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Oh woopdy freaking doo - it's 2007. Big woop. Got a phone call from Nikki and Lisa last night - this probably sounds radiculous but it just seemed like Nikki doesnt miss me at all and didnt care that I wasnt there. They was having a party and Nikki called me at 4 in the morn like a prank and it just seemed like she was angry at me for something and didnt care that I wasnt there. I know Lis misses me she makes that quite clear, and I miss her and Nikki and all of my friends - but just... I felt soo bad and so left out last night when they called and cos I got the impression that Nikki didnt even care it just made it worse and that feeling carried on to this morning. I'm sure I'm just over reacting though or something... I dont know.

Had fun yestie - we went to go to Ice Skating but when we got there it was closed so instead we went 10 pin bowling which was near by. Codez kicked my butt lol. First bowl she did and she got a strike!! I didnt get one at all lol and she ended up with two or something lol. We had heaps of fun. Then we went to an arcade nearby and had heaps of fun there - spent lots of money that wasnt ours lol like usual. Codez won the jackpot on one of the games, and then when we played this other game she just about won the jackpot on that too - which would have won us a kewl digital camera!! Almost got it - we was soooo close its not funny. Then we came home - I bought her GTA: Vice City on the way so she would have a better GTA game to play lol. It's her late Xmas pressie.

PS: I know I am writting this in December - I cant be bothered to fix them all to the new year while I am here and I am sure I will have heaps more to say so just get over it - I'll fix them when I am home.

I miss all of my friends so much... I mean all of them too not just a couple.

We was meant to go Ice Skating the other day but it was closed so we are gonna go today - our original plan for today was the city but things changed - no problem. I cant wait to go Ice Skating - it'll be heaps of fun. Mite even go back to the arcade as well hehe that will be heaps of fun hehe - especially if we win that camera - I recon we will - Codez can do it she is really good at that thing. I'm waiting for my clothes to be done so I can go have a shower then we will go - it's gonna be fuuun =D hehe.

Only six days of holidays in Sydney to go. Bitter sweet sorta thing you know - I love it here and am having the time of my life with Codez, but I also miss my friends. Six days is still not enough time though lol I want to stay longer lol, oh well. Hmm I need fooood lol hehe I am hungry, we will probably get food when we are there rather than before we leave. Wow I just realised how fast I type lol. Anyway - I am off hehe hope you all have a good day =D

Woo we went ice skating and I did it easy - wasnt even on the wall - I just went straight out and did it and I didnt even fall over once woot, although there was many close calls. We had great fun there and I cant wait to do it again.

Well today is the day I go home... :( We havent gone out much in the last few days - just been watching movies and playing The Sims lol. We went into the city and went on a cruise again. I love them cruises. We didnt really get up to much in the city - just walked around and then went home. I'm not looking forward to the train trip home lol - its gonna be sooooo long. Codie has a flatulence problem lol jjk.

Woo home - FINALLY OFF THAT GOD DAMN TRAIN!!! WOOOOT!!! Not happy that I aint with Codez any more though :( I dont want to have to leave her all the time it sucks - but that aside I am happy to be home. I had the greaterest 3 weeks with Codez in Sydney though - it was the best. Definetally gonna go and do it again - but next time I think I'll go by plane lol. Missing my friends still - dont get to see them til tomorrow although thats not bad - only one more day. I really miss Codez a hell of a lot already and it's only been a day lol. I love her soooo much!! Hear that dear? I LOVE YOU!!! *points to you* YES YOU Codez =D Anywho I got nothing else to say really... oh wait only that the train ride sucked - couldnt sleep, was bored, uncomfortable, it was noisy and it took waaaaay too long lol.

I installed Splinter Cell: Chaos Theory yesterday - awesome game. I had the demo and you would play the first mission in the game - it was heaps of fun and I loved it so I always wanted to get it and I saw it for really cheap so I bought it. It's awesome fun but its tricky. I am talking to Codez on MSN - and I know you will read this hun - and she doesnt seem very happy and she is sick and yeah - things arent really going so well. I know things arent looking too good but I just really want her to be happy - play some games when I'm gone to kill the time or something. I love you sooo much huni!! I really want you to be happy!! *puts my arms around you and kisses you, holding you tight* I love you!!

