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Tuesday
3-30-04
Hey :) Guess what, not only have figured out how to work around losing
my
nifty little program, but I've also gone ahead and created two NEW web
pages!
Yeah...
so you'll have to check them out. Of course webdesign is highly
time
consuming,
so there's not much to these things at the moment (priorities and all)
but I
have BIG plans! So keep note. Oh, and they have guests books, so
on with
the
comments! Love ya'll
Heart of Fire Ministries
- the site for my prayer & ministry partners
Ames' - this one is for
personal use and may include who knows what!
I'm thinking about a page for recipes
mmmm....
Friday
3-29-04
Well... I dont think I've solved my problem... I am making a bit of
progress towards
working around it though :) And I'm going to take a "learn how to build
websites and
other visual graphics type dealioes" in the fall semester. That
will be very good.
There's
a whole lot going on right now, I'll try to get it on here asap.
Just please keep
me in your prayers! And send me an email... I'd love to hear from
you.
In
Christ, Moi
Thursday
3-4-04
Hello - Long time no see :) I had my computer
reformated
or whatever and
lost the stuff for my page editor,
so I'm trying
something new now so that I can at least update the journal.
I'm still
alive! Amazing things are happening.
Love ya'll
& keep up the prayers.
Tuesday
11-11-03
Hey :) Well, I'm home again after a long
weekend to PA for a wedding.
The jetlag
really got to me - even in the same time zone! But I'm feeling
a bit more
like normal today, although my school work is getting a little
dicy (only a
few more weeks left before finals - eek!) and I came to my
quiet time
this morning looking for guidance and reassurance from God.
I want to
share with you something I found in my reading that has been
just what I
needed to hear. Psalm 127:1&2
1 Unless the LORD builds the house,
They labor in vain who
build it; Unless the LORD guards the city, The
watchman
keeps
awake in vain. 2 It is vain for
you to rise up early, To retire
late, To eat the bread of
painful labors;
For He gives to His
beloved even in his sleep.
Amen! :)
Now I'm going
to go have some breakfast and get to work on the day 
Tuesday
11-04-03
Hello 
It's a lovely dreary
spritzing day today and I just thought I'd share
something...
I have this chat friend from some Africanish country
like either Nigeria or maybe India but
I'm thinking its' Nigeria... anyway she has been
trying to make some money by selling ice
water and business hasnt been so good. So
today I suggested she try selling Lemonade.
She had never heard of it. So I explained it
to her and said it might be a great thing since
it's a novelty in that area but she replied that she
didnt have the money to purchase the
lemon juice or the sugar. And yet she has
internet connection. Amazing isnt it? Oh! she
says she's in Ghana. Now we know. And
she says internet is 1 Cede but lemon and sugar
would be 100 cedis! wow... and she says that
100 Cedis is about $70. Yikes. But she also
says that she sells her ice water
for 200 Cedis! Who can understand?
And another
thing - we are out of milk. We've been out of milk for several
days and
I'll tell you you never realize how much you use
milk until you dont have it. We may not
have the most inspiring selection of cereal, but
still! Breakfast without milk is nigh on
impossible! And orange juice is just weird in
the morning.
Monday
11-03-03
So I've been up this morning since about 4am off and
on the computer waiting for
pre-registration to open up
and lock in my place next semester. Apparently that doesnt
really start until 7am, but I did get the schedule I
had hoped for and it looks like everything's
a go. And I think my computer's desperately
crying out for a healthy reboot, so... I should
handle that, and I need to make a phone call, but
let me first say that
*drumroll*
Okay so over the weekend we went and saw the new
movie Brother Bear and wow, I need to
check and see what rating that had because it was a
bit rough on the little kids - there was a
grandmother behind me consoling one of her little ones and
telling it there was no way they
could understand what was going on and it was just a
bad movie... and well yeah I cried a lot
and it was sad and stuff but it was a pretty good
movie and I laughed too. So take it as you
may, I'm still looking for the rating but I would
say it should be a PG ...definitly not G.
Friday
10-31-03
Happy Halloween!
(you know me and the bouncie stuff)
Long time no
see - Welcome back. I'm sorry, by the time I thought to come
write something
in here, my brain is
totally fried. I should really go to bed but I'm being
increadibly stubborn.
That being because I'd
like to be out prancing around in the butterfly wings I made out of
6
guage copper ground wire,
but oh well ...all good things must come to an end. And can you
believe? I
never even got any candy corn. Bummer.
See you soon! 
Thursday
10-23-03
Hello 
So, what to say - oh
yeah! So I was workin on the page here the
other night, Tues or
Wed night it was - when suddenly the power went
*Pow* and off it all went. The Duke Power
guys were summoned and proceeded to spend the rest
of the night running up and down the
(dead end) street in two different trucks (at the
same time) causing dogs to bark and causing
at least four extremely loud explosions, like
gunshots until about 4:30am when the power came
back on again. Wow, huh?
