DESTINY
My daughter - Please forgive me, for what all this cost you You know I would never purposely inflict pain or grief on you I couldn't help what happened to either one of us All I can really tell you - Is, God Alone, to trust I never had suspected that this would come my way Didn't even see it coming, as I lived from day to day --- But come it did, and flattened everything that was in sight Like a wrecking ball, destroying all the good - just like a blight I know you watched true horrors, due to what occurred to me But God hid me in spirit, somewhere in Eternity --- So that I escaped the terrors that you alone would bear I'm sorry that this hurt you - took you way beyond repair - But yet, inside, I know you - The strength that lies within Your beliefs are solid - They're rooted deep in HIM - I see inside, your sadness - You're lonely, to this day But life is still within you - YOU haven't gone away!! You still have things decided before you yet were born To accomplish for the Saviour - and crosses to be borne - So do not resist His calling - But, His Servant, always be Remember you're not doing just for HIM, or you - but ME You are MY voice cast outward - as well as GOD's, you see Speak forth sans hesitation - and OUR mouthpiece, be And though you're prone to question - and deep depression too Fight hard to stay above it - For God's looking after you All that you witnessed happen to me was long ago I ask you now - Step forward - You have places yet to go My life on earth was ending just as yours was at its start Know always that I'm with you - I live within your heart Step out in faith, believing, that no harm will come to you For Christ Himself is leading - His Promises are true For if I had not left you the way, I did - Today You would not be the person God ordained in every way Please realize so much depends on who you've yet to be Reach out and tell the others - That those who hear, go free This never was a vain thing for you - But life itself You cannot cease to function - Sit idly on a shelf Awake, get up, start moving - As God would have you go Because you know CHRIST loves you..... And I, too, love you so........... ©1999 Dorothy Womack
ROSES ARE BLOOMING
Roses are blooming everywhere There are beautiful gardens, golden stairs Trees of every sort and design All that you ever wanted you find Right here in God's Heaven - I'm certain that He Designed all this beauty, so that all could see How wondrous His Mercies and Goodness extends To all who would seek Him - He calls us all Friends And He makes a Place where we truly know That God is within us - and one day, we'll go Back to all this beauty, surrounded by Him Where there is no heartache, suffering or sin We find all the blessings not known to man He crowns us with Glory - This Great One - 'I AM' So please don't be saddened, despondent or grim For ROSES ARE BLOOMING - And I dwell with HIM..... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
SOMEDAY
Someday, Mom, I hope that you Are watching when my dreams come true I've waited for so long, you see To find that place for YOU and ME Where others read and are touched inside By words I've penned - Where God abides - Where everything we've done in life Proves meaningful and without strife Someday, Mom, I want your light To shine on me - Your smile so bright As you see all my dreams come true The ones I've held for ME and YOU --- I know not when or how 'twill be God keeps those things a mystery Yet, I sense every time I pray --- He'll honor US - In time - SOMEDAY...... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
BEYOND THE STARS
Beyond the stars - I know where you've gone You're dwelling in peace, in God's Eternal Home All yesterdays passed into Glorious Day --- I know in my heart that you've not gone away However, I realize, life does move along --- Beyond the stars, to where you have gone Lies treasure and beauty beyond all compare And love everlasting - For Jesus is there It is now up to me to continually stay Right in God's Presence - and ever to pray - For hope belongs to us - True freedom is ours - As we look towards our futures --- Beyond the stars..... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
MOMMA's GIFT
When I touched you, I relived the times That my mother lived - And she was mine You're different people - this is true Yet I couldn't help sensing her in you.... You see, my mother left a void which men will never fill Although I try to move ahead - I miss her even still - Just because I act the part in keeping up a front Sometimes it's hard, cuz memories open all the doors I've shut But I know you understand me - Deep within your heart - For your spirit is in tune with God and never will depart You sense His Presence flow through me - as I sense His in you And do not criticize or blame me for substituting you For I know well, inside my soul, that Mom has long since gone Into the Land of Eternal Day - She sings a brand new song - And somehow, I suspect that she has spoken unto you Cuz we are joined in one accord - We have ONE heart, not TWO.... Yes, in God's world, we're all akin - No strangers are found there We think the thoughts of Higher Realms - Our secrets are laid bare - I'm grafted in, along with you, and Mom is waiting there To usher in her brand new friend - the one with whom I've shared Your searching, grief, and confusing days Whether near or far - For you, I've prayed So, I thank you for your gifts to me For in touching you? I could also see And sense the Presence of our Lord My mother's sweetness, still adored -- You wear a different face, 'tis true But we're connected - Me and you - Yes, I will grieve when you depart To join the loved ones in your heart I will remain with your daughter, here To help her cope and withstand fear For we know best of anyone --- That you, and Mom, are with God's Son How grateful I am for your gifts to me ---- Your daughter......And your memory...... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
