I wondered if I would feel guilty
for taking something that was not mine
Something that belonged to another....
in those few moments out of time
But me, I did not take... I shared
and gave all that I had to give
to the sweetest friend of all
to help him want to live

He needed her and she left him
when his need was more then most
I filled that gap of caring
and helped fight off his ghosts
gave him hugs and softest laughter
became his confidant and friend
listened to his pain-filled words
helped him find his feet again

But the heart feels what the heart feels
and our minds cannot decide
and wisdom does not touch it
the feelings you just can't hide
and time...time it does not change it
nor all the tears I cried
and wanting him only adds to it
where only friendship can abide

And much as I might have wanted
and much as I might have tried
I could not take away from her
and I never could have pried
that which was already given
in those few moments out of time
those most precious gifts to her
his love, his heart, his mind

For love is a gift freely given
and his was given long ago
only friendship is what he wishes
and me, I just can't say no
but my heart is given into his hands
unwanted and unasked for
and a caring friend I get in return
and who, who can ask for any more

But the heart feels what the heart feels
and our minds cannot decide
and wisdom does not touch it
the feelings you just can't hide
and time...time it does not change it
nor all the tears I cried
and wanting him only adds to it
where only friendship can abide

Maybe time will grant me healing
as it did my dearest one
and I'll smile again as he does
maybe dance in the morning sun
my heart might find its treasure
for a few moments out of time
he might hold me in his arms again
while I wish that he was mine

but these are only silly dreams
with no basis in reality
and life has always taught me this
these dreams, they aren't for me
for life is not a rainbow
and love, love's simply fantasy
and faith is for the dreamers
not a realist like me

But the heart feels what the heart feels
and our minds cannot decide
and wisdom does not touch it
the feelings you just can't hide
and time...time it does not change it
nor all the tears I cried
and wanting him only adds to it
where only friendship can abide

and wanting..god wanting only adds to it
and to all those tears I cried...
in those few moments out of time
where friendship, only friendship can abide....

Dreams of Never Be

wrapping myself in whispered
fantasies
dreams of never be
you and me

drifting....
drifting on this stormy sea
erotic memories
sore, shattered sensibilities

so imagine...
writhing naked on my bed
thoughts of you filling my head
soft gentle fingertips
slipping 'cross luminescent lips

nails scratching quivering thighs
bringin' glistening tears
to pain shadowed blue-green eyes

drifting....
drifting on this stormy sea
erotic memories
sore, shattered sensibilities

again imagine...
body trembling with need
passion beggin' to be freed
gasping, pleading...crying
mind-bending release then sighing...

letting go, curling back into me
from sensual dreams
to this sad lonely reality

drifting....
drifting on this stormy sea
erotic memories
sore, shattered sensibilities

then back again...

wrapping myself in whispered
fantasies
dreams of never be
you and me

Foolish

Once more you slip
into my life
and I wonder
if I am a fool for love.

But I can't turn away.
It would take more strength
then I have
deep inside my heart
to ever turn you away.

You have captivated me
from the beginning.
Your smile, your tortured heart...
your cry for understanding.

How can I say no?
I see you and my heart
does flip flops again...
just seeing your name
pop up on my screen,
and I am lost again.

Foolish Pisces lady,
in over my head
and unable to swim...
but loving the ride.

For G

didn't want to meet someone
I sure didn't want to care
but suddenly there you were
and that's all I need to know

wasn't thinking of having faith
of listening to someone new
but you I trust....
and that's all I need to know

not looking for miracles
and not hoping for the moon
just wanting your friendship
and that's all I need to know

not sure that I believe in dreams
not sure that I believe in love
but I believe in you
and that's all I need to know

that's all I really need to know....

Sexual Symphony of Sounds

a sexual symphony of sounds...
soft gentle whispers in the night
silken sheets against warm flesh
a hand gliding across bare skin
a sweet breathy laugh
fumbling in the darkness...
warm lips smacking each other
wet tongues entwining in a kiss...
hardening nipples rasping against hairy chest
slippery tongue sliding down
sibilant sound of sheets shifting
warm skin sliding down warm skin
mouth wetly suckling succulent breasts
sweet moans escaping
fingernails lightly scratching bare skin
tasting, nibbling, sucking...
indrawn breath and soft gasps
squishy wet slippery noises
skin slapping glistening skin
groans running amuck
a crescendo of screams
breathing ragged and racing
hearts pounding like trip hammers
sudden silence overwhelming
soft tender murmurs
quiet loving kisses
two breaths mingled into one
slipping into a gentle lullabye of dreams....

In Sync with Sadness

I dreamt of Knights on golden chargers
You, a Princess with Rapunzel like hair
but my knight no longer rides
and your princess became less than fair

We wandered through mists of sorrow
wrapping ourselves in loss and pain
holding it close in a lovers embrace
wondering....would we stay sane?

And then a happenstance
One of those rare chance meetings
chatting in a crowded room
we exchanged bewildered greetings

trembling with mistrust and caution
cowering in our lonely fear
aching to trust just that very little
to have a friend with listening ear

And suddenly I was not so alone
I found my heart's ease in you
A new companion, sometime lover
dear friend with heart so true

© Jasmin