Open Your Heart

Stone Cold
Friends can be so insensitive sometimes. I am very funny and others regard me as a very gifted comedian. I love making people laugh but like them, I also have my own share of pains. The only difference I have is that I have no way of showing it. No one seems interested to listen. Couldn’t have at least my close friends sensed that I was somehow troubled? I stopped telling jokes, I was staring nowhere inattentive half the time, and my eyes were sore but no one dared to spend enough time to ask. They were like stones. That time I thought: maybe my friends are just way too selfish, they only notice me when they need me. It’s really dumb of me to place all the blame on them and it wasn’t so selfish of them but so selfish of me. I only thought of my self. I felt pain and pity for what I am going through but I never did anything concrete to start a chat about it. It was only now that I realized that I was also avoiding the subjects that hurt me. I wasn’t ready. I was scared coz I made myself believe that I was all alone. They did ask me if something was wrong but I always broke their gaze. The problem I have now is how I can actually make words out of my pains. I want to share it but I have absolutely no idea how to.

In need of help,
Crying Girl
 
 
Dear Crying Girl,
The very fact that you know what your problem is will help you out a LOT! You always have to be truthful to yourself no matter what. And now that you are facing your problems, its going to get easier and easier from here. I cannot tell you how you 'make words come out of your pains', you're the only one who can do that. What i can tell you is that no matter how little or lots you tell them, you're pains will get reduced slowly and steadily. If you keep them all inside, it'll boil up to something not very nice. (If you have problems with starting up a conversation about your pains, see how your friends do it when they talk to you! And a tip about what you should tell them ..... Tell them Exactly what you're feeling inside. Just like what you tell yourself each night/day.)
 
For things you know, you just couldn't tell anyone, you will have to learn to love yourself , respect yourself and learn more about yourself. Half your problem is solved with these three things. Remember, you have to live with yourself for the rest of your life.
 
Always there for you,
Me

 

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