I dreamed I was back in college again last night. It is a reoccurring dream which usually happens about 4 times a year. I loved college. I went back as an adult with my two little boys in tow. We lived in housing provided by the University and the campus became our lives for 4 1/2 years. I had originally intended to go on to graduate school following commencement, but life's little challenges, mainly the need for money, intervened. Consequently, I have spent the last 11 years of my life doing anything but what I would have originally thought I would do.
Today I ran into the Vice President of Adult Education. Turns out that a local campus here is starting a new program that would allow me to obtain my masters with a concentration in counseling and education. I have been consumed with the thought all afternoon. There is just one problem preventing me from jumping into this - about $15,000.00. Where to come up with the replaced income from my job and tuition? No where. Where to store the dream? Somewhere out of the way and out of sight.
So, I feel a bit sorry for myself right now. And I know how wrong that is. Keith and I have a wonderful life and, though we are not rich, we are comfortable. I guess it is the death of a long-time dream which haunts me. The older I get the more I realize that this is my life. There will be no other. And it is not a bad life, and I am grateful, but old dreams die hard I guess.
I have been working on my sister Karen's Christmas socks every since I got home. And I have that feeling I may be up late tonight - so I may even be able to finish them. I purchased some candles the other day, the scent - coffee mocha. They are burning in the living room and the house is filled with the aroma. It is so cozy here, a good night to stay up and work. And since it is Thursday, well who cares if I am tired tomorrow - it will be Friday and I can stand almost anything on a Friday!
That's because Friday's at work are very nice. We can wear jeans and it is usually a very relaxed type of day. Tomorrow, I have to run to the office supply store at some point in the day to replenish our dwindling office products. I really dislike this chore, but it allows me the opportunity to come home for lunch since the store is next to my home. I also have to do some major cleaning at the office. We had our storage closet cleaned and painted for the first time in ten years. Consequently I have ten years of junk to sort through before the workmen move it all back. I also need to rearrange the main office area and move a small couch in from the other storage room to allow more seating. That little project, however, I think I will save for another day. Unlike home, where I can move stuff around until I get it just right, work has rules. Our maintenance men usually give me one quick shot at where I want something and then they are gone.
Well, I guess I will wrap this up short tonight. I spent a fair amount of time online today working on a new page with lots of graphics links and I think I am suffering from computer burnout. I hope to have the new page up by this weekend. I have also been collecting so many new links for my "humor" page, but just never seem to get the time to upload them. Maybe this weekend. Oh, I have so much planned for this weekend. I may even take some time to dream a little too.
God Bless everyone and Goodnight!
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