7.11.05
OK so James and I have been talking. Apparently he's coming up here July 20 with his mom ( and possibly nephews ) via airplane. His mom's got a rental car and she's going to drop him off over here before traveling up to another relative's house way up north. Actually she's staying the night in a motel. They just kinda . . . planned all this. I guess it works out. We can eat dinner together and stuff for a while before she takes off for the hills.
I'm pretty excited. I got that time off from work. The boss was actually pretty understanding "since it's a family matter." That's the one advantage of working under Koreans... very family oriented.
Hmm. In the meantime, I'm just stackin up my beans more and more. Hopefully $150 will be enough while he's here. I've got about $1,200 saved up now. Eerily . . . the same amount I've saved before going back to school the past two semesters. I better have a little more than that this time so I can help pay for tuition since my loans don't cover jack shit. They even took my scholarship away since it's based on financial need. My mom thinks I didn't fill the FAFSA out right so now we're scrambling to try and correct it before it's too late. What a nightmare~ Plus study abroad . . . that's still haunting me.
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7.5.05
Ugh, I need to go back to school. Last night it was work, listening to fireworks in the neighborhood, drinking one shot by myself, laundry, then 2 hours of tossing and turning until I finally went to sleep at 3 AM. Now it's 9:47 AM and I'm just waiting to go to work. Apparently we're doing a catering job way out in the boonies so I gotta drive my parents' car out there, much to their dismay. Mine too sorta. Unfamiliar things weird me out.
Man. This has been just a really, really boring summer. Guess I should count down the days left until my vacation starts. ( Checking calender ) Looks like 18 days. And 15 until Do Won gets out of military training. Poeple sometimes ask me how things are going with him. I just shrug or so "I don't know" cuz I really don't. It's pathetic.
I've spent so much time analyzing this relationship but when it comes down to it, the question is whether or not it's worth continuing and working at. Being the ambivalent ( and for another month ) teenager that I am, it's hard to figure out even that. The things clouding the way are other undesirable emotions welling up. You know.. jealousy, loneliness, fear.. things that I used to be able to laugh at. Now, it's all a big confusion, especially since I'm still deciding whether I should change my study abroad application so I include Tokyo University instead of just Yonsei and Ewha. Hmm. Because honestly, I would rather go to Japan.
7.3.05
Amidst shopping for clothes, I forgot to pick up some kind of fireworks for tomorrow. Guess it doesn't really matter though because I'll be working from 4-10 PM. What a load of crap~ Who eats Chinese on the most patriotic of days? NO ONE! They go out for picnics and then watch the fireworks by the lake!! Guess it's just gonna be the regular $2.65/hour tomorrow.
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But enough of that bull. I have $1,100 to my name and it's all going for food. And some utilities I guess. But mostly food. It makes me feel all warm inside just thinking about it.
7.1.05
Holy crap it's July already. I have three weeks to make a ton of money. Yesterday afternoon I went home with 50 and another 50 at night. So. Yeah. One table gave me $40 because they were cool people. Possibly tipsy too. It was a frustrating day, but my money increases ever more. One thing though. Apparently free virgin pina coladas and mongolian combinations were being handed out for everyone. I didn't get anything though. Darn that bartender guy~ Oh well. We didn't end up leaving until around 11 because of those two wedding rehearsal banquets.
A couple days ago I got a short letter from Do Won. The first few sentences were in English. The last one said that he lost a lot of English, so he decided to write to the rest of it in Korean much to my chagrin. I figured out most of it fortunately. He mostly seems tired from waking up at 6 every morning. Apparently he naps often too. I hope he gets my letter before he leaves.
Well. The weather has gotten cooler. My work clothes are in the dryer and I need to take a shower. My callous ridden toes will enjoy it, but my scratched arm will not.
Oh, and I have yet to hear from my birth mom. She probably hasn't told any of my siblings about me or James yet. In fact, I bet she won't until right before we do actually go to Korea. It's rather frustrating.
6.25.05
I forgot that it's already officially summer. Oh well.
Last night was pretty weird. There were three banquets, one of which had 50 people. I think I mentioned this already. OK, well for the most part it went well as far as I know. I wasn't there. Apparently there was some left over icecream though which Khris gave to the kitchen people. The boss got pissed and yelled at her along with the other people working the banquet. However, he told Khris to leave and not come back until Monday. At first she seemed OK, but later I went in the back where she was doing laundry. She was quite upset. The other people were upset too, but not quite to that extent. At the end of the night, the boss started getting all happy and said that everyone did such a good job that he was giving out free Mongolian beef or something. But we weren't allowed to take it home. Ok . . . in that case, I just gave my share to the bartender guy. Someone else gave their share to him too. He seemed happy since he was hungry and just got a huge tip from those drunk wedding rehearsal banquet people.
Things for once went all right for me. I got about 7 1/2 tables and made approximately $60, nine of which went to bussers, the bartender, and the sushi guy. That sorta sucks, but whatever.
Oh, and don't expect me to respect people who spend the majority of their time yelling or giving the eye of death. Just because they're old doesn't mean I'm going to greet and bow to them everyday. No wonder Koreans have such huge tempers. Don't get me wrong, I don't hate all Koreans. Just the ones that happen to be around me.
6.24.05
Today I'm starting my third consecutive double shift. It's gonna be an especially hard day because 1) Today is the hottest day in two years and 2) there are going to be three banquets today, one of which is a wedding rehearsal with 50 people. Yesterday afternoon, Khris, Theresa and I, went out for lunch in between shifts. After that we went out for coffee and laughed ourselves silly. That was our undoing since the result was that we were ueber tired. Besides that, all the food was still jiggling in my stomach and made me feel pretty rancid. Fortunately it wasn't busy at all. I made my $9, did my sidejobs, and went out that door like a bad odor. Headache, backache, footache, stomachache, heart . . . ache . . . are these all compound words or should there be a space between the first word and ache? Anywho, I was suffering from all of the above. And what's in store for today? Cramps, bloating, irritability. Yeah I said it. Girl pain!!! Yesterday and today I'm allowed to go in at 11:30 AM instead of 10:30 ( to rest up ) but if I wait that long, I'm even more groggy than usual. Besides that, I setup all the kitchen stuff. If it's not done by 11, things get kinda rushed.
Anyway, enough about that. Um. Yeah. Nothing much else going on at the moment. Do Won's still in military training. James must be back from Germany by now. Should write him. Well, guess that's about all.
6.20.05
I hope you all had a good Father's Day. Ours was pretty usual. Dad and Adam went golfing in the morning, Mom and I went to a coffee shop, then to the mall. I dropped off a job application and bought some pants I've been itching to get for a while. Since I have about $800 now, my dad said it'd be ok to buy it. $60 pants... mom was nice enough to go "halfsies" with me.