Woow - found out I didnt get into uni... cos im stupid. Waste of fucking time - not happy at all... Had a good party - loads of fun. Really not in a good mood though right now - dont feel like typing or talking or anything...

I am so pissed off! All of everything I have been after in the last two years just dissapeared. I havnt lost hope but Im just so disapointed in myself. I know that I should have revieved a better fucking OP than what I did - I fucking well should have got into fucking Uni!! I can do it. Senior High School wouldnt have been a fucking problem if things went a little different but no fucking hell I had to go and get depressed and fucking move and fucking get lazy after that... FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!! I HATE MYSELF FOR THAT YOU STUPID FUCKING PIECE OF FUCKING SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! I am better than that!! I am smart! I was the smartest fucking kid in year 10 and now I cant even get into an arts course in fucking Uni! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME??????????????? Why the fuck did I have to screw up? I know its not the end of the world and its not that Uni means that much to me its just that I know I could have and wanted to despite my doubts and now its all fucking gone - FUCK!!!

I had the most awesomest dream and I know already Ive forgotten lots - thats why I have just woken up and straight away come on here. I was at this freaky scary funeral sorta place right - but it wasnt really a funeral place although there was these two dead girls. Anyway it wasnt scary at all - it was more a really good dream than anything. I cant remember major details but I remember this stuff. I was going around the building and it was like a scary ride at Movie World but it wasnt scary and I just went through it and there was like a Frankenstien sorta monster around hiding behind a wall to scare you, there was a freaky guy to try and tell you a scary story just before the Frankenstien jumps out. Inside the building it was very different. There was people drinking and taking photos of things and all that. There were chairs and for some reason there was the X-Men all there in cages lol. There was Jack - someone from my school in Longreach that was a dick who would always try and start a fight - and he did in my dream but I kicked his ass. I didnt punch or in any way hurt him but I defended and brought him to the ground. Anyway other things like the Mayor was there and he was cool - he gave me a beer lol. Some friends were there but I really cant remember who. There was this murder of some kind - someone killed a bride and so it was half her funeral and investigation - they was suspicious of the person who did it - a friend of mine - but they couldnt link him and in the end decided it was someone else or suicide or something and so my friend said that the silence of the corpse bride saved him lol. It wasnt freaky at all thought which was kewl. Dammit there was so much more in this dream I wanted to talk about but I just cant remember now - grr I hate when this happens. Oh welll - I'm sure I'll remember more or just forget about it - no matter - this is enough for now I spose lol.

I had a great day yesterday - went out and renewed my Lerners, then fixed the dishwasher woot and then we went and got a new headset for my computer which totally rox and then I went over to Lisa's for a BBQ. It was awesome and I had heaps of fun - we watched Jawbreaker (cos Marilyn Manson is in it) and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory but we only got through about half of that before I had to go. I had a fantastic night at Lisa's and then I came and talked to Codie the rest of the night until early and then went to bed. Then I had that awesome dream, then woke up, then came on here.

Well what an interesting night I had last night... watched lots of movies woo... Codez went out with her friends and had a fun night wooo and she got drunk lol. And I called her a few times which was kewl and she was drunk cos she was slurring her words and didnt know what she was saying and she cant remember it now lol. I talked to Lisa as well which proved to be interesting. Over all a very interesting night... Nothing much happened today so not a lot to say really... oh well.

Hey look it's Sunday the 21st.... yeah I don't know.

Hear that? I don't know...

