I still hadn't gotten used to the fact that my name was Lita. When people called me that, I usually didn't respond since I was so used to being called Amy. I guess I still couldn't believe that I was in the World Wrestling Federation. I never realized how much hard work, effort, sacrificing and just never giving up really paid off in the end. I mean, everything went by so fast. High school was over before I knew it. Those had to be the fastest four years of my life. My four years of training to be a wrestler were awesome. I got to meet a lot of talented people. I guess, Matt and Jeff made it more fun for me since I was their age and since Matt was my boyfriend. I was getting recognized a whole lot more ever since Lita formed the alliance with the boyz. I was gaining a lot of fans too. That was sort of weird. Sometimes, I wondered if they liked Lita when she was with Essa, not that it really mattered. Then again, I didn't really care. I just couldn't believe that there were some people out there who actually looked up to me. Now, that is weird.

Tonight, I was scheduled to accompany the boyz to the ring in their match with the Dudley Boyz. Trish, Andrew and Albert were gonna come out and put me through a table. I knew how to take bumps and it was just a table. I'd be alright. I'm quite sure Jeff was looking very forward to it. We had a huge fight last night...again. Anyway, Lita's feud with Trish was probably what got me so many fans. I was told that our "Street Fight" got some pretty big ratings for Raw, which I thought was pretty cool. That proved that there were some fans out there that wanted a Women's Division. I hoped Vince would consider bringing the division back. Don't get me wrong, I love wrestling my boss's daughter but there are truly some talented females out there who are working just as hard as I did to get here and one of my goals while I'm in the WWF is to make sure that the women are taken seriously just like the men are.

My character, Lita, really wantsthe belt in the storylines. When I first got here, I didn't really care about it since the belt was given to people like Terri and Debra, who couldn't really wrestle but added plenty of aura to the shows. So I thought that belt only went to the girl who showed the most T&A but I had to admit that Stephanie made it so that the fans wanted the division back since she never defends her title. So I think that there will be one in the future and if I am ever the World Wrestling Federation Women's Champion, I will be respected since that belt means you are the best female wrestler in the business since there is no Women's Division in ECW or WCW. Well, Trish and I were backstage in the Women's Locker Room going over what we were gonna do later tonight. She had on a Tommy Girl shirt and some jeans. I had on my gray sweat pants and a black bra. See, I prefer to be comfortable when I was dressed. I didn't care what anyone thought. I had a red bandanna on my head too.

"Okay, after Jeff jumps off the ladder, y'all come out and Bubba & Devon will already have the table set up and we'll just use the ladder Jeff jumps off of. Then, Test tries to powerbomb me but Albert stops him and tells you to do it. While you're climbing, the boyz start fighting them so that it's just you and me in the ring." I said.

"Dang. Where do you come up with all this stuff?"

"You know, I like to write about these things in my notebook."

"Yeah. So you get off the table right when I'm about to jump."

"That's right and then, you try to climb down, I grab your hair, try to suplex you off the ladder but you push me off the ladder through the table instead."

"Awesome. Sounds good...enough about wrestling though. I am so tired. So...what's up with you and Matt?"

"Same old, same old. Jeff is still trying to break us up but it ain't working so everything's just normal." I sighed.

"What's wrong?"

"I just can't belive that I'm here. Have you gotten used to it yet?"

"No. I thought I was gonna be a fitness model for the rest of my life. I didn't know that the WWF was watching me all the way in Canada. I never really watched wrestling too much because of my schedule but I was a big fan. This is a big organization and more people watched it than I realized. I'm a really famous girl now. That's unbelivable to me how everything led up to this."

"That's exactly how I feel, Trish. I mean, I have fans. Fans! Who ever would've thought little ol' me, Amy Christine Dumas, would have...fans. They actually feel sorry for me whenever you beat me up in the storylines. This shit is amazing." I said as I ran my fingers through my hair.

"Very amazing."

"So what's up with you and Test?" I said, getting off the subject.

"Whatever. We're just talking, girl. It isn't nothing serious. I'll let you know when we hook up. He's been trying to get with me ever since we started working together. I admire the fact that he's not giving up."

"You know y'all will end up going out. You just wanna make him wait."

"So what? I can't have any fun with him?" Trish laughed.

"I knew it. I know how you are. Well, let me go get dressed." I said as I got up and grabbed my pants and my pink top.

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I stood behind the titan tron with my hands on my hips waiting for our cue. Matt gave me a quick kiss as usual as Jeff gave me an evil look.

"Bitch." He mouthed to me.

"Fagot." I mouthed back.

Matt held me back and pushed me the stairs. Then, he gave Jeff a little slap in the head.

"What's wrong with you, man? We don't need all this drama before we go out. She's Lita now, not Amy."

They mumbled something to each other and did their little handshake. Their music hit and we walked through the curtain. When you come out here, there's no other feeling like it especially when you have about 20,000 people cheering for you. I'm really, really surprised that the fans like me so much. I see myself as someone they can relate to. I'm fighting in honor of and for them...a voice for the fans. We're ALL fans so I'm the normal person who kind of hangs out with the superstars, making a mark for us, normal, everyday people. I guess I also see myself as a pioneer for young women. I love this opportunity I've been given to let my true character show, which really breaks the mold of how women have been viewed and the role women had had up until me.