When Adam went to Ann Arbor last month, I tagged along to pick up my exams from school. While we were there, we bought dad's Father's Day present. That is, a U of M hockey jersey. It has laces by the collar . . . he claimed he's actually going to wear this around. Hopefully just at home.
Yesterday we also celebrate Alexa's birthday. She's all into a princess theme so Mom got her a "Princess Alexa" doll and princess dress up clothes. Her birthday cake had a Disney princess theme. Wow. It's fun when you're four years old, but I hope this isn't a lasting phase of hers.
As Adam was leaving the house, I begged him to let me learn how to drive a stick. In his car. He's been very protective of his Prelude, but I finally wore him down. Yes! He drove over to a church parking lot where I nearly killed the engine by letting the clutch out too fast. After that though, I was sort of . . . getting it . . . he actually told me to go out on the street which was pretty scary. Never went out of second gear. The trick is: give it gas. A lot of gas. No wonder he speeds so much. Wheeeee~ I can't wait to get my own car someday. Maybe in six years.
Well, I should be off to work pretty soon. I hope I don't kill anyone. Last Saturday was such a disaster that I finally exploded. Since that one asshole waiter got fired, I was planning on just staying at this restaurant for the rest of the summer, but with such ass-quality managing, my doubts have returned. The number one thing I hate: people playing mind games, especially in a business setting. That is NO place for flippant behavior. The funny thing is, the manager thinks people quit because the job is too energy consuming. Uh huh. I'll write a better argument about why working here sucks later.
6.18.05
Man. Working until 11:45 PM is not cool. Three consecutive double shifts is not something I particularly like, but it looks like it's gonna stay that way for a while because the restaurant is so short of help. I kinda want to recruit people just to cut my hours again. Then again, at least I'm making some money. I have about $700 now . . . well on my way to financial security for the next semester. Every time I make another $20, I think . . . this is going to be my dinner. Sweeeet.
While I still have a lot of issues with the place, at least the coworkers are all good people. People that don't have major attitude problems. Now I'm the only one with an attitude. For the most part.
6.13.05
The frustration and irritation is mounting. Rainy days don't help much . . . Let's see if I explode this time.
6.14.05
Today is Flag Day. How do I know? All Blimpie's in west Michigan have $2 6" subs. Wow. So I got one and it was pretty good.
Yesterday was an interesting day. Got out of work, brought my mom to some place for an appointment, then went to the grocery store where I got a call from Paul's girlfriend about Jae's farewell party. I scurried off after changing at home to go to the park. Nobody was there though. Paul and Ellen arrive. We wander about the park for a while before we decide to take off somewhere else. Suddenly Jae shows up in a van with Ellen's parents. Apparently the party moved back to his host family's house, so we drove over there for a bit. Took some pictures... awww.
After that I went back home. The package Do Won sent finally came. It seemed kind of heavy. Turned out it was three packages of Chocopie and three packages of various instant coffees, one of which had 150 sticks in it. My goodness. So I brought that huge one to work today to unload a few of them. Only my boss' wife took some. Probably Khris will have a few tomorrow. Share the sugary happiness~
Actually . . . despite the fact that happiness should be abounding, well . . . the weather's too hot, my face is constantly greasy, and work still sucks. Not as much though, since that one dude got fired. Sweeeet.
6.11.05
Hallelujah... I'm off bussing! Wow. Thought this day would never come. Ironically, I spent the afternoon getting applications at the mall. Ah well. It would still probably be better money. Just weekends . . . I could get discounts on clothes too and be all prepared for next semester... cool!
6.9.05
Watching Family Guy on Adult Swim . . . man. Life is still boring. Work is the same everyday. Wake up, drop mom off, wait for 1 1/2 hours, go to work, pick up mom, go home, eat, sleep, eat, laundry, sleep. Wow. The amazing thing is that I'm getting used to this. The only problem is that it's a billion degrees outside. The boss at work isn't really into using the A/C more than he needs to, so it's stil 80 degrees in the restaurant. We wear long sleeved shirts that are buttoned up to the collar. We can't roll up our sleeves. It's like working in hell, temperature wise.
6.5.05
Hi all. So . . . what's been happening lately? Last Friday some restaurant people hung out together at TGIF's. It was kind of a bitching session against the management and someone in particular there. Once is enough. Yeah, good stuff. I dropped Khris off at home, then came home myself at 1 AM. Saturday . . . slow as beans. Bussing. Probably everybody around here were downtown for Festival. Khris wanted to go out for coffee or something but unfortunately I was cleaned out, in terms of cash. I only made $6 that night.
Today . . . hotter than heck. And humid. Now it's been raining for 3 hours, occasional lightning and thunder. Hmm.
Uh. Yes. Man things are way too ordinary for my liking. If something doesn't happen soon I'm gonna go nuts.
5.29.05
My entries are becoming more and more spaced out. Probably because I'm becoming more and more spaced out. In the head. The only thing I can think about is how much work sucks. Everyone's trying to get out now. June and July are their busy months so he's been hiring people willy-nilly only to have them quit two weeks after. He should wonder why. The pay is bad, there is preferential treatment toward Korean-speaking people, there is a lot of pissiness at mistakes ( which are made because there isn't sufficient training ), we're not allowed to eat anything except for soup, our discount is only 15%, and we basically just get treated like crap daily. I'm working 30 hours a week but after gas and a few cups of coffee, I only have $30 to put in the bank. That's pathetic.
Khris has been especially depressed with her life because she hasn't heard back from any of the places she applied at. Desperation is reaching all time highs. What's worse is that she now has to pay $425/month for her apartment, plus she needs money for groceries. She used to get rides with this other person but now things are falling apart in that respect too. We can't go out like we used to because my parents allow me only limited use of the car. It's irritating for me in both ways because I've almost completely stopped going out because I'm always dead tired. I want to go out with Khris, but on the other hand, I'm just lazy as hell.
On the bright side, Do Won and I have been friendly again. Apparently his friends are ignoring him. I don't know the specifics because he said it's too difficult to explain. More like he doesn't want to talk about because he never talks about them anyway. So all he has are his ROTC "fellows", me, and his family. Aww. In a weird way, I feel happier because of it. People who are relatively friendless seem more attractive to me. Probably because it seems like we're on an even plane.
Looking forward to supper. Looking forward to a different job. Looking forward to going back to school. Sort of.
5.25.05
Scratch the last entry. I just got a 23 cent tip today. Stupid redneck hick. Hocking up a hairball every so often.
The endless cycle of work eat sleep continues. At least that dude at work knows everybody hates him now. But he doesn't care. So it's all good.
5.22.05
2:20 AM. $56 for two days of work. Hmm. Pay's getting better.
Man, some crap's going down but . . . man. I'm too tired to explain, as usual.