I used the time to sit and write letters by candle light to a
bunch
of
people and had so much fun doing it that I plan to
make it a regular occurrence (minus the power
shortage part). Church Wednesday night was a
blast, I really enjoyed it, and my head allergy
mess cleared up enough that I could actually enjoy
singing - that Messiah, wow, that keeps you
on your toes.
And can you believe it's time to pre register for
Spring classes already?! I've met with an advisor
at least
once already, and after taking the General Psych graduation requirement
check sheet and
comparing it with the Psychology/K-6 Licensure graduation
requirement check sheet (the latter
being the program I'm currently
involved with) I discovered that it would take at least 59 more credit
hours to finish ...unless I went with strictly Psych
and then it would only take 27 hours. I do feel
like I have learned a whole lot
from the ED classes I've had, but I do think it's a bit excessive - at
least for someone who's not planning on being a
public school teacher.
So then I had to set about figuring out my game
plan, now that I can be done by Christmas next
year! (hallelujah) but I do need to speak with the
Department Chair before I go off half-cocked and
find out all the secrets about
the situation (like why Psych 313 isn't offered in the Spring).
A lot will also depend on if I
get the Internship with Samaritan's Purse. If I do, that will be
an
amazing opportunity, but if I don't, then I will be
able to take the Humanities course over the summer
(a much nicer alternative to me
than taking it during a regular semester). So, we'll see - I know
God
has it all worked out 
(He's such a stud)
So now I shall take my leave for the evening - I'm
growing leaves *(note: reference to
Cinderella when
midnight
struck and her carriage turned into a pumpkin)
Monday
10-20-03
11:51 p.m.
It's been about a week since my last entry. My
computer monitor finally bit the dust about
Thursday and I was in a quandary as to what to
do about it since I haven't the
money for a new
one, or a used one for that
matter. Then my grandmother was talking to my mom about some
property she saw offered in the
paper with a free farmhouse and she wanted to go look at it.
So I tried to pull it up online
and found an offer for free computer stuff etc. I didn't call
until
Saturday and no one answered.
So Sunday I went to Sunday School and one of the ladies
asked if anyone needed a computer
desk, she had one she wanted to get rid of, or trade for
a smaller one. I said that
I needed a monitor! The guy next to her said he had a monitor, he
needed a desk. So the two
of them conspired together. Meanwhile another guy told me that
at the Habitat for Humanity
store, he had seen about four computer monitors for about $10
each. So early this
morning...10ish... I drove down there and found they had a monitor that
was
exactly like the one I already
had, but bigger! woohoo :) So I purchased it and brought it
home.
God is so wonderful, isn't he?
And he provides in the most amazing ways. So thank you to
Dawn and thank you to Doug for
allowing God to work through you to provide for the needs of
His kids.
Thank you Jesus!!
Sunday
10-12-03
10:05 p.m.
So here I am minding my own
business writing on my homework (honest) when I keep hearing
these sounds...but the cats are
all outside. Finally I get up and check it
out... this MOUSE is
lookin at me with his nose poked out of my
bookshelf!! So I hurry and
close the door then go out and
grab Zipper and plop her down over by where
he was. She's totally oblivious. Finally she sees him
and
well the thing squeaks and makes a run at her, she jumps and high-tails
it out of there! Some
attack cat... So basically, there's a mouse
loose in my office! I think he's in the closet or behind the
other bookcase, that's where I'd be. Or
maybe he made his escape by
now through the open
balcony door. I put some cat
foodout to attract him out of hiding, but the cat ate it. Go
figure.
10:22 a.m.
I need to leave in a very few minutes so I can
get
to church in plenty of time, but I wanted to
stop by and record some things from my
morning devotion. It was talking about weakness
and strength and how God wants to use our
weaknesses. That's all well and good, most
people know that already. But there was
something else it said - it quoted this guy who said,
"Christians are like snowflakes.
Individually they're very fragile, but when they all stick
together they stop traffic". Therefor
we should come together and share our weaknesses
because someone can learn
from them - but more than that I realized that ... well take this
for example. Sometimes when I am in a
very depressed mood, the most sure fire way of
getting me to stop is to give me an
opportunity to help someone else. So, if you were to
pretend like you were fine and didn't
share your weakness with me, then you would miss an
opportunity to have me help you and at the
same time, cause my spirits to be lifted out of the
depression I was in. Cool huh?
Now I should get going before I'm late ~ Love ya 
Saturday
10-11-03
5:19 p.m.
