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010701 » i kissed a girl
listening to | something for kate
\ echolalia
feeling | hungover and confused
actually,
make that two girls.
last night was *weird* but also a lot of fun!
i went on a chemical engineering society pub
crawl and drank an amazing amount of beer. we
even had cases in an esky for the bus trip
between pubs. i think i actually only paid for 4
beers all night... the rest was freeeeeeeeee!
woo!
so anyway, we spent quite a while at the premier,
the second (i think it was the second) pub we
went to. a few of the guys play rugby and as such
needed to see the first half of the rugby test.
it was at the second pub that everything seemed
to go out of control.
it all started with my friend rachel and i
looking for the bathroom. we were holding hands
and i later commented that the men who pointed
out where the bathroom was probably thought we
were going to go and have sex in there. it was at
that moment that my friend - and rachel's
boyfriend - andrew's face lit up. he said,
"i think you two should kiss." i turned
to rachel and said "you wanna rach?"
and she said "yeah, okay." so we did.
the guys were initially in shock for a couple of
minutes at what they had just witnessed. after
overcoming this shock they would not shut up
about it. it was hilarious. such a power
trip! men think two girls kissing is such a
big deal, but it meant nothing to rach and i.
more than anything we did it to execute the power
we have over any heterosexual male. it is
interesting to see the profound effect that two
girls kissing can have on a man. we were each
other's first female kiss. how sweet. hehe. rach
also told me i'm a good kisser. :D
after rachel and i kissed we got a little worried
that our friend rebecca was a little freaked out
by it all. i spoke to her to make sure she wasn't
put off by what had just occurred. she wasn't. in
fact, she told me she would also kiss me. so i
kissed her. once again there were dropped jaws
everywhere. then rachel, rebecca and i tried the
three way kiss. they don't work. lol. i feel that
there may have been a few guys pitching tent
after all that. teeheehee.
for the next hour or so andrew tried to convince
me to stay at his and rachel's place. rachel and
i just laughed at him. then i kissed a cute boy
that i go to uni with. lol.
when we were about to leave this pub (i think it
was this pub, but it could have been the next
pub) i spotted a familiar looking face. i walked
over towards him, and lo and behold it was my ex
boyfriend ben! i hadn't seen benny in quite a
while, so i was rather happy to see him. we
hugged each other and that of course turned into
a kiss, as it usually does when it involves ben.
the first thing he said to me was "kate, i
broke up with my girlfriend." interesting
that i did not think to check if he was with his
on-again-off-again girlfriend before i kissed
him. hehe. a couple of people then came looking
for me and dragged me out of the pub to go to the
next one.
at the next pub my friends andrew (a different
andrew) and trent's band was playing. rachel, bec
and i dirty danced together for a while and
raised a few eyebrows in the process. i don't
think we kissed again, but i can't quite
remember.
next stop, the cambridge, where there was a dance
music party on. i stayed outside and ended up
kissing a guy from uni's friend. i don't know why
i did this... i wasn't interested in him in the
slightest. i think i had just gotten into a
routine of kissing people. lol.
last stop was the brewery. we didn't even go into
the brewery, we went to the great northern
instead. it was when i got to the great northern
that i got a message from my friend ang saying
"what's this about you & ben & two
chics?" hehe. i immediately messaged her
back to find out where she was and then headed
off to the grand to find her. i have no idea
where all the pub crawl people were by this
stage.
when i walked into the grand i was greeted by a
bunch of friends going "whoooaaaa."
then jazz asked me if i would kiss ang. ang
glared at him as i put my arm around her. lol.
then benny walked in. my friend jono (evil jono,
not the other one who i go to gigs with) then
told me to "make ben happy." lol! benny
had told everyone that i had been kissing girls
(apparently i told him about it when i saw him
earlier) and that he had kissed me too. for some
reason everyone was quite encouraging about ben
and i getting together again. last time we hooked
up ben was dragged from the pub by a mutual
friend of ours (jono, infact) who was not
impressed by our behaviour. well, i guess it was
a bit wrong seeing as though ben had just gotten
back with his girlfriend that day. lol.
on a more serious note, i had a really nice
conversation with jono last night. i used to be
quite close to jono, but i rarely get to see him
anymore. i complained to him about this and told
him how much it upset me to never see jono or any
of the boys anymore. he told me not to feel left
out because the guys barely see each other
anymore either. then he said that if ever i
wanted to talk, i could call him and that there
is nothing stopping us from talking on the phone.
he was really sweet and gave me a big hug. i told
him i loved him and he told me he loves me too.
what a sweetheart. he has fully redeemed himself
for the months of time he spent too busy for
anyone except his girlfriend.
then i went to buy more beer. i was hit on at the
bar by a rather sexy guy named lee (or leigh?
lol). the weird thing is that i think he actually
hit on me a number of months back at the same bar
and i ended up kissing him. lol. but i didn't
think his name was lee. *shrug* i was drunk. i
basically told him i wasn't interested because of
ben. i'm confused by the fact that i was
uninterested in this guy because ben was there.
then lee's mate decided he would have a go at me
also and started chatting to me. i ran away back
to benny. maybe they too had heard that i kiss
girls and that was why they were interested. lol.
so, i spent the next hour and a half or so with
ben. he was looking rather *reow* last night with
his new goatee and glasses. i now have to ring
him this week to arrange to see him again. it
will be nice just to catch up, if nothing else. i
love benny and i hate not seeing him anymore
because he is one of the funniest and nicest guys
i have ever met. i will never forget the look on
his face when he found out his best friend kissed
me a couple months after we broke up. it was the
first time i had felt guilt like that. i never
want to have anyone look at me with such
disappointment, hurt and anger in their eyes
again. i had never really thought he cared for me
that much while we were together, until that day.
it's upsetting me to even think about it now.
eventually my friend corey came to find me to
tell me we had to leave to catch the bus home. i
reluctantly left, only to get to the train
station (there were track works, hence the bus
from newcastle to broadmeadow and then a train
from there to maitland) half a minute after the
bus had left.
so corey and i tried to hail a taxi,
unsuccessfully. it was then we noticed fellow
chem enger, russ, crossing the road, also after a
taxi. we soon found one and were able to share
the cab with russ. we got to waratah train
station a few minutes before the train arrived.
in the meantime corey informed me that my friend
tamara (she fucked a calvin klein model) from
sydney was at the grand with my friend sandy. i
didn't even realise they were there because i was
so preoccupied with ben. hopefully they don't
think i'm too much of a snob. hehe. actually, i'm
sure they will more than understand.
i got home a little after 3am and then had to be
up at 10am to go to work. i felt like shite all
day. absolute crap. i felt like nothing i said
made sense. my head was so foggy. a friend was
walking past and came in to say 'hi' and
commented on how bloodshot my eyes were looking.
and i didn't have a single cigarette last night!
i am very, very proud of myself because they were
smelling daaaaaamned good! though i guess i could
taste them enough on ben as it was. actually i
don't even remember tasting cigarettes on ben.
dammit! the first time i kiss a smoker since i
have given up smoking and i don't remember what
it tasted like.
text message of the day: are you
naked and horny? i am! (ben, 4.30am thismorning)
days without a cigarette: 70!
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