5.20.05
My boss doesn't really take into account the fact that gas costs me money and that driving to the college for catering and to Meijer for icecream is putting a dent in my gas tank. Especially since the car is running all inefficiently at the moment.
Between shifts, Khris and I went to our old favorite Italian restaurant for some food. We ended up getting way too much. Minestrone soup, bread, appetizer sampler, and then we split an entree but they actually split it into two dishes, appearing to be whole entrees for the both of us. Wow. I took about three bites of that chicken paisano and nearly exploded. Somehow we still managed to have enough money and space in our stomach to get coffee. At that point she had to go back to work, although I didn't have to be in for another hour. Oh, by the way, we took pictures at the restaurant. She turned the stock wine bottle on our table into a pirate by wrapping a napkin around the top and then tying one around the middle which appeared to be an apron. Then she stuck a knife in it and suddenly it became a wine bottle pirate.
I brought her to work around 5 PM. I went in with her to retrieve a coffee mug which I had left in there. Then I went back to the car and attempted to sleep there for about half an hour but it was too hot. Ergo I simply returned to work groggy and sweaty. Cool.
Whenever there's a banquet at the restaurant, somehow I always end up being the busser in there along with another girl who still gets to bus the other areas, therefore making more money whereas I get a meager ( and approximate ) 7.5% tip. They have to tip the sushi guy. Fortunately nobody ordered alcohol, even though it was a wedding rehearsal dinner. Amazing. Just tea and soda. Made life really nice. Well, the boss told me to leave around 9:30 before the banquet had even left, so the server for the banquet told me she would give me the tip tomorrow. I hope it's more than $4.
The weather was quite nice. I was hoping it would be on Sunday too since Adam and I are taking Dad out to golfing. My present to him. But it's going to rain in the afternoon. Man.
5.19.05
1:28 AM. Hi. It's me again. After work tomorrow I'm going to Ann Arbor with my brother who's going to look at a car that's for sale. While he's off doing that, I'm going to break into a school building and collect my exams if they're still there. Speaking of which, I should probably look up where my theater teacher's office is. Hmm. Man. I dunno if they're going to be there or not. Oh well. Dad wants a hockey jersey for father's day anyway so I gotta go buy that from somewhere.
In the meantime, I've just been working my ass off. My dad has taken this entire week off. How does he spend his free time? He's been redecorating his and mom's room. Painted all the walls, redid all the outlets, put together a tv stand with me, vacuumed probably 20 times in a day, washed the bed sheets, got new mop boards and nailed them all to the bottom of the wall, puttied up the holes, painted over them . . . man. It's tiring just talking about it. Anywho, it's mostly done now. Man. I'm never going to step foot up there again.
Ah yes. Yesterday dad and I went to a driving range. This is the first time I've ever set foot in a golfing facility aside from putt putt golf. According to the posted signs, I hit the ball 110 yards. But then again, the point at which we hit was about 10 yards ahead of the shelter. Woo. But unfortunately I bruised my wrist and skinned one of my knuckles. Hmm.
By the way, tomorrow is dad's birthday. Gotta . . . oops. There was some present confusion.
5.16.05
Dad's birthday is on Thursday. James' graduation is on Friday. Dude, I wanted to go. Well, instead of that, I'm sending him a card with a $20 gift card to Best Buy. Mom went to the Best Buy website to make sure that there was one near his house even. Hmm. And for Dad. He wants a gift certificate for Ebay. I guess that'll be it then, plus a homemade card.
I've been going Cy-crazy for the last few days. Since I got another digital camera I've finally had the opportunity to upload more pictures over there. If you reeeaaally wanna see all of them, you'll have to sign up for Cyworld too and 1 chon me.
The thing that pisses me off though is that acorns cost money. Not much but . . . money's money. Stupid acorns.
5.14.05
Oh, I've been neglecting you my little journal. Hmm. Contrary to the previous entry, here is my other website now: http://www.cyworld.com/sakura37. It's a Korean website so a lot of it is in Korean, but everything I wrote is in English. Unfortunately, only members can write messages and stuff. Oh well. Feel free to visit anyway. I also "1 chon"ed a bunch of pictures. That's to encourage people to 1 chon me. But nobody will. Even Do Won. I guess there's such a thing as "too close".
Well, gotta do the dishes then go to work. Yet another day as busser. What a load of crap.
5.8.05 Part II
I hate Korean websites. Bastards.
5.8.05
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12:21 AM. I was at work tonight until 11:30 PM waiting around for my tips. Today was unholy busy due to graduations and Mother's Day. Speaking of Mother's Day, I didn't get anything yet due to lack of time and money and too much running around. I hope your Mother's Day goes well.
Man I wanna sleep. Good night.
5.4.05
12:55 AM. So. "Yesterday" I started training to be a waitress. Sadly, I only get one day of training. I'm working tomorrow when Khristina's off so I'm basically going solo because I can't really ask any of the old guys questions or else they'll either ridicule me or ignore me, or they could ridicule me and then proceed to ignore me. Lucky Khris is getting out in two weeks. She got a different job and I'm looking to do the same.
Talking to Do Won has become more and more a strained affair. It's endlessly repetitive and boring. I end up just talking about myself because even if I ask about him, he'll just say "I'm studying" or "I'm being lazy." Somehow the details of his life never come up. Man. What's gonna happen if I get Cyworld huh? And start leaving annoying messages on his page? He'll be pissed fo sho. His friends will find out about me! OOOOOO!! Scary. What's he gonna do then, eh?
5.2.05
Another crappy day. Nothing to do because there's no work today. No money. No car. Too cold to go outside for anything even if it was warm enough. Man. At least I got TV.
I woke up around 10:30. Do Won came online and so we "talked" for about an hour and a half. There wasn't that much actual talking going on. Mostly him spouting a bunch of nonsense stuff like he usually does and me giving monosyllabic answers. Pretty lame.
5.1.05
First day of May huh. Doesn't feel like it at all. Kinda blah today. Woke up at Khristina's apartment. The sun was shining full blast so I thought it was already midday but it was only 8:30 AM. Weird. Her mom showed up at 9 or something with all three kids in the car so she kept buzzing her until she came down. I had to stay there until my parents came along. Then we went to the bookstore for the customary coffee and quiche. Oops. I think I left the cup in the van.
Feeling a little . . . woozy. And pissed, because Do Won said he would stay online for an hour and wait for me till I got home so we could talk online. 40 minutes later I sign in and he's nowhere. As usual. Bastard.
4.30.05
Back to work. Man, this sucks. Everytime I come back, they always have a really huge bunch of people reserved so it's a zoo there until 11 PM. If there's a bunch of crazy people ordering mixed drinks again I'm gonna shoot them and then myself.
