Have not written anything for the last 3 months.....as usual....lazy :-)
Lots of things happened.....good and bad - at this very moment....I'm feeling quite depressed actually. The only thing that I felt good about....well.....I've managed to apply for my own credit cards. I was on a crazy mood to apply for 6 credit cards at one shot and the best part, all were approved!! Least to say, all the supplementary cards go to my brother, mum and my dearest auntie. Everything seems so fine until of course, my brother screwed up things. I just can't believe that a 21 years old boy could just easily used up $6000 plus in less than a month!! As usual, my brother always have good stories to tell....but....how could he just do such a thing without sparing a thought for himself. How the hell is he going to clear all these money? As usual again, he keeps apologising and saying how sorry he was....blar, blar but what for? - I was feeling so lousy about the whole thing and yet he got the cheek to ask why I didn't leacture him at all. What am I supposed to say or do? When you realised that you have been talking to a wall all these times, words just don't meant anything now. When will he ever clear this amount when he's almost broke every month??!! When will he ever learnt to be more responsible??!! Credit cards to me are not about showing off - these plastics are really useful during emergency, when money are needed to solve a bad suituation. Friends have been telling me that it was a mistake to give him the supplementary cards but hey, who would have expected your very own brother to do such a thing!! Dunno what and how nexts, I think it's time he learnt his lesson and settled the money himself.

Suddenly.....I felt so lonely again. Perhaps I have been meeting with the wrong people. Not only my brother gave me problem, friends are doing the same as well. Looking at it, you might think that I really have problems getting along with others but the truth is......I'M SIMPLY TOO NICE!! Most of my friends only exist when they need my help. Doing free homepages.....fixing up their computers...etc. I am not complaining but it just so sad isn't it?? Where are they when you needed them?? I just got played out by a so called closed friend earlier and he SMS me saying how sorry he was....etc...etc. What's the point of saying "SORRY" when you have intended to cause the damage? I'm rather sick of hearing it now...."SORRY for this"..."SORRY for that"....yeah, my ass!!

Life goes on.......whether we like it or not. I have not given up seeking for happiness.....as long as I still believe in it.....someday, I believe I'll find what I'm looking for. People will not love me.....they will only remember me when they need me - sad to say this but at this moment....YES INDEED!!

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