ME MYSELF AND I



	Birth 5th February 1977 with Oza Febrianto Mahyudin as the completed name. Nationality Indonesian, Born in Yogyakarta grow in Bandung and now running a small Handphone Software Store in Pekanbaru.Enjoy music especially New Wave and old music..not really have interest in new musics or new bands in millenium era, watch movies, read, play with PC, sometimes write and draw, love nights and hang around in flea market ..not really like crowded place and politics..A heavy smoker but not an alcoholic..	One day where I wouldn't feel my senses die Where nothing made me hang my head and cry One day where I could see myself as others do Where I could feel the strength of love at hand One day where I didn't die a thousand times Where I could satisfy this life of mine One day where every hour could be a joy to me And live a life the way it's meant to be One Small Day - Ultravox
"I believe that some arts created by expressions of personal mind and thought, without the idea of real commercialism, and they could speak to you, help you to know and learn more about life,and becoming your friends....sometimes arts is much more easier to understand than human itself..." THE MUSIC THE BANDS : DEPECHE MODE, ULTRAVOX ( THE MIDGE URE YEARS ), A FLOCK OF SEAGULLS, KRAFTWERK, YELLOW MAGIC ORCHESTRA, SOFTCELL, YAZOO, OMD, ALPHAVILLE, REAL LIFE, DURAN - DURAN, A - HA, HUMAN LEAGUE, MEN WITHOUT HATS, SIGUE SIGUE SPUTNIK, NAKED EYES, THE PSYCHEDELIC FURS, PSEUDO ECHO, FRANKIE GOES TO HOLLYWOOD, ADAM & THE ANTS, TALK TALK, TEARS FOR FEARS, THE CURE, THE MISSION UK, THE SISTERS OF MERCY, ALL ABOUT EVE, XYMOX, COCTEAU TWINS, JOY DIVISION, NEW ORDER, THE SMITHS, etc... GARY NUMAN, MIDGE URE, MARC ALMOND, NICK CAVE & THE BAD SEEDS, etc.. Surely..I'm not only listening to New Wave music..so here goes another great bands or musicians outside New Wave genre... MARILLION ( FISH YEARS ), RUSH, PINK FLOYD, ELECTRIC LIGHT ORCHESTRA, KING CRIMSON, CAMEL, etc.. RADIOHEAD, SUEDE, THIS PERFECT DAY, MANIC STREET PREACHERS,etc.. THE SEX PISTOLS, THE CLASH, RAMONES, THE MISFITS ( GLENN DANZIG YEARS ),BAD RELIGION,etc.. DANZIG ( JOHN CHRIST YEARS ), PRONG, SHELTER, NIGHTWISH, THE GATHERING,..and there's still too many too list ... SOME OF ALL TIME FAVOURITE ALBUMS : DEPECHE MODE - VIOLATOR ...Much people will agree that this album was masterpiece..Focusing more in the mood and arrangements, the songs inside will keep your ear open as your soul flow following the notes. It's dark, sentimental, gloomy and absolutely diamond. I would recommend Black Celebration to new listener as most influental album of Depeche Mode, which show us the transition from naive dancing pop song to the matured melodious synth driven music. But Violator will be the best album they created i suppose.. ULTRAVOX - RAGE IN EDEN ...My first introduction to Ultravox is when in junior high school ,and it's embarassing, i stole a compilation cassette from the drawer of my friend's brother which included Vienna inside of it ( I would like to say sorry and apologize to him )...And this is their first track to my ear, a bit strange but amazing ..of course Vienna could be the most popular hits by Ultravox, but in Rage In Eden you will got the real characteristic Ultravox sound that mixed synthpop and electronics with more traditional rock instrumentation. The sound is more ambitious than Vienna, the lyrics and arrangements have the grandiose New Romantic, musicfolio wrote...Absolute brilliant masterpiece...and im not stealing it.. :) THE PSYCHEDELIC FURS - MIRROR MOVES ...I remember buy this album when i was junior high school and i keep it for long times, i dont really understand why i bought it in the first time...its kind instinct cause i know nothing about them, never heard them before, ... the reason maybe because i thought the names were cool ...but after i listen, the tunes stay with me and help me through many days the desperate voice of Richard Butler sounds wonderful and get me hooked. From the opening romantic "Ghost In You, ..she didn't fade.." and beautiful " Heaven, is the whole of a heart.." this album is treasure.. NEW ORDER - BROTHERHOOD....The touch of pop guitar mixed with synth line create a light atmosphere which make this album very special. The well famous "Bizarre Love Triangle" is not the only song that worth listening here even it's the wellknown hits..Every songs inside have their own strength which keep your ears and mind open, you will also hear Bernard Summer laugh while singing in " Every Little Count " The lyrics eazy to catch but still