| 8.6.01 Okay, I've started this new section of my site to let everyone here know what's on my mind, besides "What I'm Listening To" So here it is. I hope you guys enjoy. This will be the most updated part of the site. I'ma try my hardest to come everyday (or more than once a day, depending on boredom level) with this. And now, on to the first post!!! Okay, today has been like any other day this summer. Mind-numbingly boring. The only thing I got from these 3 months back in California (San Diego, for those who care) is sunburnt from going to Six Flags Magic Mountain (I really need to forget that myth that I'm black, so I don't have a need for sunscreen), and the self-realization that I don't belong here anymore. Oh well, only 16 more days 'til I'm back in Baltimore, and only 19 more days until I'm 20. I'm not even looking forward to turning 20, cuz it don't count. After u become 18, it's all about turning 21. Wow, I'm not a teen anymore. The credit card bills already told me that. Okay, back to the summer being horrible. It is a horrible one, no doubt, but I've met some people that I'm glad I've come across (you all know who you are). Anyway, that's all, for now. I hope you've enjoyed this little moment with me. I'll be back later tonight, with my quick reviews for the majority of the albums that have come out this year. Check back soon. - Kent |
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| 8.7.01 Time: 10:27 am Good morning everyone. Damn, I'm tired. Anyway, it's hot as hell outside today, and one of my favorite songs just came on. D'Angelo's "Me and Those Dreamin' Eyes of Mine". I had to sing along, that used to be my ish back in 9th grade (Damn, that was a while ago). Anyway, I ain't really got nothing of substance to say, but I'll be back later today. -Kent |
| 8.8.01 7:17 pm Hey, it's me.......again. I just felt like saying something, so let's see what comes outta my head. Hmm, let's see. I copped the new Mary J. album today, and it's nice. I'm liking. Well, that's all I had to say. I'm about to go to my best friend's house to chill with her before she goes back to Baltimore. Bye for now. -Kent 2:19 pm Hey, it's me. Checking in again. I'm still a little depressed, but oh well, I'll get over it. Someone needs to come and make me feel better. Anyway, I just listened to the new Brian McKnight album, and it's..........So, like I said, I'm still a little depressed, lol. The Brian album is blah people, don't waste $ on it. I liked one song on there, but it started to get on my nerves towards the end of it, so i guess I really didn't like it then, huh? That's all for now, hopefully something worthwhile happens today, so I can actually talk about something. Don't you hate nosey people? Just a thought, I'll be back later. -Kent 11:09 am Hey everybody. Here I am, checking in for today. I'm a little mad at myself because I let someone get the best of me last night (you know who you are), which in turn is making this "one of those days". Anyway, advice to the world: don't get into any type of relationship, whether it be friendship, work partnership, or boyfriend/girlfriend-ship where its not a 50/50 type thing. If you happen to get stuck in something like that, left your other half know, and hopefully they'll change. Damn, my feelings are in hurt mode today. Anyway, maybe today I'll actually do 2 entries like I say I'ma do everyday. -Kent |
| 8.9.01 11:42 pm I was just sitting back, thinking to myself, and I decided that I should share with you all. What was I thinking about? Love, and why I am the only person I know who is my age, and has yet to experience it. It sucks to see the people you know be happy and in love, and have someone, while you on the otherhand, are alone, with no one to call your own. I've been alone for a long time now, and it sucks. It sucks so much. Everybody I know, has somebody. Damn, when it is my turn? This whole "not having experienced love" things gets to me a lot. Almost to the point of tears. Okay, maybe not that far, but close. I just want to feel what everyone else has felt. Now don't get it twisted, I don't need anyone. I just want someone. I'm just tired of being alone. Not having that someone that's mine. I just hope love finds me soon. I'm ready to give someone what I have to offer. I could go on and on about this, but I'm not. I don't need to get myself depressed. I'm goin to Vegas this weekend, I don't need the things doing me dirty in life on my mind. So, I'll try to write a lil something tomorrow before I go, but if not I'll let ya'll know what happened in Vegas. 