08-Aug-01
Well, the axe fell as of last Wednesday.
I was fired. The company didn't have enough work to go around, and I was
the third person on a team of about 14 to be 'let go'. I spoke to a friend
there yesterday, and she said she and one other person were likely to go
before the dust settled.
So, here I sit again, at my desk in my apartment, hitting the net, looking for jobs.
I went to Ohio this past weekend to
visit my mom, sister, and highschool friends. The thing I left with was
the sense of not fitting there. I didn't belong there. That was weird,
and I know I'm not the first to experience the dreaded 'you can never go
back' feeling, but it was the first time it hit me so clearly. Who I was
there is not who I am, and I don't know if my old friends are capable of
growing to accept the new me. Also, my sister was not doing well. She'd
just had her tonsils removed, and was all drugged up from that. My mom...
well first off, I don't know if I should take it as a compliment, or assume
it's because she's been pickling her brain, but she didn't recognize me.
I was there for about 20 minutes before she figured out I was her youngest
child. Jeez, what a life.