meaningful ..... I would recommend this album as their greatest...just like the line of one song's here New Order is the band that " sing intellectual songs of love".. A FLOCK OF SEAGULLS - SELF TITTLED .. .Futuristic, melodic, and this is what i called music .. "I ran" is becoming their largest hits but you will find and explore the beauty inside all tracks here...Did I forget to mention " Hairstyle?" :) THE CURE - DISINTEGRATION ...The beat and the mood that created here could take the listener pay attention from the first song untill the end. The ballad "Pictures Of You " could be the most romantic song they have created.An outstanding ... Nice album to listen when you fall in love or hope for it... JOY DIVISION - UNKNOWN PLEASURE....This was Joy Division first full length album, Ian Curtis, the former , the singer and the writer is known as the most talented, visionary poet ever to grace the skimpy depths of pop which choose to end his life in tragic suicide. This becoming the most affecting and influential albums of their generation and the next. YELLOW MAGIC ORCHESTRA - BGM... I would like to compare YMO with Genious Band Kraftwerk, When Kraftwerk release Autobahn and set a monumental movement for electronic music, this band could be inspired by them, but the touch of the music surely different, Ryuichi Sakamoto explore much more melodious note inside the music ...take example of rendering tone in " Cue" and the rhytm of anthem "Technopolis". I would say this is the best band from Japan we could get this far.. THE SISTERS OF MERCY - FLOODLAND ..Some people said Floodland isn't quite goth, it isn't quite club, it isn't quite rock and i agree, Floodland is worth checking out even to people who normally aren't into this kind of moody, 'goth' kinda stuff. Within it's genre, it's regarded as a pioneering masterpiece, and it deserves every bit of it's praise.. Musicfolio wrote.. NICK CAVE & THE BAD SEEDS - THE BOATMAN'S CALL....No matter how life lets you down, you can always rest assured Nick Cave is having a lousier time than you. Or at least pretending to..Musicfolio wrote.. Some would like to call him a Gothic Elvis. Just like rest of his album this one offer you great ballad songs, minimalist sounds with piano, organ and guitar as the essential instruments, recurring themes of love, loss, God, and death. Started with grasping line .." ..I dont believe in intervention of God, but i know darling that you do..." ....And yes, there are many great musicians and many albums from various genre, and i cant recommend it all, those albums i wrote above are which i enjoyed to listen to ..every second of it....and before you get tired reading it i'll limit it just ten... SOME FAVOURITE VIDEO CLIPS - I Don't Like Mondays - The Boomtown Rats ( Nice..Young Geldof..simple..minimalist ) - Hunting High And Low - A-ha ( The transforming effect is lame, but what the hell..it made in 80's ) - Enjoy The Silence - Depeche Mode ( The silence ...The King Gahan ) - Dancing With The Tears In My Eyes - Ultravox ( Just like many Ultravox clip, it has story.... it's about a disaster which ends everything in a city ..you can see how he's really dancing with tears in his eyes ) - I'll Stand By You - The Pretenders ( very romantic, showing a figure of caring and loving woman, great singer, wonderful song ) - The Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve ( this video only shows Richard Ashcroft walking through the street like a punkboy ;) .. no breathtaking effect , no storyline..but it's fun to watch ) - Tainted Love - Softcell ( Almond the caesar, a hedonistic and cruel video.. I wonder what happen to the fingers of the little girl ) - What Is Love - Howard Jones ( The idea of musician walking while singing has been used by many videoclip..but this one got something's different about it.. I really like the idea when Howard's move affect the move of others people ) - Breathe - Midge Ure ( .. A breathtaking video..and of course well written love song ) - The Safety Dance - Men Without Hats ( ...yippy yeah..raise your hands to the safety dance.. )
"Silently we went round and round, And through each hollow mind The Memory of dreadful things Rushed like a dreadful wind, And Horror stalked before each man, And Terror crept behind." *THE BALLAD OF READING GAOL - OSCAR WILDE*		"You can't change the world But you can change the facts And when you change the facts You change points of view If you change points of view You may change a vote And when you change a vote You may change the world " New Dress - Depeche Mode
