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一年前的１２月，我正式知道祖母患上了紅班囊瘡。其實當時的情況也不是很差，就算進了醫院也是很快就出來的；久而久之就覺得這只是很普通的身體檢查，但到了後期才知道這是祖母她自己強行出院的。
有時候，人就是這樣的，常說自己是孤獨的、沒有人關心自己，但其實最關心自己的人就在你的身邊，只是你由始至終都沒有留意到，以為這是必然的；到失去的時候才知道自己一直在浪費著最寶貴的東西…
看著一個熟悉的人全身插滿喉管、沒有反應的睡在病床上，要靠儀器才勉強生存下去；就這樣的一個光景，我已經沒有看的勇氣。那一刻我在問自己，到底是想她撐下去還是解脫？
「沒有人知道她可以撐多久，因為她隨時也會離開。」
１２月２９日，我記得是星期六的早上，我正式知道祖母去世的消息。但我好像什麼事也沒有發生過似的，過著和平日一樣的生活，刷牙、洗面、食飯、玩電玩。
我終於知道什麼是接受不了…
直到老頭子把祖母的身份証拿出來的時候，我知道這已經是改變不了的事實…
我哭了……
Nan's Song
You said when you'd die that you'd walk with me every
day
And I'd start to cry and say please don't talk that way
With the blink of an eye the Lord came and asked you to meet
You went to a better place but He stole you away from me
And now she lives in heaven
But I know they let her out
To take care of me
There's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear she is near
Bringing heaven down here
I miss your love I miss your touch, But I'm feeling you every day
And I can almost hear you say 'You've come a long way baby'
And now you live in heaven
But I know they let you out
To take care of me
There's a strange kind of light
In my bedroom tonight
Pray silence my fear she is near
Bring your heaven down here
You taught me kings and queens
While stroking my hair
In my darkest hour I know you are there
Kneeling down beside me
Whispering my prayer
Yes there's a strange kind of light
Caressing me tonight
Pray silence my fear
She is near
Bringing heaven down here
The next time that we meet
I will bow at her feet
And say wasn't life sweet
Then we'll prepare
To take heaven down there