4.29.05
Day 2 at home. Mom and I went to the restaurant for some food. We saw my boss there manning the front as usual. He just asked if I was going to Korea this summer and I said no. We bet dollars to doughnuts he would ask me to start working tomorrow, but in fact, he didn't say anything at all about working. So. Maybe I don't have any job at all to start out with at least. Looks I'll have to get a real job huh. Scary. Interviews are not my thing. Last interviewer I had was with this 4' 8" tall lesbian. Just kidding. I dunno if she was a lesbian or not but she warned me that in the Women's Studies department there were many of them. At any rate, she didn't like me enough to hire me.
I told Do Won that I was going to get a Cyworld page. He called me "Inspector Anna", which to me says that he thinks I want to check up on him more or something. Which is true. I do check his messages and stuff and look at his friends' pages, but that's only because he refuses to tell me even their names. Anywho, the only reason I'm making this is so that maybe my Korean family can check it out and look at pictures of stuff online in a familiar setting. Otherwise, I don't know anybody else who would visit it because only Koreans who have membership can leave messages.
Man. Gotta start being productive again. Some summer vacation this is going to be. At least Khris was happy to see me.
4.28.05
11:39 PM. Lazily passed the day by. Didn't bother to stop by the restaurant yet to let them know that I'm here. No rush. It would probably be better to look for a different job first since I need to make about $1,500 in four months. Possible? Not as a busser. Unless I pinch every darn penny that I make. Ugh.
Still gotta finish cleaning up my room . . . man. Moving one's entire life is pretty time consuming.
Oh P.S. I forgot that I had given a trivia question earlier but didn't post the answer. Well, it was the song "Clementine" by Elliott Smith.
4.27.05 Part II
11:55 PM. Back home.
4.27.05
12:38 AM. Well, all's well that ends well. The essays were . . . OK I guess. I probably could've stood to be more coherent, but hey. It was all off the top of my head. After I finished the exam ( with only 20 minutes left to spare ) I dropped by my Korean professor's office to get my study abroad recommendation. We ended up sitting down for a long chat about possible scholarships or summer internships. Family matters also came up. She's such a great lady. She might even visit the restaurant where I work. Woo, that would be interesting.
Packin' up the ol' apartment. Kinda melancholy. But also a huge pain in the butt. It took half an hour just to sort through this mountain of paper I had stacked up on the bookshelf. Now there's a pile of 1,000 pages of crap that I have to recycle, the majority of which belongs to theater.
Well, better take a shower and clean some more . . . or sleep, wake up at 7 AM and clean. Including dishes. Nasty. Well, cheerio.
4.26.05
3:44 AM. Still kickin'. My stomach was kind of funky for a couple hours. Probably because I ate too much. I had just eaten some soup when I started talking to Duk Hyun online. He said he was gonna go out to eat and invited me along. Then he said Hisato and he would be over in a bit. So we ate at the Korean restaurant. I got chap chae . . . pretty good. Wish I had been more hungry. Oh well, Duk Hyun ate a bunch of it, haha. We weren't extremely talkative, especially me because I was sort of out in the ether as usual, but it's nice to see them one last time before summer vacation. Oh yeah. He sold his Lexus and got an Audi. It's tiny as hell. I couldn't really sit up straight in the back cuz my head was hitting the glass. That's the first time I've ever felt too tall in a car.
Hmm. Trying to not freak out about tomorrow. There are several plays that I couldn't look at because there weren't any PCs open at the fishbowl when I got there round... 9 or 10. So I had to use a Mac which isn't worth jack because it wouldn't open Acrobat files. Well, something would open but it wouldn't display the pages which is weirder than heck. Suddenly my nose started bleeding out of nowhere so I had to run out to the bathroom. Unfortunately I was in the back of the room so I had to wipe the blood on my hands along the way hoping that nobody saw me and thought I snort coke or something.
Well. I could've studied harder for this exam, but then again . . . it wouldn't make much difference. Haha. My exam philosophy.
4.25.05 Part II
5:44 PM. I studied at the fishbowl for about an hour and a half before I felt overwhelmed by the fact that I am going to die. I looked back on my successful assignments, all the A's and A-'s I got. It'll all be worth nothing when I fail the exam! My worry is compounded by the fact that I am very hungry and thirsty for Pepsi. So I left the fishbowl and went to the cornerstore that I like to frequent for goodies and got a microwaveable cup of soup, a box of Froot Loops, and an 8-pack of Pepsi. The essentials of life.
Now I'm attempting to cook the last of my rice. Unfortunately, I left the last cooked batch in there for waaaay too long because I forgot about it. It got really mushy and rotted. Worst of all, it emitted an unholy stench that is yet in the cooker. I can't get rid of it. I'm hoping that by cooking this bunch the funkness will go away or at least decrease.
Hey, do you wanna read my paper in which I translate "Dojoji" into a kabuki play? It's in Word format. Here it is! Oh, and don't try to plagiarize me because there's actually some false or at least somewhat untrue information in this.
4.25.05
This is it folks. The last day before the theatre exam. I tried to go to the lab tonight to start on studying since I had been lazy all day (Midday nap! Yeah!!) so I went there . . . and stayed for about half an hour. Before doing that though, I went to eat a sandwich by myself up at a restaurant. It was ok. I would've preferred Blimpie's but I don't think they're even open on Sundays over there. If they are, it's only until the early afternoon . . . anywho, I was carrying a cold can of Coke outside despite the fact that it was raining. Nice watered down taste. When I got inside I proceeded to feel very bloated but I kept myself civil (i.e. kept the belching to a minimum).
Took a look at all the plays that were covered over the semester. Then I thought, holy sweet crap I am going to die. But then I checked the assignments list on CTOOLS and good gravy! They graded my last paper! I would've gotten an A had it not been late. The first three pages were nothing but splatterings of red due to my inability to write things in a grammatically correct manner and my occasional use of happy-go-lucky teenager colloquialisms that I decided to add on a humorous whim. They, however, did not find it so humorous. Oh well. The play translation itself was generally free of corrections and the teacher dude said it was mostly good except I disregarded some makeup/stage direction type stuff. Yeah. Makeup. Well, they just cover their faces in white and sometimes the dudes have some silly lines outlining their foreheads but nothing serious. I think in Noh they don't even have makeup at all. They have masks sometimes for deities, ghosts, and otherwise transformed people but . . . yeah. Had I known they actually would've passed that pile of a paper, I would've hurried the hell up with it. Whatever.
