Ch. 45 Sonny was pacing the hospital. The EMT's had found a pulse. But it was very weak. She had lost a lot of blood. Mike and Lois had come to the hospital, along with Lily. Lily watched Sonny. He was so strong and brave and wonderful. She was falling in love with him. But he was married. To that brat Brenda. She hated her so much. She only tolerated her to get close to Sonny. Mike tapped Sonny on the shoulder. "What?!" "Michael, there's a detective here. He needs to question you." "Fine." Sonny turned around to face the officer. "I knew you couldn't treat her as well as I could." Sonny couldn't believe who was standing in front of him. "What the hell?" "Surprised to see me Sonny?" Alex Garcia was enjoying this very much. @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ Brenda had slipped into a coma, during surgery. There were so many thoughts and memories floating around. ** Ms. Barrett, did you or didn't you see your brother, the defendant, leaving with your father, the deceased, two days before the deceased's body was found?" She hung her head and whispered "Yes" "And isn't also true that it was the last time anyone had seen either of the before the time of his confession?" "Yes." "So it is quite possible that your brother, Nikolas Barrett, killed your father, Harlan Barrett?" "No! Nik, would never kill anyone." She was crying uncontrollably. She couldn't help what she was doing. She was incriminating her own brother. "But, you just admitted that he had fought with your father, after your father attacked you in the Cerullo living room, isn't that correct?" "Yes, but-" "So it IS possible that he became so enraged that he decided to give your father what he had coming?" "NO, that's not-" "Stop!!" Everyone in the court room turned around. "Nik is innocent. I know who killed Harlan." ** ^^^^ Brenda was sleeping with Sonny. She was tossing and turning. She couldn't hold back the nightmares anymore. She started sobbing so hard and so loud, that Sonny woke up. He tried to wake her up. "Baby, wake up." She started screaming. "Get off me!!" "Bren, baby wake up." He was getting scared. She had never been this hysterical in her sleep before. "Please don't do this! I promise I'll be good. Please, daddy." Sonny was starting to realize something. Something that he didn't want to believe. He started to shake her harder. Finally she woke up. She looked in his eyes. Oh, g*d he knew. She bolted out of bed and locked herself in the bathroom. Sonny sat there on the bed, and cried. He wanted Harlan alive. Alive so he could kill that bastard himself, for what he had done to Brenda. ^^^^ Ch 46 "I thought there was a law against hiring rapists as cops." "Cute Corinthos." "I try my best." !@!@!@!@!@!@!@! Brenda floated from one time to another. ~ "Bren? Baby let me in please." "Go away Sonny." Brenda sat in front of the bath tub rocking back and forth. She didn't want to see Sonny. She didn't want to look in his eyes and see pity or worse disgust. "I'm not going anywhere till you let me in. I wanna know that you're alright." "I'm fine." "I wanna see you. Let me in." Brenda slowly stood up and opened the door. Sonny walked into the bathroom and took a look at her. She looked scared not of him but of what he'd do now. He gathered her in his arms. "I love you Bren. No matter what I love you." ~ ~ Brenda laid on the bed in the hotel room at the PC Hotel that Ned had gotten her after she had called him. He had registered her under the name Leigh Ashton so Sonny couldn't find her. After she slapped him she had left the club. She picked up the phone and dialed Bensonhurst. "Hello?" "Hey Frannie." "Bren? How are you? Where are you?" "Port Charles. Is my brother there?" "Yeah hold on." A few minutes later and Nik's voice came over the line. "Ren?" "Hi Nikky." "What's wrong?" "What makes you think something's wrong?" "I can hear it in your voice." "It's Sonny." ~ @#@#@#@#@#@ Lily watched Sonny talk to the detective. It was obvious that there was some animosity between the two. She wondered what it was about. Her attention was caught by Alan coming out of the OR. Sonny saw him to and walked away while the detective was in mid-sentence. "Alan is she alright?" Ch. 47 Brenda continued to revel in her memories. ** Sonny held Brenda a long time on the bathroom floor. Finally he pulled away. ''Baby, you know you can tell me anything and I won't judge you. Please tell me what your father did to you.'' Brenda started to cry. ''I can't. I can't tell you Sonny.'' ''Why?'' ''Because you'll hate me. You’ll think I'm disgusting.'' ''No, baby, I could never think that. ever. I love you Brenda. Forever.'' ''Really? You promise?'' Her eyes were pleading with his. She looked like a scared kid. ''I promise sweetheart.'' ''OK, I'll tell you.'' ** ~~ ''Ren what did he do to you?'' ''Nik, he's running a strip club here in Port Charles.'' ''What? Ren are you alright? He didn't hurt you did he?'' ''No, Nik, you’re not listening. He runs a club were women take there clothes off.'' ''So, he didn't ask you to strip did he?'' ''Of course not.'' ''Then what's the problem?'' ''NIK!! I can't believe you!