You would
think that having had so much experience with being sick that I would
have
learned
the best thing to do is just
rest and try to get better instead of being "responsible" and
try to
work through my ickiness, but
nooo... I gotta try anyway, and end up neither resting nor
accomplishing the work I was attempting. Oh well, try try again :)
I talked with one of the
ministers at church and asked about a beginners guitar class - he
seemed
optimistic and said he'd talk
with the music guy about it. Woohoo! Cross my fingers
and
pray it will work out so I can learn how to play the guitar I own with
such a lovely sound.
God is the
coolest. 
PS - does
anyone understand why iced tea irritates a sore throat?
Friday
10-10-03
4:10 p.m.
Wow. Long time, no see, huh? Almost five
months. It was a good summer, one
unlike
any other I've ever had. Seems life is like that. This
semester has been good too,
it's caught me a bit off
guard by how much easier everything
seems to be - which tempts
me to
be more slack in my study habits.
Okay, so obviously a lot has happened since May, so let's go over
the basics...
The
basics are a bit more lengthy that you might think, but I've tried to
keep the paragraphs
short.
:)
I'm not working at the YMCA any more so that I can focus more of
my time and energy
on
school. I must have gotten spoiled by attending the community
college because that
first semester back in the
University saddle really kicked my
butt. I took my language
requirements over the
summer and got to learn more about the
German language with a fun
group of
people and an excellent professor. Early this year I knew that
mission trips etc.
would
not be in my schedule, so I was interested to see what God had in
store. He said it
would be
a year with some big life changes and I kept the hope that they would
be positive
ones! :)
There
is plenty of deep, insightful stuff that's gone on this year, but
the short of the story (to
get you up to date) is that since I last
wrote, I finally made the breakthrough in my spiritual walk
that must come to every maturing Christian
sometime in their developing walk with Christ. Ever
since I got back from Germany last summer
and committed to going back to school, I've felt this
void and absence of the presence of God
in my life like I had come used to knowing. It was like
nothing I could do could break through
this brick wall that kept me from Him. I would try to pray
but I
felt mute, I even tried screaming, but the sound was cut off before it
was birthed in my throat.
When I tried reading the Bible, the words
were so meaningless and dead that each line was a lead
brick on my back. I tried confessing
my sins - any sin I could think of or that might be remotely
possible, yet there was no relief. I
tried seeking counsel,
but no
one seemed to understand. I tried
praying despite my silence... it was ineffective. The only
time I
felt any strength in prayer was at Bible
Study on Wednesday nights when the whole church would
be praying in groups, then, under the
blanket of prayer I found the freedom to pray. But that
freedom was so brief and fleeting.
It was a very frustrating and depressing thing. I had decided
earlier that year that had Christ never
found me and invited me to him, I could not survive in the
world today. I knew that no matter
what happened, I could survive and somehow make it through
because I had Him. But now that
I had discovered a new closeness with him, it had all been
taken
away and try as I could, it would not come back. My father
resigned as pastor from a
local
church and now we were all drifting in search of a new church home.
I started going to
First Baptist and one
sunday morning as I sat listening to the message, I decided that after
everything God had done
for me, all the love, mercy, forgiveness... even the few years I
had
known
that, after everything he'd done for me, even if I never felt him
again, even if he chose to
remain seemingly distant,
I decided that I would still love
him, no matter what. And that even
if I
never found a way to break through that brick wall, I would firmly
stand up for him and believe
in his
ability to change the lives of people.
In retrospect, I can see how since that moment, little by little
that wall has been crumbling
down again and his
light is in my life once again. I am timid now so that I don't
take it for granted.
I don't ever want to
be facing that wall again, but I think that one day I will again be
tested in a new
way. And once I
find that key, I'll have grown so much while in the dark.
They
say that sometimes Christians backslide and start regressing in
their walk. I think
the
analogy is a bit incorrect. We don't backslide, we keep going on,
sometimes we're just in
the dark
and we cant see the progress we're making, but once we finally come out
in the light,
we can see where we've
been and how much we can take from it.
The bible teaches us that
we as true
Christians will preserver to the end. We keep on keeping' on.
Another
event that had an impact in my life - my sister started dating this
Evangelist guy.
Boy if
that wont bring a bit of exhortation into your life. Always
running around and thinking,
"Oh what
would he say about this?!" It's a nice way of keeping
accountable. I mean if you're
worried about what he's
thinking because he's so hard core about what the bible says, you
can only
imagine what Christ must be thinking, right? At first I was
defensive and thought,
"Who
does he think he is running around casting judgment on everyone,
there's gotta be
something that needs work on him too." and for a time I looked
for that. But you know,
we all
have things that need improvement - there are better things to spend
time on than
judging
how other Christians are measuring up to our expectations for their
lives. God has
given us
special gifts and if we don't use them, we're dishonoring him. We
should use the
gifts
others have to help improve our weak spots and not be so worried about
improving
their
weaknesses. If we concentrate on working out of our strengths and
improving our
weaknesses, other people
will be taken care of by the prompting of the Holy Spirit.