I feel great... just found out that my best friend's mum thinks I'm cheating on Codie because I hang out with her all the time... isnt that what best friends do?? More than that though... she said this: "He probaly wants to 'get some' off u girls" and "he's only doing it cos his girlfriend isnt here"... THANKS A FUCKING LOT!!!! Yeah I really want to 'get some' off my best fucking friends - yeah that really makes a whole lot of sense. It's bad enough that Codie lives in Sydney but then to have my best friends mum believe that I am cheating on her and that I want to 'get some' off my best friends... oh fuck yeah that makes me feel great. Thanks a lot! Not the fault of my friend btw so please dont think I am upset at you or anything, or that you shouldnt have told me cos it would have driven me up the wall not knowing why I am never able to see you - so thank you for telling me :) It just really upsets me that she thinks that and because of that wont let us hang out much. I really feel like going up to her and screaming in her face for thinking something like that - I HATE IT when people presume something about me - oh but she thinks I'm a nice boy... that wants to fuck her daughter... yeah great thanks - see now what I think of you (sorry Lis) is YOU ARE A BITCH for presuming you know ANYTHING about me. FUCK YOU cos you dont know shit! You dont know anything about me and you will never know me now!! I cant fucking believe that she would think such a fucked up thing!!

Ahh that feels good - I love this site... I can really take out my anger. BTW sorry again Lis - I hope you dont mind - there arent really that many people who read this so yeah.

Mmm last night sucked really bad - I wasnt a hapy camper. Wont go into reasons. Slept rather shitty but woke up ok for a change - lately I have been waking up hot and sweaty but not this morning. I went out with Lis to the city yesterday, after spending the night with her and Rose and Rose's place. Had a good night that night cept the phone dying thing lol. Yestie we cruised around in the city and had a blast, checked out a few places, looked for a movie shoot that was meant to be at the end of George St - couldnt find it, they had probably packed up and left before we got there. Then we just walked around and then went into South Bank. Oh and I found out that I dont actually need to unlock my phone - dont know why lol but it's cool, saves me $25 lol. Then yeah in South Bank we went to the Prop Shop which was cool - it had a very Christmasy theme lol... they was trying to get rid of their old X-mas stock. Then we went to this cool little shop full of furnitures and just stuff lol - it was a bright pink building lol it was awesome hehe. Then we randomly decided to go watch a movie - couldnt find anything we wanted to watch that wasnt too late and then we found Blood Diamond and it was AWESOME! Leo DiCaprio was in it and he did a good job at playing his character - bastard of a character though lol. That movie to me had strong and very obvious conections to Lord of War which is an earlier Nicolas Cage movie. Great movie as well - watch them both and you will understand why I say they have strong connections - I dont think the two movies are connected though - just storyline. Yes anyway it's a great movie so watch it. Anyway after the movie we just went home basically and yeah.

I had the shittest night last night... and I just don't care enough to even talk about it, or think to myself about it, because I know if I do it will tear me apart. It is at the moment anyway even not thinking about it... I'm hurting so bad right now...

Yeah I am miserable... really fucking miserable. The worst kind of miserable that I've been in a while now... and to top it all off, I am fucking alone, and will stay alone for a little while. Well aint that fucking grand - last night sucked monkey balls and today aint much better. What a great fucking holiday huh. Fuck it... I'll just go back to what I normally do - shut the fuck up about it and try to let it go, whatever way possible... Woot woot then I'll be happy again like normal. Bye.

Lisa and I went into the city yesterday, had a really good day. Went and saw Epic Movie which was awesome, we also went up to the 23rd storey of the new Queensland Gov./Suncorp building which was fantastic - went there cos Lisa's dad works up there. Anyway we had a great day yesterday. Today I woke up and then cleaned up the bathroom downstairs so that it can be used - woot woot all done and its nice. The only problem is that it takes a bit to drain the water so we might need to fix the drain or something but I dont know anything bout them - might not evevn be that lol. Anyway its not a major problem, you can still shower in it all good. Yeah thats about it lol - I am so sure I had more to say but I cant remember lol. Oh yeah there is a conspiracy - Lisa and the junk metal Kangaroo - is it true love? DA DA DAAAAA lol.

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