-'' ''Brenda, I don't think that's really why you're upset, so spill.’’ ~~ ^^ Brenda looked at her mother in shock, as did the rest of the courtroom. ''Mom, what do you mean you know who killed daddy?'' ''Your honor may I approach the bench?'' "Of course, Mrs. Barrett.'' "Your honor, I hired a private investigator to investigate my late husband's death and prove my son's innocence. I have evidence that proves Nik is innocent. It also reveals who the real killer is.'' ^^ @@@@@@@@ Sonny walked over to Alan. ''How is she? What's going on?'' ''Sonny, Brenda is in a coma. The bullet is lodged in her chest. She's lost too much blood to perform surgery now. We stitched up the cuts, and we are giving her blood transfusions every six hours. She's way beyond the critical point. I'm very sorry, but I think you should prepare yourself for the worst.'' Alan left. Sonny sat down and started to cry. Lily went over and put her arms around him and held him as he cried for his wife. Garcia smiled slightly. He loved watching Sonny in pain. He deserved it. Corinthos had destroyed his one night with Brenda. Now he was going to destroy Sonny. Ch 48 Sonny sat down beside Brenda’s bed. He took her hand and brushed away her hair. "What’s going on in there? Huh? What are you thinking about? The first time we kissed? The first time we made love? When I asked you to marry me? Funny how all those things took place in the Cerullo house, isn’t it? Do you know I still remember how you felt the first time we made love? God you were beautiful. I knew then that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. Protect you from everything. I was seventeen years old and I was in love for the first and last time. I was in love with Brenda Leigh Barrett. You know you can’t die on me because you’d be breaking the promise you made to me on our wedding day and the day Stone died. You said you’d never leave me. That you’d always be with me. I need you to keep that promise. I want you around in fifty years. You know your time’s almost up on having a baby. You were fourteen when I said I pictured you having our baby in about ten years. You’re gonna be 24 in seven months so we have to start practicing. Or should I say keep practicing? You need to wake up Bren. I can’t make it without you." He stared at her face and wondered what was going on behind those closed eyes. ~ "Have you ever heard of a guy name Joe Scully?" "Come home." "Nik-" "Get on a plane, a train, get in a car. I don’t care. You come home. I’ll be damned if my sister gets caught in the cross fire of a gang war." "I broke up with him. Isn’t that good enough?" "No because I know you and I know Sonny. You’re crazy about each other. The only thing that’s gonna help is distance and time." "Alright I’ll come home but not tonight. I’m to tired. I’ll get on the first train I can." "Call before you come." "I will. Love ya Nikky." "Love you too Ren." "Bye." "Bye." ~ ~ "When I was a kid my father used to come into my room at night and touch me." Brenda looked physically ill and Sonny wanted to kill Harlan. "Did he ever force himself on you?" "A few times." Brenda looked down at her hands. "Hey. Look at me." She stayed looking at her hands. He put his hand under her chin and tilted it up so that he could look in her eyes. "Nothing that your father ever did was your fault. You know that don’t you?" "Sometimes. I know he was a bastard and before he died I wished him dead so many times." "I wish he was alive so I could kill him." "Thank you." "For what?" "For loving me. For being there for me." "Always." "I’m gonna hold you to that." He pulled her to him and held her tight. "I’m never gonna let you go Bren. I love you." ~ ~ "Through an investigation of my husband’s business activities I have found that he owed a mobster money." "Who?" "Frank Smith." A gasp went through the courtroom as the judge banged his gavel calling for order. ~ Sonny felt movement against his hand. He looked up at Brenda’s face. Her eyelids slowly fluttered open. Ch.49 Sonny sat staring at her. Her eyes were starting to open. Then he was staring into the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen. "Brenda? Sweetheart can you hear me?" She slowly