It's an
interesting thing how you can know and understand something but not
really be
intimate
with that knowledge until it has somehow been applied directly to your
life. Then it's
as if
that truth becomes a part of who you are. Something that has
touched me like that lately
is how
we shouldn't be worried about getting "out there" and serving God as if
the world, and
his
plan, would fall apart without us. I knew that, I'd heard it a
million times and agreed with it.
But I'm
guilty of being impatient to serve God. I wasn't trying to be
arrogant about it, perhaps
that's where I
misled myself. I really did want to be out there doing what every
good Christian
should be doing, helping
others. For some reason I have a hard time seeing "going to
school"
as
something that honors and serves God.
So anyway,
I heard that one of the Sunday School classes at church was doing
the
"Purpose
Driven Life" study, so when I was in Walmart one day, I saw a copy and
bought it.
I've
been going through it and wow... it's been very helpful. I've
found that many things I read
are
things I had come to a realization about a few days before, and it was
just confirming that.
Some things were a new
approach for me, and some things were just knowledge, but didn't
speak to
me directly. I've read several good books lately and one of them
is "Wild at Heart"
awesome, awesome book.
It's primarily directed toward men, but it really helped me a
whole
lot.
I highly highly very much definitely recommend it to anyone and
everyone. I've also been
able to
read a few of Franklin Graham's books. It's amazing how much his
writing style is like
my own. His stories
were also inspiring. I found
those books while I was checking out the
Samaritan's Purse web
site. I was looking for job opportunities for my parents.
I also found a
Student Internship they
offer and sent in an email showing my
interest. All of this has led me
to be
very inspired to grow solid and strong on God as my foundation.
An
opportunity
to help with the Mountain State Fair Ministry with the Baptist Men came
up and I
was able to go for two days and drive a golf cart around, offering
rides to people who
needed assistance.
That was so much fun. My face
was sore by the end of the night from
all the
grinning I had done. Then on Thursday night just after I'd pulled
into the driveway, my
sister
came zooming in and I asked her where she was off to in such a hurry.
It seems the
Billy
Graham Training Center was
doing a course thingie at her church on Witnessing and
living
the Christian life. So, off we went to that. After that
training I definitely feel more
confident about having some kind of framework to use in
witnessing to others about Christ.
I'm not one to go strictly
by the book because life has so many variables, one small book cant
possibly work for them
all, but it's a nice background and
confidence to have. And then!
Because
of that I was able to be a counselor at the "Rock the City" concert
they organized at
the
Civic Center featuring MercyMe.
That was cool. I ran into one of the ladies I met at the
Fair
Ministry who was a counselor at the concert as well. And I made a
new friend while we
were
waiting for the doors to open. Then I was able to go down on the
floor and help a girl
who had
come at the invitation. What an honor that was. And I
learned a lot. I learned "Take
ear
plugs with you to live concerts".
Another thing God's worked
through is the orchestra and choir and wednesday night bible
study at church. Usually I have
a wed night class, so I cant attend. But this semester he
worked
it out so that my professor allows us to attend whichever section we
want to, as long
as we go
to one of them. So now I'm able to attend Wed night bible study
and go to the
required
practices for orchestra, and I went ahead and joined the choir.
So much fun. Music
isn't necessarily one of
my "main gifts", but I really enjoy
it and it's not like I'm really bad.
I'd like
to look into having them teach a beginners guitar class. (guitars are
good for singing
and
playing at the same time and they're portable. I play the piano,
but it's not very portable,
and I
haven't figured out how to sing while I play my flute)
Another thing I'm really enjoying
about FBC is their mission heart. October 4th was
"Operation InAsMuch" where members
volunteered
to go out into the community and help
people
who needed work done on their houses, etc. I was lucky enough to
be on two
different teams. The first one met at 9 am and helped a
lady who had trimmed her bushes,
but
needed the trimmings carried to the burn pile. We were able to do
that and also weed
her
garden and clean up some more around the front of the house. The
whole job took about
an hour,
and with the rest of the day left over, we went back to the church to
get another
assignment. There
was a couple who had been assigned to a back porch that needed
painting
and they needed more help, so two of us went over there with some
lunch. It was
amazing
how well we all got along and how smoothly we worked together.
You could
definitely tell that God's spirit was all over this town. I
know that the prayers who were back
at the
church played a big part in the success of that day.
It was
also neat to meet up with one of my friends after church Sunday morning
and as
we were
catching up, he told me about one of the ladies from the church who is
a missionary
in Africa.
I gave my email address, and her weekly letter was forwarded to
me so I could get
in
contact with her. She's working as a Journeyman with the IMB and
she said that from what
I had
told her, our lives seemed very similar, so I'm excited to get to know
her better as well.
