Who Is Purrfect?
Well, here I am in all of my glory! Here's a bit more about me (if you can't bear the monotony, hit the "back" key on your browser). My life began at 30, and I'm 35 now, so I'm still a kitten ;0). I divorced four years ago, entered college as an English Major, am a full-time secretary, and am currently high on life. I live in Texas -- in the Mosquito Capital of the world, any guesses? I grew up in Lousiana, so I am also a bonafide, awesome Cajun cook (when/if I find the time).
My two rotten, regal, ridiculous, spoiled, hateful, mean and wonderful cats, who are the inspirations for my nickname, are Molly (or Poof), and Poose. Molly has a paper fetish, hisses like a banshee, and bites like a vampoos when startled or provoked. But, she is a loveable poof-cat if you kow how to handle her. Poose loves crinklies--especially big trash bags or crumpled cigarette packs or grocery bags. Poose's favorite pass-time is making Molly hiss and scream. Actually, Poose is my brother's cat (we're roommates), but we're all one big "happy" family--at least, my brother and I are happy. Actually, the two cats love to harrass each other and play "good-cat/bad-cat". Of course, neither of them ever start it! Ah, well, a home is just a house without a cat, ya know? =^..^=
My passions are many and varied (intellectually speaking, that is--I'll leave the "other" to your imagination). I love reading, movies, writing poetry & fiction, music of all kinds (but am especially a 70's-80's-90's rock-n-roll gal), anything to do with the COMPUTER, painting, crafts, drawing (I did the kitty gif at the top of the page myself--you've got to check out gif construction, it is too fun!) Yeah, right! AS IF I HAVE TIME FOR ANY OF THIS STUFF! But generally, anything that appeals to the artist in me gives me oodles of pleasure. Getting outdoors in cool, sunny weather puts a big grin on my face, any excuse will do:0)
As for chat-mania, I've been alternately blessed, tantalized, fascinated, confused, inspired, enlightened, attracted, repulsed, dazzled, amused, and touched by the people I have met on the internet. This forum gives a whole new light to freindship and love, doesn't it? My world is suddenly a much bigger and richer place. All of my experiences here, good and bad, have also built my confidence in dealing with people making new friends in the "real" world. Special hugs to all of my friends in Dimensions -- you all welcomed me with open arms and helped me begin to appreciate myself after a very difficult time in my life.
So, you might ask, what is the purpose of this page, besides self indulgence? Ultimately, it is an exercise in self-acceptance, and a celebration of the people and things that have filled my life with meaning. At this point in my life, I have realized that I am continually "becoming," as we all are. I am not an advocate for "fat acceptance" per se, but for "people acceptance" )in all of thier wonderful sizes, shapes, and attitudes) as well as an advocate for tolerance, for love, and for compassion. Whether I weigh 275 lbs, or 130 lbs, I am and will continue to be a viable, intelligent, attractive, sensitive, and worthwhile human being. Self-worth is not based on body size or other physical attributes. However, I have come to believe that self-acceptance should not mean stagnation, and I continue to strive to become the best person I can be, physically, as well as mentally and emotionally. I enjoy being a voluptuous woman, it's part of my identity, defines my sensuality, and I don't expect or want to be thin. However, I know that I feel better when I can be more active, and am healthier, as long as I maintain a certain weight. That is a personal decision for me, as well as for others, and only I have the power to do what is right for me, and to change those things about myself that can make me a happier, healthier person. In 1990, at 360 lbs, I was miserable, had serious health problems, was unmotivated, and felt I had to do something to take control of my life. Today, at 275 lbs, I feel I have reached my comfort zone, but am happily still be very much a BBW. Healthwise, (and clothing finding-wise) I would love to reach my goal of 225 lbs and holding (which I feel would be the purrfect weight for me as 5'0" shortie BBW) but I have also realized that this is a process, and that I can and do love myself as I am now, even as I continue to search for the "Purrfect" me. My prayer for you all is that you be true to yourselves, decide what is right for you, take others' caring advice but don't let them dictate, go for your goals, and always love yourselves along the way. No one is truly "Purrfect," but that doesn't mean we have to settle for less than the best we have to give ourselves and others! God Bless, and I hope this page provides a wee bit of inspiration, amusement, and enjoyment to other BBP who are struggling to define what is right for them.
Well, I guess I'll end my riveting tale here, maybe I'd better stick to poetry! Hope you all enjoy browsing through my junk -- and let me know what you think of my poems. Ya'll drop me a line with any hints or suggestions, or just to say "Hi!" See ya soon!
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