Wednesday. Gotta meet the Bri-guy and move some of my big crap into their house to store over the summer. I feel bad because he said they're having an end-of-term party the night before so they'll probably be all hung over when we get there. Hopefully they'll just stay in their rooms so we can get the crap in there and get the hell out ASAP. Another bit of annoyance: these people are getting interested in the sublet for my apartment at the last freaking minute trying to get a deal. If somebody ends up signing on Wednesday, I'll have to make a last minute plea to my landlady to come over here so we can sign it together. If they wanna sign it later, I'm gonna have to presign the lease or they're going to have to . . . sign it without me? I dunno how that works. But man. Should've dealt with these little details earlier before my life exploded.
Anywho, better get off to bed so I can start studying bright and early. Shall we say . . . 8 AM? Yeah that'd be the day. Considering the fact that it's still frozen and utterly depressing outside, 9 will probably be the earliest.
4.24.05
What's this? A wintry wonderland? A sweet, white hell layered anew?? It's been snowing non-stop since yesterday afternoon. I can only hope that it's still abot 28 degrees. See, this is exactly why I hate Michigan. This has happened before in which it snows like a freaking blizzard and then proceeds to melt in a day or two. Fortunately it's not getting deep though, just a sprinkling. But man. It's coming down. Now we all get to feel ridiculous and put on our winter stuffs one more time. Man. It was 82 degrees not that long ago.
I woke up this morning with a feeling of distinct dread because I had a bad dream about Do Won. I only remember two main pieces of it. Part of the dream was good but, ok here are the parts I remember. We were in this dark school hallway. He was saying that he wanted to change his major to music. I thought he was daft and that there was no way he could make it in that school. He was just like . . . whatever. I can do it. The end of my dream was us at the top of the hill by my street at home. It was night. He was going home (wherever that could be) but he was with some other girl. They kissed on the lips and I became infuriated. Then there was some unclear argument about kissing people on the first date or kissing people you don't know well . . . whatever. It was retarded. And I feel really stupid for sharing this dream because it's just the accumulation and manifestation of all my paranoia.
Hopefully I have enough money to last through the dreary winter days. I think it'll get 10 degrees warmer with every day after today.
Ah, winter Sundays. I can smell bacon and smoke, and there's some muted music coming from upstairs. The streets wet; you can tell by the sound of the cars. ( Trivia: Who sang the previous sentence and in what song? ) I'll tell you tomorrow. Gotta study at school but I'm too depressed now.
4.23.05
It's snowing/raining outside. How depressing.
Gotta take a shower, go to campus, check my bank account, buy a present for my little tutee ( probably a story book ), go to their house, come back and study, get food or at least some milk so I can make macaroni and cheese, study, worry, study, worry. Well, first things first. Shower. Fortunately the washing machine was open early this afternoon so at least I can wear fresh clothing.
That creepy guy called me. I told him that I was really busy and didn't have any time. He suggested getting something to eat when I was done. Hopefully he won't call back if I don't. If he doesn't get the picture, well, I'll be gone by next Wednesday. If he shows up at the house again I'll have no choice but to wig out.
Time's running out. Better get to work.
4.22.05
I just finished the Korean exam. There were some things on there that I really didn't have a clue about, but fortunately that didn't happen too often. Hopefully I'll still get somewhere in the vicinity of an A. Otherwise I'll be very unhappy.
I have to kill some time. I'm meeting Yujin at 1 for lunch. I called her to ask for my DVDs back but that didn't even get mentioned. She didn't even ask why I called . . . food happens so naturally. Well, it's 11:54 AM right now. Doo bee doo.
All the computers with scanners are always taken up right away. They don't even use them and there are other computers open. They're probably too lazy to walk an extra 10 feet to another one. Anywho, I gotta scan those pictures still . . .
I've been arguing with my parents about going to Korea next summer. James said his parents probably had enough money to send us both there and we could stay there for a short time so we could go back to work to save up for next semester. Mom and Dad were both saying that there's no chance in going and that I need to stay here to work. They came up with several other reasons. I got mad and said that they're coming up with all these excuses to keep me here and then mom got really hurt saying that they're both working really hard. That's true but it's somewhat irrelevant to the situation since they won't be paying for anything and if I'm only gone for a week, I won't be losing much in the way of money considering I get paid crap anyway. Well, there's time to think about it. They said I already went last year and I'm going again to Yonsei next March (supposedly). Well, I'm not sure if I'll have the chance to run to Daegu while I'm at school. And if I hadn't gone last year, the money wouldn't be here this year either. Why? Because I worked at that church. They paid for my ticket and some more money on top of that along with additional tutoring in Seoul. I came out about even with whatever I would have made at the restaurant. I'm impatient to go but I'm trapped within my parents' feelings.
4.21.05
Do Won was calling me a lot since last night. I finally answered around 7:30. As it turns out, my birth mom had called him. She couldn't talk to me because Jae Hyun was near her and she couldn't understand what I was saying anyway. So he told her about him for me. She said that Jae Cheol will be released from the military at the end of April and that she'll tell everybody what's going on at that point. She really wants us to come to Korea and that she'll try to help financially although she doesn't have much money. Well, I don't have much money either, but I'm sure not going to take any more from her. Hmm. Oh, and she doesn't have a cell phone anymore. Who the hell was I calling?? Scary.
Um. Yeah. Better call James. -_- Weirded out.
But none of this really makes the Do Won situation any better. He said he failed his chemistry exam and that he'll have to just suck it up and try hard for the biology one on Monday. Well, I failed my Botany exam. Just forget about it. I got his email explaining that he was "just joking" around, but I'm still going to take that as general BS for now.
Considering the weather is getting weirdly cold again, I think it's time for a coffee to wake myself the hell up.
4.20.05
So the friend of this guy in the apartment across from me seriously creeped me out. Ughhhhhhh. I'm locking my door from now on.
James' dad sent me a picture of him and his siblings from two years ago. There was also a goat in the picture. Oh, yes and his nephew. I can't really distinguish similar features, plus his eyes are closed. But hey, better than nothing. I tried to call our mom last night several times, but she didn't answer her cell phone. I tried to call the house and some guy picked up the first time. I freaked out and hung out. James is getting worried about the family medical history. I wasn't too much before but . . . now . . . since she's not answering, I hope she's not in the hospital again. Things are really messed up right now. If at all possible, it'll probably be better to go to Korea this summer.
Oo. To top it all off, I have a hold on my student account. Apparently we were supposed to be paying money. Hmm. Now I can't order a transcript. What the hell is going on.
4.19.05 Part II
11:09 PM. So this whole thing with my brother is pretty crazy. He called me back tonight. Unfortunately I had been napping so I was pretty disoriented again. He's pretty excited about this whole thing too. I don't know how to deal with this though exactly, like what questions should I ask and stuff. It'd be better to just meet him. But ahhh... he's going to Germany first. Always with the waiting . . .