And so
right now there isn't anything else planned for the immediate future,
but I did
receive
an email from Samaritan's Purse today with some FAQs regarding the
Internship this
upcoming Summer. I'm very
excited about it and I hope that God has it worked into his plan
for me.
I really really need prayer for this. I think it would be
an excellent opportunity to do
some
hands on "meet the need" type work that I have come to recognize as
what sparks that
light in
my heart. And it would be great exposure to the things necessary
and needed for such
a
lifestyle so that as I complete my education I can be taking educated
steps towards wise
preparation. As I've
told someone else, I need a box to work out of - that's the structure I
need,
without a box, it's hard
for me to find direction.
So my
main prayer requests right now are: a) God's will and provision for
the Samaritan's
Purse Internship b) Finances -
because I don't have a "real" job, I also don't have any income,
but I do still have bills
and my financial aid money is depleted so I'm trusting in God to provide
funding to sustain me for
the remainder of the semester. Transportation is a big chunk
right
now as
the round trip to school each day is 60 miles and my car is
economically challenged.
Praise God the gas prices
are going down! :)
It's
been nice to catch up - please write me and let me know how you're
doing and if you have
any prayer requests. Also check
out the prayer page by clicking the link at the top of the page.
Tuesday
5-13-2003
12:04 p.m.
I have feet again!!
And
I just realized that I need to go to work :) M's too busy having
fun
with D so guess he's not gonna tag along :( Called and talked to
C last night and
giggled for an hour - wow. I slept really well.
Monday
5-12-2003
5:34 p.m.
Hello :)
I have no idea what I'm doing or anything.
I
need to call C and Miss D. I've done most of my
Arts homework, but cant bring myself to finish it up
and get started on my History stuff. *sigh* I need
some prayer!
Sunday
5-11-2003
Happy Mother's Day!
Saturday
5-10-2003
9:53 a.m.
My cat must be in on
whatever conspiracy it is that's trying to get me up way
way early and do my homework.
She comes in at about 7 a.m. every morning and
sticks her nose in my face
purring. If I roll over, she
stands on my head. Who
taught her that? My legs
are badly swollen still this
morning. They were getting
bad yesterday and last night I
wore flip-flops, but they made blisters on my feet.
I've tried a salt bath - no luck.
It hurts to walk. Maybe it's something I'm eating.
So far today I've had frosted
mini-wheats and a fudge bar. It's getting hot.
Currently it's
71 degrees, up from 67 when I started this entry. This is expected
to be the last day of deck
building - perhaps they should have started much earlier
while it was still cool.
M's off to help weed flower beds and plant roses. I'm
chilling
out with Chris Rice and jammin on
some Arts 310 homework - woohoo! :)
Last night was a lot of
fun, we had dinner at the Japanese Steak House, then took
a walk in the park - which proved very
difficult given the huge amounts of food I had
consumed *ouch*, then went to the theater and
jabbered in the empty room while we
waited for the movie to start. After the
movie started, two other people came in, so
it was a cozy 4 who gathered at 9:40 to watch "Holes".
What
a cool movie. I've been
wanting to see it because I've heard that kids
love the book. I'd ordered the book, but
hadn't had time to read it yet. I
recommend you get out right now and go see it!
Miss
L.'s gonna jump my case if I don't take M over to meet her. Never
fear,
there's plenty
of time! But A has a note I need to deliver. You know,
all this use of
initials only gets to be really
confusing eventually. Oh well :) Welcome to the State
of Confusion!
The thought
for today is about what our
relationship is between success and God's
presence in our lives. Are
we willing to have success without God? Henry Blackaby
warns us that, "Success
in the world's eyes is not a sign of God's blessing. It may, in
fact, indicate that you have
chosen a substitute for intimate fellowship with God. "
May we keep that intimate
fellowship with our Father. You can find daily devotions
by H.B. at http://namb.com/root/beonmission/devotions/
It changes each day, so
keep up! (Note:
this is a great resource site)
Thursday
5-8-2003
8:22 a.m.
Wow...what an amazing morning this is. When I
looked outside it was so
gorgeous.
Like... emeralds and jade and other green gems sparkling in this
amazing
light that
just seemed to dance and live a song on the leaves. And still,
everything so
still and
quiet like
a dream or a secret after it's whispered. Way to go, God!
:)
So here's the
plan for today - Go to work and finish the board I didn't get done
yesterday...
come back and dive into my Arts & Ideas critiques, reflections,
midterm
and final exam
(whew). Tomorrow is just History I needclass and to
remember to
take
those
evaluations by
the office... Monday no school (our final was due for history on
Monday, but
the class right before us is the very same as ours, and they don't have
to
turn their
stuff in
until Friday, so we explained all this to her and she said we
did have a
disadvantage
so she
let us wait until Thursday). No school Tuesday.
Wednesday I have
my 4-Block day
to present for class at 6pm. Thursday no school, but that paper's
due.