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I was at home watching 'VIP' and talking to Beth.  Even though me and her man didn't get along at the time, Beth and I were cool.  Jeff and me weren't arguing as much.  He had gotten used to me being around all the time.  To him, I was just another person.  Sure, we didn't like each other's attitudes at time but we didn't express how we felt about each other no more.  I knew some of the things he said about me.  Now, he didn't like my TV character.  He said that Lita interfered in all of their matches and was taking away their credibility as a tag team.  Why was he blaming all that on me?  I don't write the endings of their matches.  That's someone else's job. If they tell me to interfere, I do what they tell me to.  Jeff was taking it too seriously.  Amy and Lita are two whole different people.  He needed to understand that.

"It's so hard having a long distance love.  It seems like...oh, it just seems like he's so far away.  And when I call him and he doesn't answer...well, it seems like the world won't turn.  I just wanna pick up the phone just to hear his voice.  I call him and it rings & rings until he answers.  Just to tell him how much I miss him, how much I can't stand being this far apart but most of all, I wanna tell him I can't picture being without him."

"Man, that's...that's deep, Beth.  I never realized Jeff meant that much to you.  I never ever knew you missed him that bad.  I mean, I know that y'all love each other but...man, you almost had me crying." I said.

"He's so sweet though, Amy.  I don't understand why y'all don't get along."

"Well, he may be sweet to you but to me, he's rude, selfish, disrespectful, short-tempered and a complete ass around me.  I love him to death but I think we both have split personalities, you know."

"I can make him like you."

"You don't have to make him do anything.  I appreciate it but no, thank you.  It's just a phase, girl. I mean, I want to be his friend again but when someone disrespects me, I go off.  I'm a woman so respect is mandatory when you're around me. That's how I was raised.  Amy don't take no mess. I'm tellin' you now.  Jeff will realize that one day when he pushes me over the limit.  Independent female right here."

"Don't beat up my baby!  Save all your energy for Stephanie."

"Wait a minute.  Who told you?"

"Jeff did.  He told me you were gonna win the Women's Championship sometime this month.  Congratulations!"

"Thank you.  I'm looking forward to it." I laughed.

"So are you teaching Stephanie everything?"

"Me and some other people.  She's alright for a beginner.  She can do a Monkey Flip, a DDT and she can throw elbows.  That's pretty much it."

"It doesn't seem like a long match."

"It'll be the usual five minutes...which is one thing I do not like."

"Why not?"

"Beth, I can wrestle.  I have ability but when I'm told to 'keep the match under five minutes, it makes it less fun.  I have to worry more about my time limit rather than on my opponent.  I know what people say about me. They think that all I can do is a Hurricanrana and a Moonsault...which is a total and complete lie.  Whenever my character leaves Matt and Jeff will probably be when I start wrestling technically but it looks like we'll be together for a long time.  Still, I don't care.  I love this alliance we have. It's only August.  We have a lot more to accomplish."

"Yeah, the fans really seem to dig it.  I get on the Internet here and there. I see all these sites dedicated to y'all."

I heard my door open.  It must have been Matt.  He was moving into my townhouse these next few days.  We just decided it was something we wanted to do since our relationship was better than ever.

"Hey, Amy, come help me out!  Shannon and me can't do this by ourselves!" Matt yelled.

"Hold on.  I'm talking to Beth."

"That's alright.  I'll just call you later." Beth said.

"Alright.  Bye."

I hung up the phone and walked to my door.  Shannon and Matt were getting all of his stuff out of Shannon's car.

"Hey, Amy." Shannon said as he walked by me.

"What's up.  Do you really need me because I'm tired."

"No.  This is it.  I don't see how you're gonna put up with him."

"I'll learn.  Everything will be fine." I said as I took Matt's CDs from Shannon.

"Alright, girl, tell Matt I'll talk to him later."

"Okay.  Bye."

I walked back in the house and shut the door.  I put his CDs on my stereo.  The bathroom door was closed so I assumed Matt was in there.  I figured that I would watch some old wrestling matches.  I hated being off the road.  The first thing I did when I got home was get all my errands done.  So I had nothing else to do afterwards.  Just when I was about the tape in the VCR, Matt came from behind and took it out of my hands and tossed it to the floor.  I was about to speak but he covered my mouth.  He placed my arms around him and he put his arms around my waist.

"Stop thinking about wrestling.  It's not that important, forget about it."  Matt said as I smiled.

"Every time I try to forget you, I think about the sex is too goooooood." I giggled.

"Well, I sure can't argue with that.  I definitely cannot argue with that." Matt said with a grin on his face.

"You are so good to me.  I just wanted to tell you that, you've actually got my mind off of that sport we're so good at."

"Good.  Why don't we watch Pee Wee's Big Adventure instead?"

"Okay." I kissed him.

He let go of me and pressed Play on the VCR since it was already in there.  He sat down on the couch, I sat on his lap and laid my head on his shoulder.  He pulled me closer and held me tight.  I was so lucky to have Matt.  We'll probably never tell the fans about our relationship since it was so comforting knowing that no one could hate or take what Matt and I had away.  There's millions of girls that he could have chosen to be with him but he chose me and I thank God for that every single day.  Matt's love completed my existence.  He made me whole.  He was a saint, I was born to love the man.  He made my dreams come true over and over again.  It may sound like I'm bragging but I'm not.  You see, Matt came along when I needed a savior and he couldn't have come at a better time in my life.  At times, I honestly feel as if I have to thank Matt for me being the woman that I am today.

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