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020701 » i'm confused
listening to | jeff buckley \ live
a l'olympia
feeling | pretty good
6.50pm
today has been a really interesting day for a day
that i have done nothing but sit at my computer
and be a nerd.
i think my good mood stems from a four hour phone
conversation i had with a friend last night. jb i
want to thank you for playing your guitar and
singing for me! i know i've said it before, but
if ever you want to ring me and do it again, go
right ahead! there is something about having a
boi sing for you that is just *oooahh* :) and
it's something that no one has done for me in
over a year. thanks heaps! i love you dude!
there
are no developments with the benny situation as
yet. i'm confused about what to do. plus i'm
nervous about ringing him now i'm sober. lol.
what if he was only interested in me because he
was drunk? i might text him later and then ring
him tomorrow. we will see.
a couple of friends have asked me why i don't
just jump into the ben thing, and i think it is
because i know it would never turn into anything
serious. i love ben, but i don't think i could
ever fall in love with him. nick commented that
maybe i should stop looking for love and maybe
just be content to have fun for a while. i can
see his point, but plain 'fun' just seems so
pointless. i'm not looking for someone who will
commit to me - commitment rather freaks me out
actually - i'm just looking for someone who fills
me with a feeling of elation, comfort, emotion
and passion when i am with them... kind of like
what it feels like when i listen to jeff
buckley's music (hehe. see i told you he has
ruined men for me). i've gotten that feeling
while around only two people and i want to be
able to feel it again. maybe i'm too idealistic.
i also don't want to feel like i'm using ben. i
know he probably wouldn't see it as that, but i
would still feel bad about it.
another problem is that there is a boy i've been
interested in for a while, and even though i know
he doesn't feel the same about me, i think i'm
still holding off maybe just a little because of
him. *argh* frustration!
so who here thinks i'm neurotic yet? and :P to
all the guys who are thinking 'omg! not another
one of these confused women who doesn't know what
she wants!' we are allowed to be like this. it's
how we were made. just like you were programmed
to love porn and cars. :)
7.20pm
yay! glennethel just rang and he is going to stay
at my place and come and see mick hart with me on
friday night! woo! and he is bringing presents!
:D presents are good! why don't more people buy
me presents?
waxing
is really, really painfull. guys do you know the
sort of pain and anguish girls have to go through
in order to feel pretty/sexy? a lot! every time i
do it i say i'm never going to do it again, but i
always do.
i
got a couple of emails from jen! i miss jen!
her plane didn't crash and she still hasn't found
us any sexy rock boys to bring home in her
luggage for us. she hasn't been shopping yet
either. though i will excuse all this as she has
only been in america for like a day. hehe.
i miss nicky c already too! you better email me
you email snob! i want to know eeeeeeeverything
about your trip.
nick is from cairns and is spending his holidays
in melbourne and adelaide. he is going to be
freezing his cute little bum dimpled butt off.
teeheehee.
expect a monster tackle hug when i see you at the
airport in two weeks nick!
oh, and vic and i have decided we are going to
give nick a makeover when the two of them move to
sydney next year. we have decided that he would
look pretty in pink. and nick, you better not get
your haircut while you are in melbourne because
you are going to need long hair so we can put it
in pig tails and tie them with pink ribbons.
[sourgirl]
you pair are norty!
* sourgirl spanks you both
[Orcy] oooar more
[Orcy] its his influence i swear! *points
at merc*
[re0w] lol
* re0w takes the blame
[re0w] but i think i really want to this
time >:)
[Orcy] :P
[sourgirl] lol
* sourgirl spanks merc... HARD
[sourgirl] hehe
[sourgirl] :P
[re0w] lol
[re0w] harder!
[re0w] im very bad
* Orcy sulks
* re0w spanks Orcy
[re0w] better?
this pair crack me up. no matter how crap a day i
have had, i can always rely on petey (orcy) and the merc (re0w)
to cheer me up.
and later after a discussion about my antics on
saturday night...
[Orcy] whoops sorry i had to go umm attend
to some needs
[re0w] hrrrrm /me (subliminal message)
thinks this silence is a result of Orcy doing
unspeakable acts to kate
[sourgirl] hahahha
[Orcy] lol
[re0w] some needs? ack, that was too
quick....musta been too excited, u went too hard!
[Orcy] no thats a dream :P
[re0w] wet dream
[Orcy] i never said it was going to be
clean
[re0w] just make sure u don't become dirty
on me
[Orcy] then get the fuck outta my bed!
[re0w] well stop giving me signals dammit!
i thought footsies was when u were interested!
[re0w] /finger Orcy
[Orcy] your feet were cold! i was kicking
them away!
[re0w] stop it dammit....u might give the
impression that we an old married couple :P
* Orcy kicks merc out of the bed and banishes him
to the couch
and then supersar joined the conversation and it
turned into a free for all! *reow*
sarah, promise me i can kiss you when i see you
again? *reow* hehe. *reow reow*
the
best pick up line ever: Kate your beauty
radiates magically like the sunlight on a dew
drop.
why thankyou peter, you sweetheart. hehe.
my
newest friend is dan the man from tassie. i met
dan because he read this website and emailed me.
dan is like a male version of me. it is freaking
me out. dan you are the dude! and i'm not just
saying that because you are heaps like me. lol.
seriously, i'm not that vain. ;)
ok well the point of that was just to say hey to
dan. self indulgent of me i know, but i'm allowed
to write whatever i bloody well want! so ner!
ok, now i'm getting silly.
i've been getting silly quite a bit lately. maybe
i really have gone mad. *jumps up and down and
stuff* *spreads some love*
oh well, better mad than boring.
toodles chookens!
xxx
days without a big smelly cancer stick
for comfort: 4 x 20 - 32 =
71!!
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