Friday is the
psych
test for the first one I missed. Then I'm done! Hallelujah!
And then
I have a date... *grins*
I'm thinking
that a couple of guys I know will be workin on a certain deck today.
Wednesday
5-7-2003
9:49 a.m.
Wow... long
time no see. Things must have gotten really hectic hum?
Let's see,
Saturday
we went to see Chris Rice
in concert - that was awesome he is
sooo cool. My uncle, aunt, sister and her friend were
all able to go with us. woohoo!
It was great, I got his new CD and a couple of piano/guitar/vocal books
*bounce*
Sunday I went
to church and didn't play my flute in the orchestra, have to go
to practice to
do that and right now I have class on wednesdays so..that'll have to
wait,
unfortunately :(
Monday
- didn't get much sleep as I was writinnng a psych paper with any
strength
I could rustle up. Handed that in and took my 4th Psych
test, went to History class and
then wrote/built/illustrated my book for class. Handed that in
(the cover wasn't attached
yet) and showed my Prof. the original version I did in 2nd grade
:) Grabbed some pickles
and sandwiches and came back home to do I have no idea what.
Tuesday
- got up really early and drove down tooo Greenville SC to attend the
YMCA
University. I was in the SOS class (Simply Outrageous Service)
and wow how cool was
that. It wasn't anything like I expected, and I thoroughly
enjoyed it. Everything was so
amazingly well organized and hassle free. I even got
a cool bag thingie that will serve
some kind of purpose, I'm sure. I thought I'd have to leave
class early, but the teacher
actually let us go just after 4 and I zipped out of there and
right back to UNCA for my
Arts class where everyone presented their final exam (Which I didn't
know about because
I couldn't make it to last week's class...oops) Then I came home
and vegged out.
This morning was up and
at them at 7am to work ...change signs in the lobby and
out by the street, got soaked in the process. I wore
a hat, but the top was missing (just
a visor) so that didn't help too very much. Came home
and took a shower, even if it was
thundering, and started a
load of laundry. Now I've gotta do some reading for my history
class today. *whew*
Friday
5-2-2003
9:43 a.m.
Workin on the Psych paper, listening to Chris
Rice's
"the Living Room Sessions" CD.
Gorgeous day outside, currently 61 degrees.
Hear the sound of a saw downstairs.
9:11 a.m.
French
toast, scrambled eggs and bacon.
8:02 a.m.
If
you
were gonna make breakfast, what would you fix?
4:34 a.m.
I am so sleepy. And weird
mixed
up dreams last night too. That's what I get
for eatin' garlic bread for dinner. :) So some people have begun
wondering if I'm still alive
and what
I'm doing. I'm ok, I'm just insanely busy. So much work to
do and I keep
weird
hours (Because I don't get it done during regular
hours so..)
Yesterday we got tickets for the Chris Rice concert
on Sat night and then went and
visited H&R, invited them to the concert and
basically told them they had to come whether
they liked it or not cause we done got the tickets
for em :) But then it was really late when
we got
home and my brain cocouldn't evenmprehend the junk mail,
much less my psych
paper. ha *groan* So, that's why I'm here, and
... I'm hungry. So I'm gonna say hi to ya'll
(Hi) and go find me some brain food...(not cookies)
but ya know cookies are
so much
easier to eat...why cant they be brain food too?
I'm sure I only hear the mouse
running his wheel at night, gotta put more chapstick on
that thing. (the wheel, not the mouse). I
guess if it doesn't rain today there will be more
deck building.
Will someone please tell me what
an IV is?! Grr...
Currently 56
degrees and foggy. With a daytime high of 76 or something. I'm cold. I
really
need to
invest in shorts. And an apron. Will someone tell me what a
mosquito would
want
with my shoulder blade? At least it's the left one this time.
I'm a little teapot!... doodlie
doodlie
doo...mdubmo..
Thursday
5-1-2003
8:46 a.m.
Good Morning,
Good Morning, Good Morning, it's time to rise and shine!
(repeat a bazillion times cheerfully and smile as if
just saying these words make
you a happy person) Ahhh...memories from my
childhood. So, where's breakfast?
I'm hungry. Shower, clothes (kinda, not sure
they match) and no idea what order
things will be done today, but I want some food.
Oh, guess what was in my junkmail
box today? A thingie for mosquito repellers!
yeah no kidding, here's the . web site
http://www2.pulsetv.com/st/prodinfo.asp?number=1519C
So maybe you should definitely go check this thing
out and order me some ASAP hehee..
I found
one (mosquito bite) on my right ankle. What's up with the right
side of my body,
anyway?
D and M are
off to conquer the deck world, after some other things and uh, yeah.
Chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargeeee!!!
Wednesday
4-30-2003
11:23 a.m.
You are
getting veeeerry sleeeepy...
