LOVE
I too search long and hard
For my perfect one
To my dismay, there is none
Love is not as seems
It is just everyone's perfect dreams
The kind that you will be forever happy
'Tis I know is not for me
The path of love has so many crossroads
I either meet my mate or become their foes
Love is not patient, love is not kind
It is neither good or blind
Love just is...
Melyssa
Some one Like You
I need my hand to be held,
to know that I'm not all alone
and that you do care.
I need you to listen,
to express my feelings
and what my troubles are.
I need your shoulder,
to cry on when I hurt deep inside
and no one whom to go to.
I need you to stand with me,
when it seems as though the world has turned against me
and help me straighten out my life.
I need you to tell me you truly understand,
that you will be my friend
when I feel friendless.
I need you to give me hugs,
when I feel so very empty inside
and tender, warming hugs are just what makes it go away.
And I want you to be someone I can reach out to,
someone who I know will be there and hold me tight
when the pain inside seems unbearable.
Melyssa
To The One I Love
To the one I love,
this poem is for you.
I want to say
that I may
not always be the easiest to love.
When I'm ever so up tight,
and always putting up a fight,
it's because
in the past I have been hurt so much.
I don't know how many times
I've said this before.
Putting up my defenses
is what I know how to do.
I know it's not fair
to blame my fears on you.
It's been tough
and I see you've had enough.
I'm trying hard
to control this inner-eating fear inside,
but at times I just can't hide.
I think you love me,
Or we wouldn't have been married.
The past I have put behind,
the only love I'll ever find
is the love of you and me.
I don't want to know another
as I have already discovered
yours is the one, the one and only.
You probably won't believe,
because of all the things I've said and done.
"I love you",
this I know to be true.
So please believe me,
that I know not what I do sometimes.
But one thing is for sure,
and I don't want it any other way,
you're the one I love
today, tomorrow, and in the future.
Melyssa
"This poem is dedicated to my husband. I don't know how I could have made it if it weren't for his love, patience and understanding. My life will always be better and more beautiful because of what he has given me. I love you, hon."
Bitter Love
In lonely times, who always comfort me?
And who does care, when evil times distress?
The hurt and pain, why do you fail to see?
The times we've spent, my feelings I've expressed.
My heart unlocks the treasures which I hold.
You've taken my heart and it's yours to keep.
By why did you destroyed what I've unfold?
My love was true; sincere and very deep.
Now sitting here reflecting on the past,
The tears like rivers flowed down my sad face.
In anguish lies my heart in turmoil rest,
Upon the ancient symbol you have placed.
The depths of grief; astounded my troubled mind.
In times of woe, no solace shall I find.
What have you done, to damaged my pure heart?
I feel the tip of razor's sharpest knife;
Which you have used to splintered it apart.
The darkest shadow sweeps across my life;
All happiness impossible to reach.
My heart is stunned beyond any measure,
Why do you seem not to care, I beseach?
As you destroyed my most precious treasure.
I've done no harm, why do you fail to see?
You just can't feel the pain inside of me.
The loneliness and loss in which I live.
I'll keep brushing away tears from my eyes.
It will take many years before it dries.
You won't hear me cry. I won't give.
Melyssa
A Flame of Hope
A friendship
is what we have developed.
It was so well put together.
I was the puzzle and you were the piece.
You came into my life, determined
to solve the entangling mysterious
and hidden secrets.
You relieved the pain and pacified my heart,
which has been brutally severed apart.
You didn't stop, but fought your way inside,
searching for more unhealed cuts and bruises
that I still hide.
Slowly and surely, you found your way in.
You softened my wounds with your kindness
and understanding, listening and acceptance,
loving and caring.
Once again,
I was guided to look at reality,
because of the honesty
you have given me.
I realized life is full of chances
and starting anew.
I see the blooming romances.
I hope this time it will last through.
Melyssa
Uncaring Heart
memories are so rare in my mind,
now that you are no longer in my life.
i tried to recall every bit
of what we have shared.
all i rememebered
was i used to care.
but i don't have those feelings anymore,
like i used to before.
you have taken
all that i have given.
you didn't leave me anything,
except a shattered heart.
so i don't have those feelings,
i no longer care.
Melyssa
MERE LOVE
Before
there was a lot of love.
Now
it seems there's not enough.
Maybe
I was expecting too much.
As
it was in the beginning when we first touched.
This time
I don't know what went wrong.
Why or how
our love wasn't as strong.
Our lives together,
which I thought would have been better
should have been left alone,
when we first were talking on the phone.
I guess it doesn't matter anymore.
You have shut your door.
I have shut mine.
When we fell in love,
we have both been so blind.
To think, this love is the perfect one
has turned to all game and fun.
It's not me, it's not you.
We ask ourselves questions.
Why, what, how or who?
We live not knowing.
Neither of us care to be showing.
But always wondering why
and thinking whether we can survive
a love that we have put ourselves through
that is probably not ever true.
Melyssa
"Stranger"
Stranger, what's your name?
Have we met before?
You look so familiar,
someone I used to know--
same hairstyle,
dresses like you,
twinkling eyes,
how I love that wink and adoring smile.
And your laughter
so beautiful and rich--
full of merry and gentleness,
calm and steady.
Tell me, stranger
Where do you come from?
I like to get to know you better.
Melyssa
"The right one"
Your family think
I am not the right one
They feel
you are making a mistake
They want
you to forget about the love we make
They say
there are many fishes out in the sea
Who are twice as better
Why throw your life away
for someone just like me
Your love was just an infatuation
it's not real
Soon you will find another
time heals all wound
If time heals
why are scars of ancient past still remain
Tearing my heart
in every direction, shape and form
I tried not to let on
I thought I'd handle it just fine
but moving on is not as easy
Forgetting is hard to do
The past is what is history today
That is my life
I can not change who I am
Who I am
is what I am
What I am
I can not change
~Melyssa
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