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Around Easter I couldn't sleep at all. Up until 1 or 2, go
to bed and catnap off and on until it was time to get up for
work. Now I'm sleeping, go to bed around 10, no later than 10.30
and quickly fall asleep. The problem is staying asleep. This
week it has been the phone, it rings around 11.30-midnight. For
two nights it was Ray, the third a hangup.
I sleep but don't rest and wake up feeling groggy. Sleep has
been heavy, still and dreamless. Been feeling paranoid lately,
like they are just toying with me until some other smuck happens
along for them to toy with.
The shower is a little hotter than I can tolerate. I stand
there and let it wash over me. No matter how hot the water is
my tears seem to be hotter. I come out beet red and my already
too dry skin is crying out for moisture.
Try to drink plenty of water, but can't seem to. My hands
are cracked and papercuts take forever to heal.
Have been on a crying jag for 2 evenings in a row. Mom emailed
me and said there is a bookfair this weekend. Sounds like a good
excuse to go home.
I've been emotionally drained these last few days but don't
know why. Nothing has been going on.
The space cadet has been gone over a week now from work on
"medical leave". And the hassle I was getting from
grunt today made me wonder if grunt wasn't the reason he left.
I icq'd grunt's supervisor asking when graphics will be getting
a new manager. I think the idea of a manger for us was scraped
when a project to take on our parent company's advertising fell
through. Since nothing will change why have a manager? We did
hire a new guy who starts May 7.
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