PLEASE DON'T CRY OVER ME
My Baby - Please don't cry over me - Don't you realize that I can still see The tears on your cheeks - and the grief in your eyes? Because I am suffering and cannot surmise Just what is happening to me, day to day But I'm safe with Jesus - He hears when I pray - I don't bear the pain that it looks like to you It is momentary, forgotten anew ---- Yet often I'm given a glimpse of beyond To what is awaiting with Jesus, the Son - I count not my struggles as anything near What Christ bore for all those whom He loved dear Please, allow me to comfort you in the midst of YOUR pain For I will be leaving - While you will remain - Your tears are for ME - Your grief, also too - But what you are missing is that I cry for YOU Because you'll face problems and obstacles still Long after I've left here - Yet, within God's will - And looking back over your trials, you will see My tears had a purpose --- Please don't cry over me ........... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
DANCING
Mom - I'm still breathing - And yet, I'm not sure why Since the day you departed - I often want to cry I want back all the things we shared --- To hold onto all the ways we cared --- To take back every wrong thing - and once again, to try To capture how it used to be - When we were in one accord Amid your suffering and my despair - We both could feel the Lord I miss those times - Every word we spoke --- We forged a bond that would not be broke --- Which nothing else in all this world could ever, me, afford I rarely feel like dancing - even though my faith in God is strong His joy is oft my portion - I sing a brand new song - Yes, each day brings opportunities --- For me to grow and grasp God's Hand on me --- To realize it is His Spirit who leads me along Mom - I know you sometimes see and glimpse a little glance Of how I'm doing lately - And understand the chance - For God has granted me more time than you --- When my work here is done - I'll come to HIM and YOU And when I get there?? On THAT day, we will dance......... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
HOLE IN MY HEART
There's a hole in my heart which not many others can see It was left there when you departed this world and ME --- I do not blame you - I wanted you to be free I longed for YOUR release, more even than for ME --- For I knew your suffering was too much for you to bear You struggled many many years and never seemed to care How bad it grew - just that God was near to keep you in His hand So nothing more could befall you than you'd have strength to stand What do I do with this hole in my heart your absence left for me? I believe in God - and His Presence, only, do I seek --- Yet, sometimes, it seems as though I'm blinded along the way And deafened to whatever God is trying hard to say --- Grief is difficult to navigate - Its turns and dips so real Although my faith in God remains - It does not change the way I feel Perhaps as I grow older - Travel farther down the road With Christ beside me - He'll rise and lift the heavy load I'll understand the blessings that came to me through hardship Watching you - Learning daily at His Hands what I cannot forget God's Love will fill the hole inside - Because He never left My side - As angels escorted you to Heaven's Gate --- For as I cried, when you were gone, and I was left alone I knew right then that God had taken you back Home --- He'd answered every prayer I prayed on behalf of you and me He always knew how deep a hole inside my heart, there'd be It seems that loving others exacts an extreme price But precious are those treasures which come from sacrifice God heals the broken hearted souls, I've come to see it's true I trust in Him and know that He will heal the hole left here from you.... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
WHAT IT's LIKE
Songs in melodious tones sound out in harmony throughout the Kingdom of God...... Mom - Is this what you HEAR 24/7?? Is this what it's like to be in Heaven?? Beauty is created simply by thoughts of God and effortless displays of His Saints...... Mom - Is this what you SEE 24/7?? Is this what it's like to be in Heaven?? Mountains and meadows - Rivers and streams - All are a part of Heaven's vast expanse...... Mom - Is this where you DWELL 24/7?? Is this what it's like to be in Heaven?? Father God, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit surround each soul in Perfect Love....... Mom - Is this where you WORSHIP 24/7?? Is this what it's like to be in Heaven?? Mom, my questions make more sense to me than they could ever make to you..... For you are already there - and it's the normal way for you Memories of all which went before has truly passed away...... Except for those whom you love - Who are not yet in Eternity So, as I pose these questions to you - Well knowing that you See - hear - dwell and worship - In God's Eternity ...... I wonder still, and ever will, my lifetime, 24/7....... Will this be what it's like for ME to be in Heaven???? © 1999 Dorothy Womack
