4:10 p.m.
Well, as usual, I continue to amaze myself. I have been trying to figure out several graphics programs for about a week now and "boom" - today I downloaded directions and guess what? They now work perfectly. As the kids say nowadays----"Well DAAAAA!"
Now why can't I do that first, just follow the directions - in all things. There is a design to the universe, you know it, and I know it! Why don't we simply follow the "directions" when deciding on a course of action? Some directions are implicit, some are subtle - whispered from deep within. I have found that the whispered ones are usually the most dangerous ones to ignore. And the easiest.
I wonder if it is society that trains us to ignore our intuition. I used to be amazingly "psychic" (for lack of a better word) as a child, sensing things as naturally as one sees the sun rise and set. But now I find I have almost lost that art and constantly second guess myself when making decisions. Where did that talent go? Why did it leave? Is it something that we just grow out of? I don't think so. I think the magic is carefully groomed out of all of us as we are readied for adulthood. I also think that our male dominated society (NO I am not a man-hater! - just a realist) has seriously influenced our intuitive senses. Even my precious Keith will sometimes scoff a bit about my intuitions, though not as much as he used to. (Too many have come true.)
There is one talent of perception I do still retain, however. And it appears that Keith and I share it equally. We seem to read each others thoughts a great deal. The frequency with which this phenomenon happens has become almost accepted by us, but every once in awhile we will still look at one another and smile that "knowing" smile of amazement. I wonder if all couples experience this to this degree? I would think if they did there would be far less divorce - it is a bonding experience somehow, we are comfortable together like a pair of (worn) slippers.
There is one frustrating aspect about our shared "ability" though. Neither of us can even guess what the other is thinking when it comes to something of a personal nature. We seem to have an uncanny ability to finish sentences, start humming the same tune, have the same opinion of another, start to say the same words or comment on the same subjects - but - as long as it has nothing to do with an issue which is emotionally charged or personally shared. It's almost like if we try to do it, we fail. So for now we will continue to amaze our friends and family in public with our uncanny "ESP" and laugh at ourselves in private about our inability to agree on almost anything. Well, that is not quite correct. Keith and I have a remarkably good relationship and the reason for that is we do agree on one thing that counts. We agree to disagree.
Wouldn't it be nice if marriages came with directions? Well, I guess they do, don't they. Don't they start out "Will you Journi, take this............"
Too bad more of us didn't listen to those directions a little more carefully at the time!
Journi
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