Okay, so looks like today's the first day for
shorts. (iee! cover your eyes, quick)
Where are my super strong shades?
It's bad when even YOU are blinded by your own
whiteness! Oh yes but
people will be too impressed with my matching top and flip-flops
to notice...I'm sure. So here we go to
face the lions! Pray for me - I sent an email to my
Psych prof about our paper.
*crosses her fingers* and my History Prof, and then..
Dont let me run off without a
book for tonight's Four-Block cram session! :) Bring on
the crayons! woohooo... I'm doin'
sixth grade, must remember..sixth grade...
If you Love
me, Baby...smile
9:22 a.m.
I've had a shower, and a wake up call, in reverse
order. I've started my small
pile of
necessary laundry and I've read
my junk mail for the day. Now it's time to go dry my
hair and figure out what on earth
I'm going to wear. I have mountains...and ravines of
clothes in my floor that are in
no order at all and most of them need to be shoved in the
duffle bag and hug up as a
make-shift boxing bag. Even the cats have given up sleeping
with me or even in the same room,
since there is no surface safe to lay on. The mouse
is still weird and maybe tomorrow
I'll let him get out. My bulbs still haven't sprouted even
the tiniest little bit and I'm
dissapointed in that, hope they show some green soon. I have
no idea what to have for breakfast, I might
skip it and have a salad at school, or something.
yay! *bounce* ok, must dry
my hair...
2:46 a.m.
Found another
mosquito bite half way between the
other two. It's right next to a
freckle, too. I need to read my journal,
but even though my body and brain are willing,
they're just not up to it right now.
Maybe I'll sleep another hour or so here on the couch
and give it another shot. He's coming to
see me today :) Yay!
Think I'll try making the Prayer Room... If you have
anything you want to go on it too,
just email me. I lit a
candle and set it next to the monitor to add a little warmth to the
harsh glow of the screen.
Now there are tiny bugs all over the screen going, "Let me in!"
Currently 52 degrees at the airport and I cant type
worth a flip. Brr... 30 % chance
of
isolated thunderstorms, but you can see the green globs off the TN
boarder. There was
a
lot of thunder yesterday, not sure if it ever rained here, or not.
My sinuses are loving the
pollen. That's why God made
Sudafed! :)
I'm sleepy
Tuesday
4-29-2003
4:15 p.m.
Actually, the mosquito bites are
on my right wrist and elbow. I'm not sure why
I said left... from your POV maybe it's the left
one. :)
4:11 p.m.
Have you ever
seen a mouse curl up and go to sleep with it's tail sticking straight
up like an antennae?
Silly mouse...
I found another mosquito bite, my left elbow.
1:42 p.m.
Well, I had thought I'd saved and updated my lunch entry, but I guess
something happened to it...
the PC , fairies
I suppose. Or the mouse. He's a sneaky little booger, you
know. I had a sammich
and some chips and tea and now I'm back to work :)
PS - I think I got my first
mosquito bite of the season last night..it's on my left wrist..
9:40 a.m.
Good Morning :) It's a beautiful day. I
could see little bits of the sunrise like shattered glass
through
the leaves of the neighbor's tree. It was red, and
as it got higher it changed to orange
and
yellow. It's kinda cool. Like you're being sneaky and
watching the sun get dressed for the day.
Even
with all that I didn't want to get up. I slept rather
well last night and I just wanted to sleep some
more. I feel like Sleep is that precious thing that
no one gets enough of, making it's value even higher.
But, I forgot to go
to work yesterday, so I needed to get there and get it done before
everyone else
showed up. I'm sure they wonder why I even come
in for all the work I do and...but... I'm just so
insanely busy. Do you know what I have still to do in the next
two weeks? Three History papers, a
Psych
paper, three Lang Arts projects and a whole bag full
of Arts & Ideas responses. *sigh* Lord
give me strength :) Just roll the burdons
onto him... I just hope I don't break out in hives or chicken
pox or something over the stress. I always
think I'm ok, then my body shows me how far into denial
I am.
Seems like I'm always trying to take on the world from the Back
Door. I think I'll put all my
assignments
on my web site so I can keep myself accountable for the
things I get done / need to do
etc. Besides, I like workin on my , web
siteand if that helps me get things done faster, then woohoo!
Okay, so here's me going to take advantage of
my slight boost in motivation :) Love ya
Monday
4-28-2003
8:44 p.m.
I'm beginning to see a trend on these
journalie
things, and it's only my second one. It was a really
pretty day
today. I have no idea what's in my head. I think I'll make
a page for all my creative gobbliey
gook.
The good stuff and the bad stuff :)
I made a cake for the Family get-together on Sunday. It was an
idea I got from the betty crocker
, web site I think. A hamburger cake. It was really cool.