1:01 pm Hey everyone, it's you know who. I'm sittin' back chillin, thinking about all the conversations I've had over the summer with those I go to school with. They've all been different conversations, but everyone said the same thing to me: "Kent, this year is gonna be different". Oh, how I hope that's true. So far, it looks to be valid. I'm coming back with a new mindset, some self-discoveries, and a....no that's it. But along with that, I have stuff there waiting for me. Like a new roommate (who I don't know), some more free government money, and....no, that's it too. There's more, I know there's more, but I just can't think of what it is for sure. Also, I got an idea today. For some reason, the idea popped in my head that I should go the my school's radio station and see about possibly getting a show on the air. The only setback is.....okay, how wack is this: my college (Morgan State Univ.) radio station is an adult jazz radio station. Anyway, I'ma still try and pursue the radio show idea. Who knows, I might find another thing I'm good at. I mean, I love music, and I'm knowledgeable of what's goin on in the music world, I think I'd be alright as a DJ. Hopefully I'll find out. |
| 8.12.01 8:02 pm I just read some funny ish I thought I'd share with yall. Treach, from Naughty By Nature, is doing porn. Click here to see. Don't ask how I got the link, hehehe. Lol, nah, it was on this music mess. board. 1:15 pm Aight, I'm back from Vegas. Let me tell yall what happened.... FRIDAY - We left San Diego around 5, and arrived in Las Vegas around 11:30. Yo, on the radio they played that damn Nivea song, "Don't Mess With The Radio" like I don't know how many times. It was like every 30 minutes that song came on. Anyway, that night we went out to chill. Went to some place called the Fremont, which was wack because most of it was closed when we got there. On our way to the Fremont, we passed by this club called The Beach. We asked our taxi driver about it, and he said it's a popular place, that's 18 and up, which is exactly what we needed (Yes, I'ma young buck, 19, but 20 in 13 more days). So after we leave the bootleg Fremont, we go to The Beach. While we are line to get inside, I notice on the little rules of the club sign, it says 21 and up. So I was "Damn, I might not get in". Well, get to the front of the line, and the guy was about to let me in, and then he tells me I can't get in. Why? Because my shorts were past my knee. I mean, did they expect to rock some daisy dukes? But then, the guy at the door was like, "If you change and come back, you'll get in, no cover, and you won't have to wait in line". So we went back to the hotel, I changed into some pants (something I didn't wanna do, it was like 90 degrees outside........at midnight), and we drove back to the club. We got back to the club, walk past the line and go the front, only to see that they've switched the people working the front door. We tell the new guy what the old guy said, and they let us past the velvet rope. They start to frisk me and whatnot, and the girl who I went with was about to check her stuff, when they asked me for ID. Damn. I started to flex those acting skills, and I was like "Damn, they in my other pants". I was like "Craig (the first doorguy) saw it". Of course, it didn't work. I got booed. So we left, I was pissed because I changed for nothing, and now I gotta walk around the desert in some hot ass pants. So then we go to the strip, and walk around for a while. It's about 2:30 in the morning now. I'm still hot, and still a lil' dissapointed (I wanted to get my freak on!), but we walk, and end up at New York, New York. We walk around in there, and see the sights and whatnot. Then we ate in the America Cafe, gambled a little, and went on back home. I'll tell you guys what happened on Saturday. I'm about to eat......and I'm back. On to Saturday. SATURDAY - We woke up around 9-ish that morning, and figured out what we were gonna do for the day. We left at 11:30 to catch this magic show at the Frontier Casino at 12. For all of those who are underage, but look of age, and want to drink in Vegas, go to Frontier. Our magic show tickets came with free drinks, and I was gettin my lil' drink on. Anyway, the magic show was cool. The juggler in the show was kinda bootleg, he was droppin stuff like crazy. It was funny watching him try to play it off. Anyway, after that show, it was off to the Flamingo, to catch this variety show called "Bottoms Up", some topless show. So, we walked down the Strip to the hotel. Once again, if you are not of age, but look of age, and want to drink in Vegas, go to the Flamingo. It seems that all the older motels don't care to enforce the drinking laws. Anyway, even more drinks came with this show, so once again, we was gettin' our drink on. Anyway, this show was a mess. It was funny though. Raunchy as hell. LOL, and why did they have a lil' hip hop dance routine, and they danced to Missy and Redman's song, "Dangerous Mouths", from