I was nervous. I laugh in my mind; the Perfect Soldier nervous of meeting someone. But it wasn't just anybody, it was Duo, the guy that I have always loved. I've always held back on telling him, but I now realize what a huge mistake that had been. I had lost him and now I had to try to get him back. All Quatre had told me was that Duo was with some new guy named J.J. I hated to think someone else was holding him, playing with his hair, touching him.....making love to him. It was not fair; he was supposed to be MINE. I needed to calm down. All I need to do is convince Duo that I would be better for him than that other guy. I hope he does show up; I couldn't stand the pain if he decided not to give me a chance, although I can't blame him. I was such a jerk and made him believe I loved her when all along it was him. What will I say? How will he act? I see him walking up to me and I start to feel fear. He looks better than I remember; he's grown a few inches taller, but I'm still taller than him. His hair looks like it's grown and he's got more muscle on him that is showed off by his white wife beater and his black jeans. I can tell he's uneasy by his walking; I never thought that this would be just as hard on him.
"Hey Heero," he says as he approaches me.
"Duo, how have you been?"
"I'm doing better than when I left you. I'm quite happy with J.J. How are things between you and Relena?"
His words stung, especially his first remark. And he still thinks I'm with Relena! I sigh and answer him.
"Relena....."
"Yes, the blond chic you always run to; the one you are in love with."
"I know exactly who you are talking about. I would
have no idea how Relena is doing since I haven't seen
her since you left."
"Why?"
"Because I don't love her! I never did and I never will. It was you that I loved all along, but I could not get it out. I only protected her because she is needed for peace. I was devasted when you left. I nearly killed myself, but she found me and saved me. She even persuaded me to find you; it was not until I talked to Quatre that I decided that I still needed you. I'm sorry for the way I treated you. I love you."
Duo stared in shock at Heero. He would have never have guessed Heero had felt that way.
"You're a little late for the apologies. The only way I would ever go back to you is if my current relationship ended. You would have to prove that you really do love me. It's hard for me to trust you Heero."
"Are you in love with him now Duo?" Yes, I had anger in my voice. I thought Duo knew me better than what he was putting me out to be.
"It's really none of your damn buisness," Duo snarled back.
"Fine, I realize you're happy with your life. I'll do the same thing you did: I'll leave you alone to lead your own life. I hope your happy," I remarked bitterly and I walked off. I was more angry at myself; Duo deserved to be happy. I didn't want to force him to be with me because he would be miserable and feel like a prisoner. I just needed to have time to think. I felt horrible for being so rude; I still wasn't used to dealing with my emotions so I just acted how I felt. I cursed for acting so stupid; I need to remember to consider how someone else might feel based on how I was acting. I decided to go to Quatre's and talk to him some; maybe I would feel better.
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