SEE THE STARS SHINING
When you see the stars shining Please stop your pining --- For you know I'm safely hid away ---- Take note of your own steps Enter into God's rest --- From His Promises, NEVER stray --- For life is not merely a trial With only tears - But often smiles - God hears our every single prayer --- He's never left your side But ever will abide --- When you look up? You'll find Him there Yes, often you have not understood How God transforms bad into good And makes the sun come out again --- Just trust His Spirit and His Word Put total faith in Christ, the Lord, You'll find He is your Dearest Friend --- Put aside the past which is lost to you Remember what I say is true ---- Look up and see the brightly shining stars When you are sad or bereft of me --- I'm trying hard to help you see ---- The HEAVENS tell you WHERE WE ARE...... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
FOREVER - AND A DAY
In His Image - What does that really mean?? Do people actually look at ME and HIS FACE can be seen?? Am I stamped inside as sanctified because I once believed Upon Jesus Christ, and all He did - and by His Grace, received Eternal Life - My destiny - And now these changes show Regardless how I feel today - To God, I'll surely go - When my time on earth is done and Paradise begins I'll reunite with God, with Christ, and all my long lost friends God's Spirit will bear me upon His wings of love --- Angels hover closely to guide me up above --- My mother will be dancing - Her laughter, overflow Because my mission here is finished - and to Heaven, I can go!! Yes, questions will be answered and all needs will be met Once I arrive on Golden Shores, I'll instantly forget Everything that hindered me and kept me from His Way --- And I'll be in His Image - FOREVER - AND A DAY ------- © 1999 Dorothy Womack
ONE THOUSAND ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY TWO DAYS
One Thousand One Hundred and Fifty Two Days..... Your leaving brought changes in so many ways Inside, I'm no longer the person I was For most all my life - This is directly because My life was completely rearranged, totally In caring for you, I finally found ME ---- I miss quiet times when we would reflect On our history and the people we'd met Things we had done - places we'd seen Wonderful mysteries: hidden, serene Would one day unfold before my very eyes As I watched you leaving - There was no surprise But only the blessing of knowing where you Were going, and dwelling - Of course, knowing Who Would keep you forever, safe in His loving arms So I'd have assurance that you'd not know harm.... Yet, still, all this time has just drifted away I've not found my bearings, since then till today Often, in stillness, I remember your ways ---- Even now..... One Thousand One Hundred and Fifty Two Days....... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
TO MY AUNTS, ARLINE & LUCILE
I see my mother in your face - I hear her in your voice I know she thinks upon you both and ever does rejoice That she came from a 'gang' of four, who shared most everything Who all loved life, for what it was -and what each day would bring You all grew up and parted ways, at times - and then returned To share an ever growing truth through all that you had learned That miles don't separate the ones we care about the most Not even death itself can take away that which makes you close For love itself is what holds fast - when all else fades from view And love alone gives you the strength to find your place - and to Believe that greater things await the ones who love the Lord Who would not be bought-could not be sold-and set their faces towards The New Jerusalem - To see His Glories yet revealed Amidst the throngs gathered round about - His beauty not concealed And, waiting there, by the Entry Gate - Both, with outstretched hands Stand Muriel and Vivian --- To welcome you into GLORYLAND...... © 1999 Dorothy Womack
WITHOUT YOUR HANDS
Just as a little child I had to learn How to walk without your hands --- So time has bought this back around I am learning once again !! How to walk unaided through this maze Of twists and turns called life --- How to function on my own without Too much fuss or strife --- How to get to where I am going And not look back at where I’ve been Only if I need reminding Of where I was back then --- Then slowly resume forward Motions which will help me find True beauty in this lifetime Real hope and peace of mind --- It’s so hard to keep on walking Without your hands to guide --- Because I’m still your little one Afraid, deep down inside --- But this is all the process Of growing up, you see ---- I’m not yet who I will become I’ll make you proud of me ---- So, without your hands, I’ll falter And stumble along the way ---- Yet, each day I’ll grow stronger With Christ to light my way ---- For I hold tight a secret Down through all Ages, which is: Without YOUR hands to reach for I’m always gripping HIS……. ©2000 Dorothy Womack
GLOWING
