What follows is a revision (you always want to say things better the second time around) of a brief essay I wrote to another Master who inquired. He decided He wasn't interested, but didn't tell me why. Please don't be upset that You're getting retread info. I just don't see much point in retyping the same stuff over and over again. I hope this gives You some insight into my thoughts and desires:
Physically, i'm on the short side, with a proportional build. I'm somewhat muscular (a little better than in the pics), but there's room for improvement. my eyes are narrow, but i like to think they've got a twinkle. my nose is broken. my cock is maybe a little bigger than average. i'm not particularly hairy, but i have some hair everywhere but on my back, and i'm hairiest around the crotch. Lately, i've been wearing my hair in a high and tight flattop, which is the style that i like best on other men, but never previously wore myself. I always wanted it this way though, and figured I'd better do it before i get too bald to carry it off. At that point i'l probably just shave it altogether.
As to my desires, i can get into some of most things, but as i said in my ad, i don't want and can't take too much pain. mental s/m is works much better on me than the physical kind. if You can get my head in the right space, i'll serve well (for that matter, i'll probably be able to take more). As You might guess then, the things that will put my head in that space are those thaty emphasize Your control and my servitude:
bondage - this can get pretty heavy as long as it's not made too uncomfortable. i tend to prefer leather and steel to rope, although rope has its charms and is cheap to boot. The more i'm encased, the more it'll turn me on. A thought that really turns me on is being put to bed in a full leather sleepsack with hood. That would be kind of like being put into storage just like other types of property. The idea of being caged is also hot.
bootlicking - very good at letting a boy know who's in charge. i tend to like taller boots more than combats, but being made to perform the act is more important than the type of boots.
getting fucked - i like oral sex and can certainly enjoy the subservient aspects of being on my knees in front of a Master, servicing Him, or of having my mouth used as a mere receptacle for his pleasure. Getting fucked, however, is the ultimate expression of submission and the way a Master can truly possess a boy. The most private part of the boy becomes a just a fuckhole cunt for its Owner's pleasure and use. In submitting to what is considered a feminine role, a slave is figuratively giving up the his Manhood, so that his Master can express His manhood in the most powerful way possible. That said, my own hole is very tight and too tender - it needs to be used w/ care (and a rubber these days). It helps if You get and keep my head in a proper slave space, and don't let me come (if You let me come at all) until You have had Your pleasure. i also hope that if it happened more regularly, my hole might get better accustomed to serving its proper function.
w/s - making a slave take Your piss is a powerful way to emphasize Your superior position.
enforced chastity - if a slave gives up the right to come except when his Master permits, he is essentially giving up his rights as a Man. his cock and balls are no longer his to do with as he pleases. They are instead Master's property, to use as He sees fit. If a slave's cock and balls are Master's, then so is the slave. A fantasy that has always gotten me hard is the though of having a Master who would install chastity piercings (a P.A. and a guiche under the balls) and lock them together. If that were done, the slave not only couldn't come w/o his Master's permission, he couldn't even get hard. If someone puts a lock on something and keeps the key, that's pretty strong evidence of ownership. As a somewhat less extreme alternative, the idea of being locked into an effective chastity device also appeals. [MASTER MIKE - so far not being allowed to cum is definitely tough. i'm used to jerking off once or twice a day. It's definitely making me horny. It's also hot b/c it's You taking immediate charge. It lets me know immediately that if You consent to take me as Your slave, You expect to exercise complete control.]
Body modifications - On the other hand, i don't intend to get any piercings until and unless a long-term Master requires them. Other than keeping in reasonably good shape, i don't think a slave should modify his body until he is owned. That way his Master can make the changes He wants, if any. Ultimately, i would be proud to wear some mark of a Master's ownership (i.e. a tatoo saying "property of Master______").
verbal reinforcement/abuse - this is generally a good way to get inside my head. By stating and repeating the types of things that emphasize the relative positions of Master and slave, it reinforces those positions.
smoking - to me cigars are a powerful expression of Masculinity and authority. A man smoking a big black cigar is a MAN. Smoking a pipe is also a great expression of MASCULINITY. A hot man smoking cigarettes can also get me going, if he does it like a MAN. If he smokes like a woman, then it has the opposite effect and turns me off.
hypnosis/mind control - i've never had anybody try this on me. i'm not sure that i would want them to, and i doubt i would be a good subject if they did. The whole idea is pretty immoral to boot. It is one of my strongest fantasies, however. Since i found the right sites on the web, i've most often masturbated to stories about men creating the slaves they want through hypnosis. It seems to me the ultimate in control and submission. Having a Master alter one's thoughts and behavior until it is inconceivable to be anything but His slave takes the idea of consent from the equation. The slave's concept of himself is altered in a way that the thought of not consenting simply doesn't happen. i guess this turns me on b/c it is a Master/slave relationship taken to the nth degree. Sometimes fantasies are like that.
Master, Sir, i hope You found this interesting. Hopefully it gives You
some insight into the way my mind works and what i'm hoping for from a
Master. Please let me know if You want me to elaborate on any particular
point.
Respectfully Yours,
slave lloyd
