My Poems
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In Fear Of A Broken Heart

My pillow still wet
By the tears I had shed
During the long and cold night
My heart and mind in a bitter fight

I saw you wondering what it could be
Intensely wanting to comfort me
Closing my eyes, I was afraid
You'd be hurt by the decision I made

I just couldn't tell you yet
I didn't want to lose what we had
But I knew I had to leave you
It was the only thing I could do

It was my past that stood between you and me
It had made me uncertain and destined it to be
That every time love came on my way
I couldn't handle it and had to run away

Too often had I been hurt in the past
And I lost my belief that true love could last
But somewhere deep inside
I still had some hope, so I still tried

Each time I hoped to be proven wrong
But then I felt an urge so strong
Compelling me to leave and run
Before this love too would be gone

I hoped it would be different now I've met you
Your love is just too good to be true
But I guess I'm just too scared
And overwhelmed by the happiness we shared

You're the best that could happen to me
And I'd just die if I had to see
That your love would slowly dissapear
And that you wouldn't want me near

I hope you can forgive me someday
And please try to understand me when I say
I truly hate myself for leaving you
But staying is something I just can't do

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The past is gone...

I looked up to the stars in the sky
And slowly uttered a silent cry
The pain inside had grown so strong
The pain I had kept hidden for so long
And I was afraid to see
That it had overpowered me
It couldn't just dissapear
Like I couldn't neglect my fear
Of being lost and lonely
And of people pitying me
I couldn't afford to lose my pride
It was all I had left so I tried
Acting like everything was the same
But at night I had to face the shame
For lying to the ones I loved and cared for
And thinking of it my pain grew even more
But then there was this change in me
When I finally had the courage to see
And realised that this couldn't go on
Because the past was all gone
And I just had to start over again
By accepting it and believing I can
By regaining my worthiness
And thus my happiness

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The sound of the rain...

Laying in my bed last night
Silently holding my pillow tight
I listened to the sound of the rain
As it comforted me and soothed my pain
Of losing the love you gave me
Because you wanted to be free
You broke my heart and it wasn't fair
But you just didn't seem to care
With tears in my eyes I begged you to stay
Yet you turned and walked away
Now a year has gone by
I sometimes still have to cry
But then I listen to the sound of the rain
Letting it sooth my pain
And help me forget my sorrow
In hope of a better tomorrow...

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