Another thing to get my blood pressure up, but in the bad way, is Do Won's weirdness and excessive interaction with other girls. He asked his female friend if she knew any girl who could help him with biology and chemistry. She said she found someone but . . . . . . . . . . . . . . it's a guy. Then he wrote back with the T.T thing saying he wanted to find some girl instead. What to make of this? I called him. He sounded pretty messed up. Apparently he stayed up all night studying for a mid-term today. Too much shit going on! It's making me sick! And my room's hot as hell which doesn't help much. Plus this damn allergy stuff going on. My head's stuffed up and I'm sneezy as hell. DAMN IT!
4.19.05
So I was walking home from school, frustrated with the fact that there weren't any computers open. Suddenly I get a phone call and it's my younger brother. We had a good long conversation about everything we could think of under the sun. All my fears have been put to rest. We're carbon copies. Hahahaha. Well not exactly, but we share a lot of the same personality traits that I thought were only characteristic of twin cases if they've been separated their whole lives. This is definitely a fascinating development. Now everybody in my whole family knows because I just blurted everything out so suddenly. Too amazing. The best part is that we speak the same language.
4.18.05
I apologize for that last entry because HOLY SWEET LORD. Something really crazy has happened. Just when life's getting you down, it suddenly takes you by the throat and shakes you like a British nanny. Bethany finally called me back and gave me my brother's email. The lady didn't really tell me much about him. I think it was because it was the end of her office hours and she wanted to get the hell out of there, but she told me he used to live in Michigan, but now he's in the south west. Dude. What the heck. Anyway, I've already written to him with some tantalizing information and my phone number. RRR! The suspense is killing me! But then I thought, hey, what if things don't turn out perfectly. I considered that possibility before I met my birth mother too but . . . hey. At least understanding will finally come.
4.17.05
I have never felt this alone in my life.
4.16.05
2:35 PM. Well, having my parents here was really a good thing. They fed me, bought me some spring and bathroom necessities, and . . . just . . . it was nice. We looked at a fall sublet together. The house was incredibly nice. The people said that this was the first year that it was rented out to students. The only problem was that I'd be living with four guys. My dad was not cool with that. Actually, my dad's not really cool with the whole chronological order of things. I've been looking for a fall sublet without being sure that I'm even going abroad next spring. I have to be sure that I have enough money through loans and scholarships to cover everything cuz that plane ticket is pretty expensive, especially when Korean people need to travel back and forth from the States when their vacations are over. Well, I'll found out on Tuesday I guess. But man. That house was freakin' sweet. They were grilling outside and had diced potatos just coming out of the oven. How many college guys cook like that?
Well. We all had a little talk about that last night at Starbucks. All of today was pretty pleasant. We ate breakfast, went to the mall, then went to this orchid exhibit at Matthaei Gardens. The outside was a little depressing since they don't seem to have started getting everything ready for spring bloom, but whatever. The conservatory was $5/person (except me, cuz I have ID!) so it wasn't worth it to them. They were interested in buying an orchid, but my mom got weirded out. They require a different kind of care. But anywho, orchids are pretty cool. They're like fireworks blooming off of thin sticks.
The weather is so fine today. Somewhere between comfortable and hot. It's making my hair insane, but that doesn't matter! I only have two weeks left in this hole before I'm released into a sweet, sweet sunny freedom.
4.15.05
12:30 AM. Strong headache, fatigued, and out of my mind. Nothing out of the usual.
4.14.05
The fatigue is catching up with me. I overslept again. Things look grim.
4.13.05 Part II
2:30 PM. Downward spiral! This strange cramp-like pain started pulling at my ribs as I was walking home from class. Now it's better but, it seems like a warning to me that I should probably start eating food again. With that in mind, a trip to the grocery store is in order. This time, I'll take #1 there AND back! Woo!
Ok so, all I have left is to finish up that theater paper, and then work on this powerpoint presentation for Korean on that girly man Bae Yong Jun. Two groups presented today. After that, I'm not too worried because all they did is read very slowly off their slides.
Oh wait. That's not all. The guy that was looking to sublet this summer looked at the place for all of two minutes before telling me that he had really been looking for an efficiency. He promptly left immediately after. Well. Looks like I still need to find someone to take it, huh. And I'm still looking for a fall sublet, granted that I really am still going to Yonsei. I'm starting to have my doubts considering Do Won doesn't explain his wacky actions very well and that I'd be an outcast there anyway. Speaking Korean for four months straight. Definitely good to be immersed in the language finally, but I need accent free English conversation from time to time. I'll also need a phone. And money for food and soju.
Can't wait until I get money again. But then, I hate work.
4.13.05
I'm back, after 9 hours of sleep. A total of 40 consecutive waking hours. My body is in some pain right now. And my brain isn't totally re-fused yet, but it'll probably get better. I hope.
4.12.05 Part II
1:58 PM. I have now been awake for 28 1/2 hours. My theater class met at the art museum to look at early 19th century Japanese prints. We sat in a small room. He dimmed the lights. My head started bopping around as I was severely nodding off. I think the teacher noticed and was displeased. Well, what can you do. I felt a little better after that but my eyes are still very dry and sore.
I've been trying to call Do Won a billion times since early this morning. He was at dinner with his friends. He said he'd call me at 9 to make sure I was awake. No call. I called him. No answer. Called again. No answer. Called again. No answer. Called later ( around now ) no answer. His phone is still on but. Hm. Maybe he's getting drunk. Anyway, he's too embarrassed to talk to me on the phone in front of his friends. He had to actually get up and leave the place to talk to me. He was like, "Is there something you have to say??" He claims he's embarrassed to speak in English in front of them. I asked him if they knew he was talking to and he said no. Man. Always second to the rest of Korea. A very severe second. This is bugging the hell out of me.
4.12.05
Why the heck have I been setting the day as May for the past five entries? I've been noticing that when I try to write "April" I usually write "February" first. It's very queer.
Well, it's 2:46 AM and I'm struggling to think of what NOT to say. In my theater paper, that is. I never so much as dared to think that I would have TOO MUCH to say on the matter of Noh and Kabuki, but apparently I do. We're supposed to take up 3 1/2 pages for introduction to the new version of our play. I'll end up with . . . I dunno. I'm only on the top of page two, stupidly enough, but I can imagine that I'll go over 3 1/2 because after the general description of these play types, I have to go into the actual explanation of my changes to the original play. Suck.
Oh yes. And I am very tired. My eyes are as dry as sandpaper and my limbs are like rocks. It would be so easy to just fall out of my chair, roll into bed, and leave this thing until the final hour of doom, but I don't like doom. I don't like it at all. However, how can I think when my brain's in this state? This state of poo poo? My only choice is to write out as much as I can ( hopefully all of it ) and then review it tomorrow morning before class . . . or in between classes. Then show my room to prospective subletter guy, then go to tutoring at 7. I'm tempted to just stay up all night to see what happens to myself. Walking down the sidewalk . . . jauntily to the say the least . . . then BAM! Faceplant on the pavement. Sweet.