shook her head. Her whole body was killing her. Especially her face and chest. She could hear someone, but who? She strained to look around her surroundings. She had no idea where she was. then she saw him. Looking at her with love in his eyes. "Sonny, baby?" "Yeah, it's me. The old ball and chain. How ya feeling?" "I hurt all over. What happened?" "Don't you remember?" She tried to think back. "I remember taking a shower, and then gunshots. Nothing really after that. What happened to me?" "You got a few pretty bad cuts and you were shot." "Shot? I was shot?" Then he started to cry. "I'm sorry. I should've been there. I should've protected you, but I didn't. I'm sorry." "Sonny, why?" "Why what?" "Why was I shot? I mean what's going on?" "Brenda, you need your rest. We'll talk about it later, OK?" "OK." "I'm gonna go get Alan, I'll be right back. I'm so glad you came back to me." "Well, I didn't want you to have to practice for that baby alone." "You heard me?" "Only a little. I was remembering things that happened to us." "So was I. All our good times. Like remember when I took you to my prom?" "And you punched out Joey Castle for dancing with me?" "He had his hands all over you and I-" "And you were jealous." "I was NOT jealous." Brenda was laughing by now. He had been so jealous when Joey had asked her to dance. It had drove him crazy. "You were too, admit it!" Sonny sat there sulking. "Honey it's okay, I was jealous when Didi was dancing with you. In fact I wanted to scratch her eyes out when she grabbed your butt." "You saw that?" "Of course I did. I couldn't take my eyes off you all night." "Really?" "Really. I was so happy to be there with you. It was like a dream come true." "I'm glad I could do that for you. Bren? If you heard what I said about practicing, well, what do you think about it?" "About what having a baby?" "Yeah. I mean do you want to start a family?" Ch 50 "Nothing would make me happier." "You serious?" "Very. Give Mom someone to dote on besides Frankie." "How is our niece?" "Talked to Nik the other day and he said she was growing in leaps and bounds." Brenda giggled. "Do you remember the time your mom almost caught us in bed together?" "Remember? I still have nightmares." "OK. What about the time Nik did catch us?" "I thought he’d kill me." "Well, what did you think was gonna happen? I mean you’re making love to his kid sister in his house and you expect him to what? Say "Go ahead and finish what you’re doing. I’ll kill ya later."? "Well it would of have been nice if he had let me put my shirt on first." "Do you remember when you asked me to marry you?" "Best day of my life. You said yes." "What was I supposed to say? Get out of here? I hate you?" "How about drop dead you scum sucking piece of dirt?" "Ouch. I never would have said that." "Tell that to my over active imagination. The whole way to Bensonhurst I kept imagining the things you could say to me." "You knew the whole time that you were going to ask me to marry me?" "Yep." "And here I thought it was a snap decision." "Why?" "Let’s see. You walk into the Cerullo’s living room, see me, and get down on one knee. Sounds like a snap decision to me." "Well if you think about it our whole relationship began on a snap decision." "What decision would that be?" "The first time I kissed you." "Cerullo’s bathroom. Then if memory serves you called me a kid." "Stupid me because I knew you were no kid." She smiled at him and then her eyes moved to a spot behind him and she froze. "Honey what is it?" "Sonny? What is he doing here?" Her voice shook. Sonny turned around and saw Alex Garcia standing at the window staring at them. Ch. 51 Sonny stared at Alex. He was going to kill him, plain and simple. "Sweetheart, it'll be alright, I'll get rid of him." Sonny stepped out and grabbed Garcia by the collar. He threw him up against the wall. "Just what the hell do you think you're doing here? I told you to stay away from my WIFE." Alex had no idea that they had gotten married. "Your what?" "You heard me. Stay the hell away from my wife or I'll kill you." Alex grabbed Sonny's hands and removed them from his collar. "Are you threatening an officer of the law? That's not wise there Sonnyboy. You might find yourself in jail. Then poor Brenda would need a real man to come and comfort her." Alex smiled. He knew that Sonny was about to lose it. Then he could lock him up and Brenda would be his. Sonny knew what Alex was trying to do. He fought the rage inside him. He had to be careful around this nutcase in order to protect Brenda. The door opened and Alan came through. "Sonny is there a problem?" "No, Detective Garcia was just leaving." Alex