her second album? I'm sorry, but I don't EVER wanna see topless Las Vegas showgirls and guys in pants where they crotch can't breath dance to that ever again. And especially since they were off beat. Anyway, after seeing my first topless show, I realized that the ONLY reason why these shows are topless are to get people in to see, because there was no need for the boobies to be all out. Yes, they were nice boobies (and I think real too, I saw no scars- Yes, we were THAT close) but they weren't needed in the show. Anyway, after that, we went to go eat at this outside restuarant where this reggae band was playing. After that, we went to Hard Rock Cafe, and ate dessert. Then we went home (O, I keep saying home like I live there. When I say "home" I mean, the home of my cousin, that we were staying at.), and chilled for a bit. It was TOO hot to be outside (113 degrees), so we enjoyed the air conditioning for a bit. Later that evening, we went to Caeser's Palace, to chill, and shop. O, I forgot something. The first night we were there, we went to Hard Rock Hotel and Casino, to look around and whatnot, and I think I saw Luke Wilson, that one cat from that Drew Barrymore movie "Home Fries" and that one Martin Lawrence movie when was tryna get the diamond that was in the police station, so he faked being a cop. Damn, I can't think of the name, but Jay-z's song, "Girl's Best Friend" was on the soundtrack.. Anyway, back to what I was talking about. Okay, so we went to Caesar's Palace, took some pictures there, and window-shopped, because A. I was broke, and B. I didn't see anything to make a brotha want to use his credit card. So we left, empty handed. After that, we went outside, enjoyed the view, and decided that we had practically did everything we wanted to do, so we could leave early. Both of us were broke, so there was no need to stay anymore. So we left Vegas around 11-ish that night, and got back to San Diego around 4 something this morning. On they way back, we saw some crazy guy drivin on the freeway, the opposite way, in the fast lane, and we drove past the World's Biggest Thermometer. So there it is, that was my trip to Vegas. I had fun, except for when I got dissed by that club. I ain't really wanna go in anyway. It was tryna do the club a favor by going there, lol. Hopefully my trip to Rosarito, Mexico next weekend is fun too. Anyway, that's all for now, I'll probably drop something in here tomorrow. |
| 8.13.01 1:48 pm Well, after I wrote that entry earlier this morning, I told that person that I couldn't do this anymore, that I was tired of being saddened by them. I also decided to stop talking to that person for a while. Which is hard, because I really want to talk to them (they are on AIM right now, and it's hard not to say "hi") but I can't do it. I don't want to. Because it's the same ol' thing everytime. Dissapointment for me, no care for them. I'll get over this, but damn, I don't want to. I really liked.....no, I still really like them a lot and don't want to lose them, but I can't be with anyone who doesn't treat me the way I should be treated. Damn, can the right girl come along? Can the special someone hurry up and find me? Okay, enough sadness for now. On a brighter note, last night, while feeling sad because of the situation, I gave the new Maxwell album, NOW, a second listen, and it's much better than it was the first time I heard it. That's all for now. 12:13 am Damn, sometimes life can be so mean to me. Man, having feelings for someone, when they don't feel the same, and you know they don't feel the same, is one of the worst feelings. I'm referring to someone (who shall remain nameless) who I've liked for a while now, and they obviously don't feel the same. Of course they say they do, to spare my feelings (if you are reading this, don't spare, tell me the truth, I can handle it, I'ma grown ass man! I might cry a little, but I can handle it), but then they do things that disprove what the feelings they claim to have for me. So I am resistant to trust. This same person hurts me repeatedly, by not treating me the way I treat them (see entry for 8.8.01). Yall, I don't know. I really like this person alot, but I'm gettin tired of wondering of the feeling is mutual. I feel like I'm giving too much, and it's going to kick me in the ass in the end. This goes out to the person that I'm referring to (you know who are you are). I'm hurt, and I want you to let me know that I'm wrong about you. Please bring back those smiles I used to have on my face whenever I thought of you. See ladies, men have feelings too. We hurt just as much as yall. Some of us are just too lame to admit it. I'm out yall, I gotta go. It's time for me to drown in my sadness. |
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