Why am I rambling here so much when it's almost 3 Am and I have 6 more pages to write, you ask? I can't concentrate at all. I have no attention span. Basically, there is not an academic idea in my head. Not a coherent idea either for that matter. WOO!!
P.S. I'm considering taking 21 credits next semester just to see if it's possible. If not, I can drop one and do 17. Or 18, depending on which class. That'd be pretty funny. My parents are always concerned about me getting more of an educational "bang for their buck."
4.11.05
Tired, hungry, irritable, and I swear on my life that I will kill ever last fly that is in this room. No joke, I spent about two hours last night searching and destroying every last living this in this room. They probably came in with the plants from botany, so I promptly removed them and put them on the porch outside. Just when I thought all the bastiches were gone, five more would show up out of nowhere on the ceiling or around my bed. That was a lot of wasted time.
It's a little chilly this morning, but the sun is out full blast. Hopefully it's a good omen. I got an email from someone asking to see the apartment for summer subletting. Not gonna hold my breath on this one, but at least someone's asking about it again finally. Ugh. Just wanna sleep for 12 hours straight in a bug free bed.
4.10.05
I am in a fiery maize and blue colored hell.
5.9.05
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4.8.05
I had been planning on waking up at 7:30 for some reason. Couldn't make it though. Man, I've been so unbelievably tired for the past two days. What happened? Lack of nourishment probably. This is it though. The last weekend to make things right academically. If I give up now, then all will be lost!!
Time has finally run out on me.
4.7.05
Due to my incredible lack of sleep, I finally overslept this morning. For sure, I set my alarm last night for 7:30. I went to sleep at 3 AM. I thought, hey, 4 1/2 hours . . . that's an improvement. Apparently I never so much as heard my alarm and didn't wake up until 11:30, missing my theater class. I can imagine a lot of people skipped it because of "paperitis", but I still feel bad. I was planning on getting up that early though because I had to study for my botany lab practical exam that was today. I didn't know what to study except for the scientific names of 17 plants. Unfortunately, there were only two questions on those. I memorized all of them, but I couldn't identify all of the evergreen plants. The day when the GSI was explaining them, we went outside to actually look at them. Unfortunately it was like 20 degrees with gusty wind, so I couldn't really pay attention being a frozen block of ice. Oh well. When the first group finished they all said it was a lot harder than the last two. Except for the evergreen questions, it seemed pretty normal. I think I'll fail this one at about the same degree as the others.
On to some good news. It turns out there was an essay contest in Korean class. The teachers didn't really announce it, but they submitted our third essay to be judged. I don't remember what mine was even about, but apparently I was one of five people who won. So I get $100. The sponsor of this contest is some millionaire Korean guy who lives in the area. He gave a bunch of money to the department, but the teachers decided to distribute it among the students in this fashion. How kind of them. They used to deposit directly into the student account, but now they just send a cashiers check to your house. Sweeeet. The weird thing was that need your social security number which I was reluctant to send through email, so I ended up being the last person to submit my information because I thought the original email notification from my teacher was a fake. Hee hee.
I bought the Broken Social Scene CD through Amazon. It arrived two days later, meaning today, in my mail! How cool! So now I'm reveling in its musical glory. Those Canadians can rock it out after all.
Still gotta finish that comparison paper. Hahahahahahahahahaha. How long is this going to go on? Ryan the cool guy helped me out big time by reading the plays and making notes for me. Hopefully I'll finish it tomorrow night. Yes. That is what I'll do. Then I'll write the next one. I'm planning on translating a Noh play into a Kabuki or Peking opera play. From the abstract to the concrete and colloquial. That'll be hilarious. Maybe Peking opera will be more suitable because they say "Yo!" and "Ah ha!" a lot. I'll just fill up 3 pages with yo, ah ha, references to courtesans, and guys who placed first in the national examinations. Sounds about right.
JJAN JJAN!
4.5.05
1:55 AM. This is quite possibly one of the most difficult periods in my life. I've thought that to myself many times in the past. Hardships come and go eventually, but this one is really causing a lot of acne. Physical stress is pretty rare as when I feel tired, I usually just give up and go to sleep. But no more! There can be no sleep! And if there is sleep, I will still wake up ueber frueh. Ich bin gar nicht frohlich. When I first started writing my Korean composition (that's due tomorrow) I was in the zone. Totally. Then I got stuck on a sentence and couldn't find a way to paraphrase it. My last resort is Do Won. The ass finally gave me his schedule (after I forced it out of him, although he told me a month ago he would send it to me) so I know he's not in class. Well, he must've either been at lunch or studying I guess. Now I'm just screwed. So the paper will start out looking pretty good, then gradually get crappier and crappier. Well, that's how it goes anyway with all of my papers.
This lack of energy and sleep is gnawing at my nerves. The angry and impatient nerves. Staying up until 4 AM every night is NOT IDEAL.
4.4.05
6:36 PM. It's the karma police out to get me!! I spent six months lazing around and being a bum. Well, the first four months didn't really matter. That was last semester. But January and February . . . led to my downfall. And what's next? My boss is going to make me a lunch time waitress? Not in this lifetime. He knows full well that no matter how simple the serving task, I'll find some way to botch it. It's so utterly amazing. Utterly. Amazing.
I was feeling pretty tired and crappy, but I knew I needed to get some kind of groceries. Well, I hopped on the bus to go to Kroger. Today was the first time I took line #1. Dunno why I never took it before because there's a stop right next to my house. Holy crap, I should've taken that line back too. Damn. Note to self: Take #1 back home next time, you stupid idiot. Ok. Well, it was a nice walk anyway. Kinda hot outside. Just wish I had a friend. -_-
OK. Gotta focus. The composition for Korean is due tomorrow. All I have to do is write about Bae Yong Jun, this not-so-good-looking-in-my-opinion-pretty boy who's popular with middle-aged Japanese housewives. Have I already talked about this before? Seems like it. Anywho, that's my topic. Superb.
Theater class on Thursday was scheduled to be a field trip to the art museum to check out . . . something. But they switched it so it's on Tuesday. We'll have the FOURTH consecutive class on Chinese theater studies. I checked the readings for Thursday and it is the HUGEST list of readings I've seen thus far. It's so ridiculous it makes me laugh with extreme bitterness! Shiet~
4.4.05
10:52 AM. I went to sleep at 4 last night because I forgot that there was a Korean assignment due. I don't feel that tired yet but . . . no doubt, the fatigue will come.
It better be warm outside or else I'm going to kill someone/something.
Feel ill. Must . . . erase . . . compost pile from botany landscape improvement project . . .