I wish someone had told me Before I reached the place Where torment ruled over me And showed all over my face The secrets of the Ages That life itself goes on --- No one who is living NOW Is ever truly gone ---- We dwell in mortal bodies Our homes for a short time But our spirits live forever There is a very fine line Between life on earth And life Eternal --- We step out of our human forms And know joy!! SUPERNAL!! Sometimes we even catch a glimpse Of what awaits beyond Our limited grasp and vision -- We see, with new eyes, upon That which many men have sought To capture or to hold --- How glorious it is to watch As DUST is transformed to GOLD!! Yes, I wish someone had told me Without my personal knowing --- That you really were not DYING Even though I saw you GOING --- Instead, you were truly GLOWING...... ©2000 Dorothy Womack
THAT SPECIAL FACE
How I miss that special face - the one so filled with God's grace Illuminating all that came in her view - So now, what do I do? Tomorrow springs forth without warning or care --- I wonder will she always be found of me there?? Her presence is comforting, surrounding my heart So it doesn't break - or my life, fall apart --- She speaks in soft whispers and often at night I actually feel her in dawn's early light ---- Often I find myself longing for those days When life held a future in so many ways --- Even those times when the day held so much pain Wistfully, I would even take those days again ---- Losing a parent, whose life has become mine Is almost impossible to separate times When I was in my life, and she was in hers Our lives had become one after so many years ---- Yes, I miss her, in a myriad of ways I see her in spirit - I hear what she says That special face I always recognized as my own Has gone on to Heaven - and I stand alone Yet, she reminds me on occasion, lest I sway This is merely TOMORROW, transformed into TODAY So as my focus becomes more in tune I find my life blooming instead of in ruins --- For her special face watches faithfully O'er me always, forever......TODAY........ ©2000 Dorothy Womack
THE PASSAGE
As I lay dying, come near to me Don't run away - Speak peacefully For I'm bound for places where you cannot go But never forget that I still love you so!! I wish I could linger and spend time with you We'd share precious memories between us two We'd laugh and rejoice in all that we've known Marvel at how, in God's grace, we have grown --- Yet, these final moments, I have you, to share To lighten my burden, my load and my cares To strengthen my spirit for what lies ahead --- Encourage and comfort - to cradle my head Though I'll not be with you in physical form Remember I'm living in God's loving arms --- Beyond all the suffering, sorrow and tears Lies Glory and beauty - God sees and He hears!! And even when doubts seem to trouble your mind God has not left you - You'll not come behind For I have gone upward, to blazen the way --- Just keep on believing that you'll see me, someday --- Don't dwell on those times when you couldn't control What happened to me - They touched not my soul !! The life that I lived, has merely changed who I am You'll recognize me when you see me again ---- Walk on with the knowledge that I'm well and free Be not moved by what you feel or you see ---- Faith is conceived when the heart hurts the most I'm still a REAL person - I'm not a ghost!! Keep up those things which bring you great joy Focus on that which God's angels employ ---- Goodness, kindness and charity reigns Because I have gone --- Their presence remains........ ©2000 Dorothy Womack
CHRISTMAS MELODY
My, how different Christmas seems Without your presence here --- I still long to feel your hands And touch your face, so dear --- But, time has changed the way it was And now, it's yet to be --- So, I go on - With God's new song It's His CHRISTMAS MELODY --- The sounds of joy ring in my heart Despite my loneliness --- I realize you're with the King And that He really does know best --- My loss of you meant gain to Him The One who reigns Supreme --- I just wanted to speak out once more Remind you of how much you mean To me - Although you've found your rest And now you wait for me ---- Until we join on Heaven's Shore To sing God's CHRISTMAS MELODY....... ©2000 Dorothy Womack **Dedicated to Mom and also Momma
ANEW
Go on with your life - Don't worry 'bout me For I am at peace and totally free --- Refuse to entertain sorrow or grief God gives you strength and brings sweet relief Start living your life - Again, and anew --- For I'm in your heart and always with you...... ©2000 Dorothy Womack
HOLDING HANDS
When I was little, your hand I held To strengthen me on my way --- When you grew old, my hand you held Just to get you through the day ---- Holding hands conveyed a trust Borne from God above --- The sense of unconditional care Concern, empathy and love ---- How I miss those times in silence when We spoke volumes without words --- The touch of your hand upon mine Brought safety - and my heart heard The things your heart could not say aloud Of all your dreams and goals ---- I will remember always when you held my hand And when I had YOUR hand to hold........ ©2001 Dorothy Womack
DICHOTOMY