straightened his shirt and left. "The nurse said you wanted to see me?" "Yeah, she's awake." The two men rushed in to find Brenda crying in her bed. "Baby? It's OK. He's gone." "Sonny when I saw him, I was so scared. I thought that he was going to do it again." She held onto her husband and cried into his chest. Sonny had tears running down his cheeks. He hated seeing her scared or hurt. No she was both. Both times because he hadn't been there to protect her. Sonny looked back at Alan who was completely confused. Alan left the room so they could be together. @#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@ It had been 4 months since Brenda was released from the hospital. Sonny had been extra security with her at all times, even though she didn't know. They hadn't talked about what had happened. In fact she had been acting strange ever since she left the hospital. She had decided that she wanted a baby, and that was all she talked about. She avoided the subject of the shower or Alex. She acted as if neither had ever happened. It was starting to really scare him. Sonny was sitting at the dining room table. Brenda had been in the bathroom for over an hour now. "Brenda? Sweetheart what are you doing in there? Did you fall in?" She walked down the stairs with a smile on her face. "Sonny?" she said as she slid her arms around his neck. "Yeah?" she turned and was now sitting on his lap. "We don't have to practice anymore." "What are you talking about?" "We did it. I'm pregnant!" "Your pregnant? You're sure?" she shook her head still smiling. Sonny looked away from his wife. This was not what he wanted, not now. Ch. 52 Brenda waited for Sonny's reaction to her news. But it was not the one she was hoping for. "You sure?" His voice was low and husky. It was also filled with sadness. Brenda was taken aback. "Yes. Of course I'm sure." She looked at him. He was definitely not happy. "Sonny aren't you happy?" He said nothing. "Was I mistaken in thinking that you wanted a baby as much as I did? It was your idea after all. Sonny look at me!!" He couldn't. So instead he got up and went over to the window. "Sonny?!! Talk to me!! Do you want this baby!!!!" she was screaming at him and pulling at his arm. He whipped around and said "NO!" She stumbled back. The tears coming down her face. He didn't want their miracle. He was throwing away the most precious gift they could ever give to each other. A child. "Fine you don't want the baby? That's OK. I will take care of her on my own." she started tearing off her wedding rings violently. "Brenda, calm down, what are you doing?!!?" "You can have these damn rings back, because I don't want them!! The mean nothing to me!! They were giving to me by a liar!!! TAKE THEM BACK!!!!!!!!!" She throw them at him. She was screaming and crying so hard that she could barely breath and her body physically hurt. She ran out the door slamming it behind her. Sonny stared after her silently letting the tears fall. CH. 53 Sonny sat on the floor of their home. The sound of her laughter, the scent of her favorite perfume, were still there. Surrounding him. He picked up her rings. Her beautiful rings. They were one of a kind, just like her. Except she was gone and they laid unwanted on the floor. "How am I ever going to make you understand, without really losing you for good? I know I said I was out of the mob, but I'm not. I'm in deeper now than ever. How am I going to make you see that I really DO want this baby? Our beautiful, precious little miracle? But, things are happening now. Things I can't tell you. Things that could put you in danger again. And now a baby? Oh g*d what have I done?" #@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@# Brenda ran down the docks as fast as she could. She was still crying uncontrollably. "How could you be so cold Sonny? So unfeeling? How can you just turn away our child when a family is what you said you always wanted? What's going to happen to us now?" "Corinthos is a fool and a coward." Brenda spun around to find two eyes boring into her. "Who are you? What do you want?" she didn't know why she was asking. She knew it was him. The one man she hated as much as her father. He stepped into the light. "I've come to get take back what was stolen from me years ago. What is rightfully mine. I've come for you, Brenda." @#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@#@ Sonny had a sickening feeling in his gut. He wasn't sure what it was, but he knew it had something to do with his wife. He opened the door to the penthouse and looked at Joseph. "Did you see where Brenda went?" "No, boss, I didn't. sorry. Is something wrong with