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38 winter 8 moon 48th year of the space age
28 januenero 2004
















a creature of habit I have my beaten paths

it is time to seek new ones
instead of third street to second

go forth on fourth, fifth, sixth

book of anglosaxon history tucked under my arm
from one edge of the park not to the other

I begin with an idea and an open notebook
fresh eyes to see my neighborhood all over again
up past another row of little shacks and food and snack 
windows opening onto the sidewalk
they're everywhere here            specifically here
                                   in this shadow of
                                   cross street from
UNIDAD DE MEDICINA FAMILIAR No. 19
  DR. ROBERTO FLORES AGUILAR       big metal letters across the entry wall roof
                                   beam raise it high, CEMENT carpenter
                                   nurses scurrying with morning 
                                   coffee
and an open notebook               there
no, I bought none                  here
            only scribble I saw
                            and I see
    will see
       as it was in the beginning, is now and ever shall be

COFFEE WITHOUT END                 CAFÉ SIN FIN

[I shall be sipping café in the café {when I type this later} AMEN]

    a m e n
                       all green cement lines and children medicine
"familiar" = "family"
another case of words changing meaning from same latin roots into their
                    distant                   Britanic and Iberian 
                                great great great great great grandchildren

all green cement lines and children medicine
wet sidewalks where it rained last night

ANOTHER CORNER just across the street
at 5th & F
                                    across the street from where
SERVICIO DE TEC                     Carlos Santana used to live on 5th
   TECNICOS                         with his family when he played
  PLOMEROS Y                        guitar on the busses for tips in the 1950s
 ELECTRICISTAS                      and then that man abused him in Playas
   TRABAJOS                         .
 GARANTIZADOS                       los albañiles the construction workers
   PASE UD.                         are sitting in the empty lot where
  SOLICITE SU                       the famous musician, universal citizen of Tijuana
   SERVICIO                         used to live
                                    .
                                    los albañiles are listening to 
WHEN THE MUSIC's OVER by the Doors  in the empty lot where Santana lived

before the building collapsed upon itself
it could not support HIS absence
and
                                    fifteen years ago crumbled in upon itself
                                    in lonely hunger for its famous son from Jalisco
aya                       aya                       ai ya
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                                    p i l g r i m   -   a g e d
                                             ( f o o t s t e p s )
PLOMERIA SASTRERIA AND CONsultorio de doctores 
apartments for rent in a rather cool looking bldg on sixth just down from IMSS
                                     medical unit (that which is all green
                                                            cement, remember?)

printing stores and flower shops zigzag through my notebook slowly walking
down the block around the corner, stopping, scribbling, people looking at me
past the corner of 5th & Mutualismo where the delegación city office
sit oh look omaigad whatthehells that crazy gringo doing now
                     TURN THE CORNER TURN THE PAGE
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write write write write           left left left left left
                  right right right right

printing stores and flower shops, more of them
across the street from yet another funeraria
it's time for me to print a book before I 

                                  die
             unsung like my father
       print a book and throw a party
looking up the street toward the hillside
only one block away, now, I have switched corners 
                                  again
look there, up Mutualismo (E) to the hillside    only one block
away, but ten storeys tall, measuring by nearby windows yes
a handful of houses staggering up and down its slope,

richer ones perched right on top
including that castle with towers that Pepe asked me 
                                      if we'd seen
OH YES  Michael purred, ain't that a handsome one
all pastel beige and turrets and picture windows
something truly California Spanish from the 30s
surrounded by ragged gardens, walls, fences, now THERE is a 
                                house with style
                                         yes yes  yes   yes
meanwhile below, 
        on the edge of the "big flat space" where 
olde Tijuana was built

I see across the street another floreria 
and then      the  plant  nursery  shop
where I like to pass by and smell the green water air

but today on the other side of this street (6th)
there is only one car being washed did I mention
it rained                                    last night
l a c u n a e                                b r e a k

another empty lot expose barren floors and
beyond, ragged ex-backyard, more walls
hidden inner houses, truck parked
and then more trucks beyond a tiny snack stand

