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   We began life together 
A voyage for life
 With so many dreams and promises
 Wrapped up in the fairy tale
 Far from reality
 A billowing dress
 Ruffled of organza and satin
 A beautiful face
 Veiled by tulle ~
 This was my day, it had finally arrived
 I was so happy
 Caught up in the beauty
 A beautiful bride....
 
 He was smiling at me
 Vowing to love and to cherish,
 To honour and protect me,
 With this ring
 This never-ending band of gold
 A token of love, our marriage;
 We gave our lives
 Our all to each other ~
 Or did we?
 What lay hidden?
 What wasn't bared?
 There should be no secrets
 We're man and wife
 I trust you, I love you,
 I married you....
 
 Wait!  Please don't hurt me
 Please listen ~
 I know I made my mistakes
 I'm not perfect
 But you had my love
 And I gave you my best
 Wasn't that enough?
 Where's the respect?
 And the honour
 And the protection....?
 You are supposed to
 Love and cherish me;
 I never knew that I'd need
 Protection from you....
 The physical scars heal
 But the emotional stay on
 But for how long?
 Love must be tough ~
 Is this what they meant?
 
 What happened?
 Lies, hurt, betrayal....
 I thought there were no secrets
 I thought I knew you,
 Trusted you, loved you,
 And that you loved me....
 And while you smiled at me
 And declared your love
 Exchanging rings
 We gave our lives
 Hand in hand we began
 Declared as one
 My face was unveiled
 The happiness and radiance shone ~
 Kiss the bride, but mask your face,
 She mustn't see....
 
©  Christina
May or June, 1996
 
 |  |  |    "This is one of the first poems I wrote after leaving my ex-husband. It depicts the hidden darker side of his abusive nature ~ the one we never see when we choose to marry them. The one that no one else sees, but us.  I called it "Veiled Vows" because I felt that even on our wedding day, there was a side to him I had not yet discovered....a side of him that was hidden, that maybe he didn't even know of himself....until something happened in his life to make it surface.  I do not in any way excuse his behaviour or abuse toward me; but I do know that he was unwell, and was suffering from a form of mental illness....which I believe was hidden from both of us on our wedding day.  I don't think it was entirely his fault, suffering from this illness, but at the same time, it does not excuse his behaviour either. 
I chose this set because it depicted the sadness of the time, despite the memory of a beautiful wedding day.  And I call it "Veiled Vows" because I was not the only one wearing a veil that day."
  
  
   
 
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