonna do about it?  Well, I may be opening a new site under Angelfire.  But until then, all sections except for: What I'm Listening To, both Archives, and the Thoughts section will not be updated until I figure out what I'm going to do.  The 4 sections that will be updated, will be done at my journal site.  The link for it is
HERE, and also on the front page.  So I'm puttin the archives up there, and they will stay current, as well as the other 2 sections.  This is only temporary yall, I have a lot to take care of in these upcoming weeks, but believe that www.kent99.cjb.net is coming back, with a newly redid format and more user friendly archives.  That's all for now, the summer's been fun.  I met a lot of people, I cut all my hair off, I saw a topless show, I got dissed (ok, that wasn't fun).  Talk to you guys (from the journal site) when I get back in Baltimore.  Until then, this is Kent signing off.