MRS. Corinthos?" "I hope not. C'mon we're gonna go look for her. 54 Sonny tapped his fingers impatiently in the back of the limo. He had to find her. He had to apologize. He had to make her see that he was sorry and that he did want this baby. A baby. They were going to have a baby. A little person that was apart of both of them. He couldn't lose them. Not now. He remembered when Brenda had told him she thought she was pregnant. It had been almost ten years since that day in her room at the Cerullo's. His smiled faded when he remembered that night. She had woken up terrified and crawled out of bed. He hadn't known then what had made her upset but he knew now. Harlan Barrett. I hope you're burning in hell old man. He thought silently. "Uh boss?" Sonny looked up to see Joseph looking at him. "What?" "I think we found her." "Where?" "There." He nodded towards the docks. Brenda was standing there and not five feet away was Alex Garcia. Ch. 55 Sonny froze in fear. Alex was standing in front of Brenda. His wife. His pregnant wife. Joseph and Sonny noticed that Alex had his back to them. They quietly made there way down the docks. Sonny could see the look of fear on Brenda's face. As they inched closer, Sonny could hear what Alex was saying. "Get away from me, Garcia!" She tried to walk around him towards the stairs, but he grabbed her arm. "Oh, no. You're not going anywhere. You belong to me, and that coward you married has no idea how to treat you. He doesn't know what you like. I do." "Take your hands off of me you bastard!" "Or what? Are you going to try to press charges against me? I'm a cop now my love and cops don't turn on cops. No one will believe you." "If you lay one hand on me, Sonny'll kill you." At the mention of Sonny's name Alex lost it. He grabbed Brenda's head and sucker punched her in the stomach. She fell to the ground just as Sonny and Joseph came running out. Sonny jumped on Alex and they started to fight. They were down on the ground, rolling over each other, punching with all their strength. Neither one noticed that Brenda had pulled herself up and was heading for the stairs. After ten minutes of intense battle, Alex laid on the docks a broken bloody mess. "That's for what you did to Brenda all those years ago. Now, I’m warning you Garcia, if I ever see you again, so help me god, I will kill you." "Brend-" Sonny turned around and she was gone. He looked around the docks, but she was no where. "Joseph, did you see where she went?" He was starting to panic. "Sorry, boss." "C'mon I gotta find her." Sonny and Joseph started up the stairs when Alex pulled out his gun and pointed it at Sonny. "SHE'S MINE!!!" He got off one shot before Joseph shot him. "Is he dead?" "Yeah, boss." "OK, take care of the body I have to go find my wife." Ch. 56 Alan ran over to Amy. "Amy what happened?" "I don't know but she's bleeding, bad." "OK, get her into trauma 1, stat." Amy and Alan got Brenda into the trauma room and Alan started to examine her. He was getting worried. She was bleeding but he didn't know why. She started to stir. "Brenda? It's Alan. I need to know what happened." "My baby." she was crying and didn't know what was going on. "Baby? Brenda are you pregnant?" "Save my baby." Then she passed out again. "Amy we need to get her into surgery now. And call Dr. Kristov." "The OBGYN?" "Yes, I think Brenda's having a miscarriage." Amy looked at Alan and left the trauma. !~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! Sonny had gone everywhere he could think of. Kelly's, Luke's. the Q's. She was no where. He was getting worried. No forget that he was in the middle of a full blown panic attack. Then he remembered the way Alex had hit her. In the stomach. He could see her reeling back onto the ground, holding her stomach. Oh god, the baby. He got in his car and headed towards the hospital. !~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~! He ran through the doors of the ER. He spotted Amy at the front desk. "Where is she? where's my wife?" "Sonny calm down. She's in surgery." "Surgery? What the hell for!!?!" "Sonny why don't we sit down-" "No!! Tell me what the hell is happening to my wife!!" "Sonny she was bleeding. They're not sure what is going on." "The baby. What about the baby?" Amy didn't answer. She just cast her eyes to the floor. Sonny slumped down in the chair. Oh god. What had he done? He was losing everything. Right now his wife and child were fighting for their lives, and why? Because he had been a coward. Alex was right about him. He was a coward. He could lose everything, because he had been to afraid to tell her that he was scared of his lifestyle hurting her and their