Yes welcome back to my page.
As I've already said, the second thing which my life revolves around is the band.
When I say the band, I mean the Raffles Girls' School Symphonic Band.
Yep. The RGSSB for short. I love the band. I mean, everybody in the band loves it.
However, I somehow don't think my reasons for loving the band is the same as everyone else's.
I love the band's music. Or at least, most of it. I'm quite into music.
That's probably why I joined the band in the first place.
There is a catch, though. I only like SOME types of music.
Classical mostly. I hate contemporary songs. I mean, they suck.
Their chord structures are really weird and they sound bad. BAD.
Wonder why we bother to play them at all.
Other than that, I'm quite okay with rock, jazz, marches and stuff.
I've got another song playing now! This time it's Sonata in F, a trio piece for solo flute, clarinet and bassoon, composed by Georg Philipp Telemann.
It's another of my favourite songs. Don't you think its nice?
I also like Antonin Vivaldi's Four Seasons, especially the first movement of
Spring.
Pity the band doesn't play songs like that. I'm sad.
Sigh. I realised I have been crapping without telling you anything.
So here's the facts. I play the bassoon in the band. It's a really cool instrument.
The bassoon is a double-reed instrument, one of the only two double-reeds in the band.
However, the bassoon also belongs in the saxophone section. Which I personally think is dumb,
but its not as if I can do anything about it.
Anyway, I like my section. I mean, saxophone is the only section in the band which has diversity of intsruments.
Which means we have both a melody and bass line. So our section is supposed to sound good.
I stress on the word supposed. Currently the section sounds band.
I refuse to elaborate further.
Yep. As I was saying, I don't think my way of loving the band is the same as other people's.
For one, I've never really liked the discipline in the band.
True, it keeps the band together, but I can't help wondering sometimes whether it does more harm than good.
I'm not saying that the discipline is bad, I'm just thinking of what the band would be like with less discipline.
Maybe more people will join the band.
I've lots of friends who are musically-inclined and who told me that if the discipline in the band wasn't so strict,
they would have joined the band.
Unfortunately (or fortunately, I'm not in a position to judge),
most of my batchmates are fanatics about footdrills, discipline and stuff.
I suppose its due to the fact that we were once a military band.
But well...somehow I don't feel comfortable in the band.
Especially with the juniors being so scared of seniors. It's quite ridiculous.
I mean, I expect a fair amount of respect from juniors,
but not to the point that they won't even look at us when we ask them to because they are too scared.
i think its kind of sad. Then again, if the discipline is gone, we might not even get the basic discipline.
As I said, I'm in no position to judge.
While we're at it, you might want to check out my juniors' homepage.
Sigh. Cadenza (our bi-annual concert)is coming and I don't really know whether I'm looking forward to it or not.
I tell my juniors to look forward to it, but sometimes I stop and think: Am I just being a big hypocrite?
I don't practice what I preach. Yet I have to tell my juniors to do the same.
It's kind of sad as well.
I still love the band. I probably always will. I've spent so much of my time in it that
its not possible for me to not feel anything for it.
But I rather people think I don't care about it.
I don't know why myself...
Judging from band standards, I probably actually spend very very little time there,
compared to my batchmates.
It's not my fault I have unsupportive parents who never wanted me to join band in the first place.
When I do have the time, I just don't feel like practising.
I get so tired of everything. Not just with band, with my whole life.
Sometimes I wonder what I am here for. Going to school, going for band prac, going home to do homework...what kind of life is that?
It's really sad. I know everyone around me faces the same situation, but I just don't see the point of being in this world sometimes.
Don't you sometimes wish you could just disappear off and leave this unhappy world?
Sigh. I know I'm being unrealistic. If anyone I know reads this, they won't believe its me.
I usually present this really happy side of me to the world. I must be a really good actress, because no one has seen the other side of me.
No one sees the tears in my heart.
Okay. I think I have crapped enough.
I'll write some more when I'm in the mood. So that's all for now.
Today is the 13th of March. Last day of Band Camp. I just came home and I'm like stoning in front of the computer. Sigh. I didn't enjoy my last band camp. Even though I'm supposed to because I'm leaving the band soon. But that's not the point.
Sometimes I wonder, why did I join the band? I've been so upset over band last year and this year. I really want back the band life I had in Secondary 2. Why can't Sec 2 last forever. I loved the band and my seniors so much that time. Now I'm not sure about the band anymore. Everybody in the band doesn't seem to care anymore. They say they do, but their actions don't show it. I mean, like, I won't go into specifics but people are so selfish I really don't believe it. I want to leave the band right now. No point being depressed everyday over band.
Since you are leaving, you can check out the links at the bottom or go back to home.
Bassoon and Saxophone Jokes
