Living An Illusion

I know I don't belong
Oh someone, please tell me
What did I do wrong?
All I wanted was to be free

Now it seems
Alone and deserted will be my Destiny
Now it feels
Like no one can understand me

The life I've lived is just an Illusion
The happiness I felt couldn't be real
Only thing left in my heart is confusion
Hard to explain how I really feel

No one here to show me a solution
Searched for a person with whom I felt well
Thought he could give me te absolution
It only got me sinking deeper into Hell

What's the next thing to happen now?
Ev'rything in my life seemed ok
An Illusion of the mind, you know
Ev'rytime I found out it wouldn't stay that way

Fooling myself with my pride
But the emptyness inside didn't flow away
Time and time again I feel the hurt inside
Maybe from all I just should run away

I need no compassion
I'll find my way back
All I need is another Illusion...

Jessy M.   09.01.2000

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