baby. Would he ever get to tell her how he really felt about her pregnancy? Would he ever get to hold either of them again? Alan and Dr. Kristov walked into the waiting area and over to Sonny. "What happened? Are they OK?" Ch 57 "It doesn't look good Sonny. Brenda was hit in the stomach and that caused a lot of bleeding. I'm sorry." "Did she lose it?" "No not yet but the chances are high that she will." "But she didn't yet?" "No." "Then there's still a chance she won't lose it?" "There's a slim chance she won't lose it but Sonny there's a better chance that she will." "Can I see her?" "She's still unconscious." "I don't care. She needs to know I'm there." "Okay come with me." Sonny followed Alan down the hall to Brenda's room. He left them alone with instructions to call him if she showed any signs of waking up. He took a seat by her bed and took her hand in his. She felt so cold. "Bren, honey? I don't know if you can hear me or not but I need you to wake up. I need you and our child to be okay. I love you both so much and I need the both of you in my life. Do you remember when we broke up after you found out I was running that strip club and then you left the country for two years? I felt like my heart had been ripped out. That's how I feel right now. You can't die on me. We need each other. You're a part of me. The very best part of me. Do you know that the day I drove you home from school the first time I sat in my car watching you walk up to your house and I even said your name with mine? Brenda Barrett Corinthos. I think I knew even then that I was going to marry you. And that time after your father beat you up and I took you to my house? I never told you this but my mom told me the next morning that she wanted me to bring you home because she wanted to get to know her future daughter-in-law. I remember blushing. Yeah me. I blushed because of you. You're the only girl that had ever done that. I guess that's because you were the first girl I ever really loved. Correction you are the only girl I've ever really loved so you need to wake up and tell me that you love me and that you forgive me because if you die so do I. My heart goes with you to heaven. Please baby wake up. For me." He leaned his forehead against their hands and closed his eyes waiting for something, anything that would tell him she was awake. Late into the night Brenda woke up. Sonny had fallen asleep in the chair beside her bed. She smiled at him slightly. He always looked like a little boy when he slept. So cute and innocent. Then she remembered what had gotten her there. Her baby. Was it alright? She had to know. She hit the call button on the side of her bed and a few minutes later a nurse came in. "Shhh. Be quiet please. My husband's asleep. Can you tell me if my baby is alright?" The nurse checked the chart at the end of the bed. "So far so good. But Mrs. Corinthos you need rest so please go back to sleep." "Thank you." The nurse smiled and left the room. Brenda looked back over at Sonny. He had her hand in his tightly. She leaned back against the pillows and drifted back off to sleep. THE NEXT MORNING..... "Sonny? Hey Sonny wake up." Sonny heard a whispered voice calling to him. He opened his eyes to see Brenda smiling at him. "Good morning sleepy head." "You're awake." "Looks like it." "Are you okay? Are you in any pain?" "Yes and no. I'm fine and I'm not in any pain." "Good. There's something we need to talk about." "What?" "The baby." Ch. 58 Brenda looked at Sonny. She didn't want to know where this conversation was headed. She loved him more than anything in the world, except for this baby. she let go of his hand. "Sonny, I love you, but I can't do this right now. I need to stay calm for my baby." "Brenda, I don't want to upset you, but we have to talk about this." "Sonny, I know that you don't... that you don't want the baby, but I do. I thought that you wanted it too, but I guess...it doesn't matter. what I'm trying to say is that -" Sonny's cell phone interrupted her. "I'm sorry but I have to take this call. It will just take a minute." "Fine go ahead." !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He stepped out side of her hospital room. "Joseph? What's up?" "Boss, we took care of that problem like you said. But we got another one." !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Brenda let the tears fall. "You don't even care about us do you? A stupid phone call is more important than us. It's OK baby, mommy will never leave you. We'll be alright. I promise." She picked up the phone and dialed. "Hello?" "Nik?" "Ren? Is that really you?" "Yeah. Nikky I need your help. I'm going to leave Sonny."