LOVE UNDEFINED

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Two years have perplexing emotions have brought me here. To this point in time where I must, If only to myself Define what you are doing in my life. I have passed through uncountable lifetimes you see. That have left me drained, elated, depressed, but OH, so alive. What is this, that wakes me, in the middle of the night, Gratitude? Inspiration? Love? Or is it guilt I suffer? These feelings cannot be explained, they are too new. Guilt, replaced by longing, I admit undeniably Wishing we were in some other time, another place. I admire you I cannot deny, I am motivated by your being Frightened by your strength, and saddened by your shield of iron. I am torn by your constant motion, engulfed by what is you. Sharing agony with ecstasy just seeing you and shamed by these feelings Knowing I am not what you need. Hoping that someday I could be. Love, It has so many meanings and so many stupid rules! You have given me the ability to reach for something new Something my heart knows can never be. You have given me motivation through frustration and drive. Created in Me the stability to strive for the impossible, to fly alone. You try to turn from those who love you most. Freezing them With ice disguising pain, you stand alone like the mighty oak. I wish that I could reach out and protect you, I know this cannot happen, will not be, at least for me. My summer has taught me independence, seeded in part by you. Given me the inspiration to go alone into this world without fear. To conquer the monsters I know await me there. No one else has ever been able to teach me, or to reach me, You alone have touched my life and I have never loved this way before. This makes no sense to you I'm sure, I myself do not understand. This love I cannot deny nor ever forget, of this I am sure. My gratitude shall forever remain, inspired by and devoted to you. And I give you my love, my life and all of my tomorrow's with pride.