Darkness enveloped me
Pain filled my heart
Deepened by emotions
Tormented from the start.

Lies and empty promises
Fear left unspoken
Shattered by betrayal
Innocence is broken.

Uncontrollable anger
Promises of pain
Burning with such heartache
Delusive feelings reign.

Painful memories so deep
Traumatic price to pay
Deception of sincerity
Leaving me betrayed.

Sadness has engulfed me
Bitter to the end
Pieces of my innocence
Shattered by a friend.

© Christina
30th July, 1993


 


"A poem full of pain, heartache and confusion.   People had told me that it didn't happen ~ but how did they know?   Where they there?   Did they see it?   No.   So they didn't know.   They only heard the conflicting stories between me and the guy who did this.   And they chose to believe him.   And it was then that the pieces of any innocence I had left were shattered by my friends.   This poem was written 16 months after the event, so it depicted how deeply it still affected me.   Particularly when those I trusted with the truth, turned their backs on me and chose to believe "him".   No amount of love and forgiveness could replace what they did to me.   It's hard for to forgive them....because it was hard enough to cope with what had happened, let alone being betrayed yet again by the friends I trusted most.   And so, he shattered my life, and he continued to do so until I let it go."

 
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