It's, well you can probably use about any kind
of cake, but I made
a pound cake, then the icing is peanut butter, and you make that for
the bun, and
then you
add a little cocoa for the hamburger meat part... then you squeeze a
little red and green icing
around
to make it look like lettuce and ketchup. It was really neat.
You even put sesame seeds on the
top.
That makes it perfect. And my cake fell, so it looked like
someone had sat on the bun! Oh, and I
used
pure almond extract instead of almond flavoring, so the pound cake is
very almondy... and I forgot to
flour
the cake pans, so the things stuck.
God is so awesome.
You know maybe a page for prayer requests would be
a good idea too... hmmm...
So what's
today's devotional about..Jeremiah 45:5 "Thy life will I give thee for
a
prey in all places whither
thou goest." okay
and in English that means...that wherever you go, even into hell, you
will come out
with
your life. So this supports the doctrine of "once saved, always
saved" and "you cannot lose your
salvation". Ooh... I like this.. it's the key to happy
living.. listen "The way to get out of that state
(yuckieness) is to abandon to God...you will be the most suprised and
delighted creature on earth." So..
no
matter what comes, what decisions I face, how my life goes, I should
always trust and abandon myself
to God and
his plan, his will, His love. Hmm... Sometimes it's hard
though, 'cause we get so caught up
in trying to do the right thing, we miss what God is showing us.
Zipper's been really lovable lately, and a little attention monger.
We've had to open the windows n doors
during
the day cause the weather's been so nice, but then the bugs come in at
night - I don't like using
screens, they
don't
look nice. The dogs got into a fight yesterday at the
farm with another dog, that's so
unnerving.
It
all started when the coyotes started roaming around the neighborhood.
We used to let the
dogs run around
free, but then they started fighting the coyotes, and then started
jumping on the neighbor's
dogs too...
so we had to lock them up. Kinda sad. They're such good
dogs.
It's almost
time for lightning bugs to come out... I've heard they're really hard
to catch in Kansas... maybe
they're slower around
here. I never got enough for them to light up the room when I put
them all in a jar, and
then they were all dead the next
morning, that was always a bumer..even when I put grass in and poked
holes
in the
lid of
the jar... Go figure. I wonder if scientists have figured out
how/why they light up... I remember
as a kid they
still didn't know and I was shocked.
So
this summer all my dad's family is supposed to be heading down to the
beach for a week and we're
all invited.
Since I have school I wont be able to leave until Thursday,
but they're all excited about it. Dad'll
be the only guy there though cause the other
guys are gonna come back up on Wed or Thurs, I don't
remember which. Maybe M will be around to give him company.
And so
my aunt L gave me this cool birthday present, it's a personal, one cup
coffee maker, and even
though
I
don't like coffee, I do like hot tea and hot chocolate, so it's
perfect. And I went by walmart and
picked
up my very own mixer, since I seem to be using one a lot lately and
mom's is about to drive me
batty.
This new one is so cool, it's got 5 speeds, a boost button and a
button to retract the cord! how
cool!
I love it. Next investment is an apron. Or maybe I
can make one? ooo...
Friday
4-25-2003
8:53 p.m.
My mouse needs to go on a diet. It's like a
...well, not exactly a marshmallow.. not exactly a
cotton ball.. kindof somehow reminds me of a pillow, but that's weird.
All I know is when it scrunches
up it almost makes
a little puff ball of fur. I don't understand it. I
had to put chapstick on his wheel so
it would quit
squeaking so badly when he runs in it . He loves his wheel. But sometimes I see him
eating his wood
chips. That's weird too. And he eats the toilet paper
scraps off the little cardboard
tubes I
put
in for him to play with. Is cardboard high in fat? And it's
not like I don't let him out to run
around...
just yesterday I let him loose on the bathroom sink for a few hours.
He had a ball in the potted
plants.
Now my clean sink is powdered in potting soil. Yes I know
that was yesterday, but no I
cleaned it up yet. I didn't feel like cleaning the sink after
cleaning it. Besides, if you turn the
just
right...
It's been a really foggy day all day ... this kind of weather always
makes me think of The Hound of the
Baskervilles. I should read that story
again one of these days, I keep getting it confused with The Speckled
Band. It was cool to
read Sherlock Holmes books in school. As a teacher, I should
really be thinking
about the books that I can
inflict, uhm.. that is, educate.. my kids with. Take The
Enchanted Forest
Chronicles for example.
Now that's like a culmination of reading history. Hidden in
each story is a
special allusion to a
nursery rhyme, myth, legend or folk tale that most people have
heard before through
popular culture.
It's really great! Just like cartoons. I've really
enjoyed getting to spend so much time in
the kid's section of the
library. And now I get to write my own children's book too!
And illustrate. And
publish. There are
so many options, what should I do? Dad wants me
to re-do the story I wrote when I was
in 2nd grade. So I'm working on
plot development :-/ Weee..