4.3.05
It's a cold and friendless world, isn't it? So many options, but none seem viable. Which path is the right one? Ah, the frustrations of youth.
4.2.05
Somebody be my room mate for four months!! Good gravy man, I'm developing an ulcer from all this anxiety. On top of that I have so much friggin homework I'm going insane. Right now I'm at the computer lab. 5:43 PM. Finished ALL my laundry! Yay! Fresh smelling goodness. Now I have socks again too. Well, better get workin on something. Just think. In four weeks, I'll be home and can just worry about making money. That'd be nice.
Oh yes. Another thing to worry about. Traveling abroad. I didn't realize how for in advance you had to prepare for this. Over a year, really. Ewha offers a large scholarship whereas Yonsei offers nothing. While Ewha may not be that bad ( and it's in a good shopping area ) . . . I dunno. Just wasn't really feelin them. Oh well. Blah. Stomach pain.
4.1.05
1:40 AM. Holy crap. It's April.
So. It seems that nobody's taking the bait that is my sublet. And 4 month leases on apartments available in September are pretty few and far between. The only place that's a sure bet in that department is a co-op, but they're still in the upper $400-500 range. And I'll have to live with crazy frisbee-throwing people who like to sit on the porch swing at night and commune. If I can't find a place to live that's cheap enough next fall, I can't go to school. If I can't go to school and move up to junior status by winter, then I can't go to Yonsei. If I can't study abroad, then I should go to Korea this summer. But if I go to Korea this summer, then find miraculously find a place in the fall, I won't have enough money to live at school. See, if I just didn't have to go abroad for any reason, my life wouldn't be this kind of hell. I'd work all summer and get a 12 month lease on a super nice $750/month efficiency. Close to campus too. Furnished. Includes water and heat. Oo.
So tired. But I have a Korean test tomorrow. I should also look for some tracing paper to do my landscape improvement project that's due on Monday. What else. That theater comparative paper. It was due FEBURARY 24. GOOD LORD. What the hell. I'll be so damn glad when this semester's over. Then again, another oh-so-fresh hell will begin anew.
Oh. Khris got an apartment and moved out of her house, but she didn't have enough time to relay all the details to me. How curious. So out of the loop.
3.31.05
12:36 AM. Looking at the month of April on my calender makes me wanna barf. I have a test/exam once or twice a week, except for the week of the tenth, for the rest of the month. Well, on the twelfth I have that 7 page paper due in theater. Sweet.
I just squished my banana. Bad omen.
3.30.05
What's this? I CAN'T major in Asian languages??? What is this lie??? Kind of disappointing. But then it's sunny and toasty today so for now it's not a big deal.
HOWEVER. It kinda sucks to not be able to share this nice day with anyone. Just stuck walking around, spaced out, thinking about what to do. Well, my room's getting shown again today so I should probably clean up and run. I dunno what clothes to wear. It's hot now, but I'm probably going to be gone until it gets dark. Hmm. Sweatshirt. Ah, it's good to feel sweaty in the armpits again.
Anywho, not much else going on. Just straight up homework. I need a breeeeaaak.
3.29.05
Once again, the weather is so fine today. Nothing but sunshine and warmth. And what's this? An entire house on north campus up for rent for only $500 + utilities? Four baths? Two living rooms??? Sweet tomato, this can't be real! If I could find even just one roommate, we'd be paying a mere $250/month plus utilities for an entire freaking house!!! Under the lease description it said "negotiable", so I'm hoping that they'll let it go for 8 months at least. If they can do 4, I'll crap myself, because it'll be really easy to find an upper-level student or grad student who will be graduating in the winter. 4 month leases are impossible to find, or don't really exist at all except as sublets. This is probably a sublet but DAMN! If I can't get a hold of this place I'm gonna go insane!!!
Class at 3. Then I'm off to tutor my former tutee's kid. Apparently we're switching things up a bit. She's going to be really busy in April, and her son's two previous tutors have been unstable, so now I'm hired for just two days a week at same pay. Sweeeet. The only probably figuring out a good time and day to meet because she said 7-8 PM is ideal. 4-5 was better for me because after I stepped off the bus I went off to do my theater homework at the fishbowl on Mondays and Wednesdays. Well. We'll have to see about it I guess.
Oh, and yes. The toilet is fixed. THe house keeper guy was plugging away at it at 7 this morning. How diligent. Of course when I got up there was a major funk in the air, so I sprayed the bathroom to all heck with air freshener. Now there's a fruity funk. All good. I was a little freaked out though when I stepped in something wet. Man. Slippers are a must in this place.
3.28.05
Holy crap, it looks like spring. This is the first day that I haven't worn a coat outside. Amazing. 60 degrees and sunny. So in honor of this fine day, I stopped by Blimpie's to get a sandwich and Moutain Dew. My mood is a bit higher now because of friendly Mr. Sun.
3.27.05
Why don't buses run on Easter Sunday? It's a religious holiday. For all you seculars, all it means is a chocolate bunny and maybe some Easter eggs. Now I'm going hungry because I can't go to Meijer. Man. Went through my nice Sunday ritual. Stopped by Starbucks, then ambled on over to the bus station. Nobody there. Just the wind . . .
Do Won called at 6 AM to tell me that his number changed back to the original one. 6 AM. He finally got a new phone apparently, and it's very good. That is all. He called again later to say something . . . I don't remember what, but I told him to not call on weekdays before 9 AM. "But today is Sunday, isn't it?" Yes, but getting calls at wee hours of the morning interrupts my sleeping pattern. Lately I've been getting up two hours before my class starts. My alarm didn't even go off! How bizarre is that?? It's so anti-typical college student.
"Backpacking" and registering for fall classes is starting up. I looked through the course guide and discovered a few potentially excellent classes. My first choice is intensive Japanese at the first year level. It's 10 freaking credits!! But rightly so since it's 10 hours a week. 10-12, Monday through Friday. No ifs, ands, or buts. Then there's third year Korean, which I'll most likely have to take as I may be majoring in it. Finally, physics 106 to round out my natural science requirement. The title of the course is "everyday physics", a concept which I personally don't think exists, but hey, it's only open to freshman and sophomores which means it probably isn't hardcore stuff. Sweet. Now the only question is: Will I even get into Japanese or physics? Korean is a given . . . hardly anybody studies it at the 3 or 400 level.
Well, I'm off to study theater. Got a good 200 pages ahead of me to read. White Snake . . . Oooo.
3.26.05
Jealousy, hate, and bitterness. Not exactly the best ingredients for a healthy relationship, eh?
Well, just gotta deal with it. With that and the fact that I'm going to be ass poor
for quite a while. Oh, but the good news is that I can actually major in Asian languages.
I will however still have to take some culture classes. That's ok, as long as the focus
is languages. Whee.