April's been a busy month....lots and lots of night shifts. It's not over yet....there are more night shifts coming!! There's simply not much life when I'm going thru all these night shifts. Not too bad for me since I don't party much now. I'll try to go to the gym after my night shift....yeah, tired but funny thing is...when you're in the gym, you will find the strength to do some light workout - I'm beginning to wonder if that "strength" comes from the amount of money I'm paying every month to the gym *hahahahaha* It's hard earnt money man...got to at least make full use of the gym.
Gerald has gone for an oversea exercise with the Navy - he will be back in a month's time. Kind of missed him though....although he's quite a pain in the ass when he's in the house. Well...afterall he's my brother....it's probably in this lifetime that we get to be brothers.... got to treasure it.
................kind of feeling lonely :(

30/04/2001 - Monday @ 0015 hrs

Was talking to a friend earlier over the phone. He was explaining why he was unable to return the $200 borrowed some months ago. He said he's jobless now and involved in 2 very serious problems. He hinted suicide as he felt that life is full of problems and it's good to end everything. Life......hmm.....amazing isn't it ?!! Some people strive hard to survive and there are those who simply choose to end it. How bad can a problem be?? I know it's easier said than done since I'm not 'him' but come on.....if you have the courage to die, then why not use it to face the worst consequences. Problems are not solved when you are gone - In fact, it will multiples and in the end, the family members suffered. It's very hard to talk senses to someone who thought of suicide......I just hope he won't do it! I'm not in a rush to have the money back and as long he's alive, he can always take his time to return me. What can I say.........just feel kind of sad about the matter.
Live life to the most.......happy or sad, easy or tough, just face it. No one said life is meant to be happy always, no one is born with a problem free life - look on the brighter side.......tomorrow will always be a better day.

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