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across the street where the brood of german shepherds lives inside their gate

until on the corner of 6th & D
there are trucks parked right under a house built 
                          on stilts over the work area
steel stilts above the cluster of heavy truck fortune
  made from the highway, 1960s, 1970s, 1980s, 1990s
and now                 now they built a house floating in 
                                  the air forty feet above the street
this is not fiction          this IS surreal
                 magical        but the same pattern appears all over town, yes
gorgeous stucco arched windows up there 
       like some rapunzel 4-BR 3-BA
protected by giant metal beasts below mm-hmmm
go see it yourself           I mean COME see it yourself
on the southwest corner of 6th & D (Miguel Martinez or something or another Avenue)

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turn up D                         past the the school of Sor Juana since 1958 inscripciones abiertas

and a sudden alley across the street I never knew existed
time and space unfold and warp      or maybe I just forgot
                                     and then the beginning
there is a                            with of up a ramp ascending up up up into another neighborhood 
distinct tilt to                        on top the first hills INDEPENDENCIA where Pepe lives
this land here at the
utmost edge of the big flat space
just below the hills where all those ages of silt used to wash
down and pile up under the drizzling course of yearly rains from the pleistocene
before we humans became  albañiles  construction workers to lay down 
                                         asfalto & cemento streets 
                                       and sidewalks and all yes
come to cover everything with immuebles immovable bienes raices real estate
mmmmm yes the city was built but it still rains only now they we flood and wash
away the dirt and dust that used to pile up and raise the earth toward heaven

even as the hills melt melt melt

turn the corner again and again, clinging always a short block from the base of those boundary hills

up AVENIDA whatever past the big furniture store windows  pues  these are 
                                                   muebles  movables  yes
glass sheets fronting middleclass dream displays for your ideal home, señora

50% Desc.        50%  D i s c o u n t
            in huge red letters trimmed with white and green

seating for six around rustic craftsman looking mass-produced style/design
open @ noon

a couple of guys hanging out at a little parking lot next door
buenos días             buenos días

across the street a small set of ancient California bungalow shacks
aren't long for this world, sinking down on crumbling foundations
pure 30s style of wood frame, maybe redwood antiques devoured
by termites termites termites will put them to sleep
termites ripped my flesh termites mmmmmmmm
well                    may-be                 yes no so
across from a huge, ugly  apartment block  shivering
                     in        dark       shadow
well I'll be d@mned here's the REY DEL TAMAL

king of tamale

and look... up on the hill again, but from another angle now
those castle turrets on beige mansion towers
middleclass poverty and wealth
barely two stones throws
apart from each other

here

ah, there it is, the hillside itself
bleeding stones from ancient Sonora rivers
before dinosaurs died we became scurrying meat
.
witness to the death of jurassic
and birth of pleistocene
.
there it is, the boundary hillside itself
edge to my own little downtown west end world
backed up by rising walls and barren dirt
.
and again, meanwhile, back on this flat place edge
another house torn away on the corner of 8th & D
big palm tree all alone in its empty corner, with big
open jagged yard and abandoned cement floor, but over there
some upstairs shower wall still hanging on abandoned fragment
even a pipe fixture jutting from bathroom tile ay ay ay Tijuana
what families what history what lives
                                        gone

someone once got clean every day for work

even the pipe fixture still juts from the wall
but all the rest of the two-storey house has vanished

into another dimension of time and space
leaving only this signpost, this shadow, this

                                              e  c  h  o

all the rest
                                        gone


white space,
                        negative space,
                                          like Manny Farber would say


ah, walking one last block
here come the cops
                           we have reached "la ocho" pues well

and Constitución

so
put away the notebook little gringo poet

it's time to eat breakfast             a t             l  a  s  t

across the street
across the 8th street
from that infamous police station
who so gracefully (not) hosts what we may honestly call

      t h e            T I A J U A N A            J  A  I  L


send my bail
I need money
to write more


[ tijuanagringo@yahoo.com ]

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once I get my visa for working I will be happy to provide 
guide service to whomever whenever whatever rainbow stripe 
man woman etc anyone anytime stay tuned for more information
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okei bai                                                okay bye
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