"I've been waiting for a guide to come and take me by the hand Could these sensations make me feel the pleasures of a normal man New sensations bear the innocence - leave them for another day I've go the spirit, lose the feeling take the shock away" DISORDER - Joy Division	THE MOVIES - Drama : Taxi Driver, Trainspotting, American Beauty, Dead Poets Society, Donnie Darko, East Of Eden, The Old Man And The Sea, Patch Adams - Psychotic Movie : Clockwork Orange, Natural Born Killer - Science Fiction : Star Wars, Dark City - Epic : Bravehearts, Last Samurai - Collosal : The Messages - Romantic Comedy : As Good As It Gets, Wedding Singer , A Little Romance - Best Movie Adapted From Comics : The Crow, Sin City - Musical : 24 Hours Party People, The Doors,Velvet Goldmine, The Wall, Moulin Rogue - War : Platoon, The Deer Hunter - Western : The Unforgiven, Young Guns II - Tokusastsu : Space Cop Gabin aka Space Sheriff Gavan aka Ushuu Keiji Gyaban - Anime : Voltes V
SOME FAVOURITE SCENE FROM THE MOVIES - The blasphemy words from devil to existence of God in ending part of Devil's Advocate , the line is raw and strong..and undoubtly powerful acting of Al Pacino is impressing...leaving us with question about essence of human, evil and God - The part when Robert De Niro playing with his gun, talking to hisself in front of Mirror in Taxi Driver.."are you talking to me? are you talking to me?..." picturing a psycho man looking for salvation in different way - The scene where Ewan singing "Your Song" to Nicole Kidman in Moulin Rogue..dont laugh..it's just usual scene you will easily find in Hindi movies anyway..but i really enjoy that scene - Mel Gibson's patriotic words to lift up the spirit of Scotland's force in the first battle against England in movie Braveheart .. They could take your life..but they never take your freedom... - Desperate words from James Dean's conversation in about to ending part of East Of Eden...showing how he give up about being a good son for his father...and his despair of love and acceptance in his family.. - The about to ending scene in Voltes V where Heinnel standing tall with boazanian pride fighting his archrival who later known as his own brother...truly i adore much opening and ending theme of classic japanese anime or tokusatsu ...remind me to the childhood memories - The part where Tobey McGuire take off his power as Spiderman ( in Spiderman II ) and continue his normal life...leaving his fate and destiny ( for a while of course ..)..the background music is nice song " Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head" .. Because Im free..Nothing's worrying me... - The scene where Diane Lane going home haunted by her betrayal as a wife in Unfaithful - The scene where Tobey McGuire start to fall in love with Charlize Theron in Cider House Rules, his first visit to a cinema, and his first time with a woman - The scene where Paul Newman realized he get ( really ) beaten and played by Tom Cruise in ending part of The Colour Of Money, giving the understanding that money is not everything anymore ... in some stage of life - Of course there's many more ..hope you enjoy your movies...i believe there is many special part or scene which meanful and mean so much to you..
*"The creatures outside looked from pig to man, and from man to pig, and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which."* *- Animal Farm - George Orwell*	BOOKS - 1984, Animal Farm - George Orwell - Kering, Merahnya Merah - Iwan Simatupang - Malcolm X, An autobioghraphy as told to Alex Haley - Sejarah Hidup Imam Ali bin Abi Thalib - HMH Alhamid Husaini - 300, Sin City Graphic Novels series - Frank Miller
THE PEOPLE - Actress : I would like to meet Diane Lane and Heather Locklear :) - Actor : Al Pacino for sure, Robert De Niro, Ewan McGregor, Jack Nicholson ...and the funny Robin Williams - Director : Martin Scorsese, Zhang Yimou, Alex Proyas - Comicwriter : Frank Miller .. that total bastard.. - Musician : Midge Ure , Martin Gore, Marc Almond..the two are genious songwriter and the other one is a man with golden voice..they are all doing great job in bands or as solo - Local Musician : Fariz Roestam Moenaf .. - My "somebody" and..you..perhaps... THE PLACE - Wish to go to Scotland and Japan, even it's much more like obsession .. And of course Makkah.. THE WISH - Left something's worth before I die... THE STUFF - Wish to have all series and all tittles of Anime and Tokusatsu which seen in my childhood and anything related to my favourite bands THE KNOWLEDGE - Wish to learn knowledge to save the world..save myself actually :)