Chapter 5

Can't Lose What You Never Had

    "Stop bawling! You don't have no reason to bawl!" Emily screamed, tears straining her face, she was crying. Sam sat on the sofa, weeping silently. Em had catched her when she wanted to leave the house, meeting Bryan. Sam tried to get away, before the other girl could start arguing and complaining. But Em had smiled slyly, and shut the door.

    After a verbal fight Sam had broke out in crying, Em had confronted her with the problem Kian-Bryan. She didn't even try to denie her own feelings, she didn't try calming herself down.

    There she stood, hands on hips, she couldn't quiete believe what she heard. Sam tried to explain her behaviour, but Em wasn't listening anymore.

    "Who do you think you are?" she asked exasperately.

    "Do you think that you can go on cheating everyone? Don't you see how much you are hurting him?" Em sobbed when thinking of Kian.

    "You don't need to make me believe that you are in love with him! I've seen you together with Bryan..."
    Samantha interrupted her furiously: "That's no proove for anything!"

    "Don't try to make me look like an idiot. I've seen you, in the park, yesterday, kissing passionately...Don't you even realize that you're not only hurting Kian, but Bryan, too? Is that so hard to understand?" Emily gasped for air.

    "Haven't you made up your damn mind yet?"

    Sam wiped away her tears.     "Who do you think you are? Care 'bout your own problems, I don't need nobody insulting me...It's not necessary that you remind me of my weak points...And don't think that I don't care. I love Bryan, but I'd never wanted to hurt anybody. For that I'm sorry. But don't try to make me feel bad, you'll never know how I feel..." She hold in for a moment.

    "And, not to forget: What's up with your great love to Bryan?? The same like me? See, here you go!"

    Emily wasn't able to speak, she was confused, no, more entangled, resentful and in a very bad mood. But there was something true in what Sam had said. It was true that she wasn't in love with Bryan, that she used him to hurt Kian, not really to hurt, more to make him understand, in a very impolite way.

    "But I broke up! I chose how to go on! I ended the relationship to Bryan, even before someone got hurt!" She tilted her head, worried. She bit her lower lip, waiting for Sam going on.

    Sam got into temper.

    "You didn't act better then me, I know that this isn't quiete right! But I don't give a damn to you and your childish problems! This is real life, not like in your fool's paradise! I know what to do, but I don't dare to, do you believe that? I really don't dare! Although I love Bryan...I just don't dare..." She dropped herself onto the sofa, crying again.

    Suddely there was a noise, a key turning to open the door. Emily glanced at the clock, half past twelve. The other girls were just coming home from their dates! Sam had disappeared, Emily quickly wiped away her tears, just as the door opened and Brianna and Hannah came in, smiling and swaggering.

    Hannah and Bry were much to tired to recognize the pressed atmospere in the room. Emily sighed with relief. She didn't want the others to know it, this situation would be hard enough for Sam. Was she now going to tell Kian the truth? She wasn't angry at Samantha, it wasn't her intent to go on at her, but this needed to be told!