Hard to forget, what you once meant to me Hard to go on - Accept reality - Hard to believe life will actually go on Hard to process that you are really gone Easy to fade back into long ago Easy to grasp the truths which you told Easy to grieve over what I cannot change Easy to honor your memory and name Hard to let go - Easy to hold on Impossible to face that our time is truly gone Hard to predict what the future will yet be Easy to dwell in the past - For you see: 'Hard' is quite easy for one to accept When you are left behind - Sad and bereft - Easy to speak out to others in need Hard - when it's time, their advice, to heed Easy to compare someone else's plight Hard when you know this might be your last night --- Hard to continue, when you are alone Easy to slip into depression and just 'zone' Hard when you strive for perfection each day Easy - As you concede to God's will and way Hard to make sense of what's happening to you Easy when God's Love flows between us two -- Hard when our eyes are blinded with grief Easy if we view - This road leads to release!! Hard - yet within us, great strength abides Easy when, at long last, we realize Hard becomes easy - At the end of the road We find Christ is waiting - With blessings untold This is what's known as a DICHOTOMY --- Only a prisoner, bound to a body, can ever appreciate The beauty of a SPIRIT ---- When Christ sets it free............. © 2001 Dorothy Womack
THE DUST HAS TURNED TO GOLD
She was once my mother - So precious unto me Now she lives with Jesus, and so it is that she Resides within the Halls of Christ - His Kingdom is her Home She is now God's daughter - She bows before His Throne She always was a person, with her own philosophies She lived her life the way she wished - Taking time out to raise me She became a woman, wife and mother - As the days began to roll Until the end of her earthly walk, when life took quite a toll She was once my mother - Then she became my friend Through everything she suffered - She looked beyond the bend Where the roads would fork, the waters part, and Christ would come to her Release her from her worldly pain - Her shackles would unfurl...... She always was God's daughter, only on loan awhile for me If not for her obeying Him - I'd not have come to be!! So, I am thankful she was whom God looked upon and told Prepare your heart, and raise this child: The DUST shall turn to GOLD What this must mean, it seems to me, is twofold in its thought: First -those deemed unworthy here are never there, cast off!! For God sees beauty in the bruising - Gold transformed from human dust It means the lowliest of men can raise their eyes in trust --- It also means that what we see as destruction and an end Is only the way God uses to let us begin again --- And that which seems the cruelest fate - One day, we see, unfold The filth of every circumstance has been purified to gold!! And so it is, that I remain - while she has gone to Him How many times I've wished that I could do it all again To have her back - To hear her voice - To have her hand to hold But I know this, beyond a doubt ----- The DUST has turned to GOLD.......... © 2001 Dorothy Womack **Written for Mom, my loving mother
YOUR MEMORY
Memories are images remaining to me Your voice has now faded – Your face, I don’t see But you’re still a part of all that I do Wherever I go – I take you along too It’s hard to release all the substance and such To let them become whispers – A soft, gentle touch Reality now is what I cannot see Yet, you’re very real and precious to me – But, to society’s standards You’ve become just a memory ---- I was once yours – Now, you’ve become mine Memory is granted from God’s grace, Divine I helped you remember the life you once knew Now you are MY memory – Of all we went through Life here on earth goes on – as it should God’s hands are full – turning bad into good Those things found most precious are those you can’t see The Presence of God --- And your memory …… © 2001 Dorothy Womack
I WANT TO KNOW WHY
I want to know why ... So much time has passed and yet I miss you the way I always did, from the very beginning ... I want to know why ... Life has not missed a beat, society has kept on turning and this world has continued spinning ... I want to know why ... The obstacles strewn upon my pathway grew more difficult and answers were hid ... I want to know why ... The dreams I once envisioned coming true have lost all their meaning when they did ... I want to know why ... Nothing has ever meant as much to me as the days spent together, when we had alot less ... I want to know why ... Growing old has to leave us, often bereft and alone, with such emptiness ... I want to know why ... Life on the outside continues on, even when life on the inside is slowly leaving ... I want to know why ... We wear smiles on our faces and laugh when deep down inside, we are still grieving ... I want to know why ... God? when it's my time to leave this world and enter Your Eternal Kingdom ... I want to know why ... It took this time upon earth to produce the priceless beauty of freedom .... © 2001 Dorothy Womack
OUT FROM THE MISTS
Out from the mists of Heaven, they came Bearing great gifts in Jesus' Name --- Softly appearing before me, and then Kneeling to reach forth - Extending their hands One to touch my head - The other, touching hers I recognized them both as being our mothers --- Their hands, unmistakeable - Their faith, unshakeable - God had a reason - a purpose - a cure Sending out healing beams of Light to assure Morning would dawn and life would go on Endings would signal a new start had begun --- Whatever is certain, will certain ever be Nothing can separate in Eternity --- Nor upon earth, when we're joined to the Lord Each of us assured of our true value to God --- Just as quickly appearing - So quick, they were gone But always, forever, in our hearts, living on ---- Entering the chambers where God touches men Out from the mists - Came our mothers again --- @2002 Dorothy Womack **Written for Brenda Race
